mania addiction

For some reason I like feeling mania and I haven't taken my meds in three days. I wish I could take myself off the meds completely, but I can't at the moment because my doc makes me go take level checks sometimes. Can mania be addicting? I enjoy feeling it so much because it makes me feel fearless, happy, and a little psychotic. I wish it would never go away. The only part I hate about bi-polar disorder is the depression. I'd like to deal with the depression by smoking some weed and using other natural substances. This is way off subject, but I quit drinking brew because i hear about people winding up in comas from drinking sometimes.

i havent taken my meds since christmas when i got out of the hospital....my dad wont pay for them

I have a friend who loves going manic (the happy side) too. The way he describes it reminds me of a high dose mdma experience but I'm sure it's way better. Every now 'n then he says he wishes he could go manic. He's not on any meds but, as far as I know, a 'natural' diet and meditation type stuff...

Ever seen a movie where some guy is perscribed a shit ton of meds and it turns out that he's some genius or something and they're just trying to control him? Or like quitting the meds brings on personal enlightenment or some great world change...?

Originally Posted by synaptic aether

I have a friend who loves going manic (the happy side) too. The way he describes it reminds me of a high dose mdma experience but I'm sure it's way better. Every now 'n then he says he wishes he could go manic. He's not on any meds but, as far as I know, a 'natural' diet and meditation type stuff...

Ever seen a movie where some guy is perscribed a shit ton of meds and it turns out that he's some genius or something and they're just trying to control him? Or like quitting the meds brings on personal enlightenment or some great world change...?

i haven't seen the movie, but relate to what you're talkin about.

Originally Posted by joker

i haven't seen the movie

me neither