Look....it's pleasure and nothing more. I am as straight as they come, I had always "wondered" and after a night of drinking with a friend of a friend that was gay, he offered me a BJ....I said fuck it and let him. It was weird at 1st, but it was the BEST and most erotic I have ever had. I even stroked him a little, I couldn't do till he came, so he took over...it was cool, didn't feel "ashamed" afterward....I would allow it again, but not really out looking for it if that makes since. Try it...you only have one life! At least you can say you got the "what if" out of your head.