panicky about BIG dreams

[lover/young_peace]

ok in a nut shell im a perfect artist with no talent.

ok now i guess i gotta explain some, well i would desperatley LOVE to be a writer.

i used to say i loved writing and that was it. why a writer? i love it. simple as that. Now ive lost momentem and skills. But now the need to improve my writing is even greater. you see my BIG dream is to be an artist. whether i get it out with a paintbrush, guitar, or pen & paper i dont give a damn ( although a rocker would be cool ) i just want to be influentail etc. Deffinatey not rich and probably not famous just touching people with my art. so yeah thats my dream and so far writing is the only creative outlet that has worked for me. but lately i can feel the talent slipping through my fingers and i cant let that happen!!!

you see, ive been getting really scared. scared that nobody will know my name and no body will know my depth. scared that ill live in the suburbs and work at a 9-5 job i hate. scared it will all be in vain (really anybody does is in vain... making that fear irrational however to be biggeer would help ease that) so yeah now im lost

rock + roll = my soul forever

ok i doubt that made sense but whatever its late.

[white ginger]

I totally understand what you're saying.. I feel the same way about most of it.
If you're unmotivated, this sounds ridiculous, but what you gotta do is
write write write
and write some more
and draw draw draw

etc. if it's drawing
spill your mind and its ideas onto the paper. GO!

[veinglory]

The best answer is to break you goal into small steps that are easier to focus on, like doing some still life classes, entering a painting in the next fair (or whatever you have in your parts).

[white ginger]

yes that's a good idea
I think it will get you farther listening to that than what I said.

[lover/young_peace]

thanks yall. i think im having a mid-life crisis ...... hahaha ... no but seriously thanks

[Sebbi]

My suggestion would be to write 1 notebook a month. No limits on quality, just quantity. Write the entire notebook onto a computer once you are done, and pick out the bits you like, it doesn't have to make any sense, just a whole load of hot lines. Put them into a single contiguious text and pick the poems out.

For prose just pick out the bits you would like to put across. A message, a short story, whatever, then tweak it so that it is perfect, this means take out all the bits that aren't brilliant.

The golden rule of editing is that you should remember that one hot line will make you famous whereas a load of lukewarm pieces will send people to sleep.

If you are doing a writing project always keep a secondary notebook handy, when doing a project with one notebook you will find there is a whole load of stuff that you want to say but can't because it feel it would interupt your project.

Blessings

Sebbi

[lover/young_peace]

thanks sebbi.... good advice, i think ill try that:)

[white ginger]

Hey Sebbi

what's your pen name?

[Sebbi]

Never come across the idea, what do you mean?

Blessings

Sebbi

[white ginger]

pen name, nom de plume

What I meant was you sound like a famous writer, and a lot of writers don't use their real name when they publish books. Take, for example, Mark Twain. His real name is Samuel Langhorne Clemens. :p twas just a little joke

[Sebbi]

Wow thanks. That really means a lot, even if it was a joke.

I'm doing my first writing project (a novel) which, once its done, I will try to get published. If it does I will just call myself Sebbi English (not Sebastian, shudder).

Blessings

Sebbi

[white ginger]

oh hey that's awesome!!!!! If you remember to, will you let me know so I can read it? Good luck with that!