old crone, can you help at all

[moonbeam]

i have come to a great crossroad in my life, and i feel i need some sort of guidance. i honestly dont mind what or how, but sometimes i feel more complete exchanging with others. afterall, isnt that why we are here? but i am faced with decisions.....that i find difficult to bear, and i was wondering if by any chance you could help me. i may need a more sensitive soul, considering mine may be biased at the moment. there are so many contradicting energies. Any words of guidance will do me well. Thank you, meghan.

[old_crone]

A bushel full of holes, and a rope that coming undone...ladders that turn with no place to go, and mirrors that distort the sense of self are all the same.

Hi Moonbeam

All these things are the same because of the way we percieve with judgements, and attachments to the existance of what is useful, or just plain confusing to the soul.

Help comes when we can reach inside, and ask if we are being true to ourselves. There comes a time in our lives when even this question confronts us with we do not know. We seek out a trust, or balance. A validation that we mattered at all. We desire love, and hope, or even a friend...then we ask why these things are important. Doubt becomes our own devil, and ego does not know how to be an ally.

So where do you begin. Right where you are. See things for what they are, not what you think they are. Find a reason where you sit, or stand to reach inside yourself for the greatest connection of all. The connection to your higher self, and path. YOU ARE YOUR CHOICES. Become your own light.

I asked a crazy man one day why he choose to be crazy. He smiled, and replied, "Because it takes the work out of helping myself." "Why should I save myself, when I can not save others."

Then I asked a priest why he raged like devils, and drank whiskey that would make him forget the abuser he was. He replied..."Because I can get away with my behavior, and choices and no one holds me accountable for what I can not control." I ask was it not enough that he ask of himself to be accountable to himself." He replied that it was unrealistic to expect one man to change the world. I looked him in the eyes and said..("Even in this choice you are changing the world one choice, one thought, and one moment at a time.") You are changing your world, and the ripples this causes will change those around him.

We tend to forget that its not the lightening bolts of wisdom we get hit with, but the moments before us that we choose who, and what we are inside, and out. A dancer will never dance until they first see themselves as a dancer. A writer will never write until he first knows he is a writer. Then the journey begins with a million steps in the direction needed to persue the way we see.

So where do you begin. You already have by asking how to help yourself. You choose to. Make a difference this moment. Change your world one thought, one choice, and one step at a time. The path may not get easier as you go but the adventure will never be boring.

I asked a blind man who always went outside to watch the sunset why he did. He said because he did not want to miss the incredible miracle of one day closing while another prepared to begin. When I reminded him he was blind he smiled, and asked what that had to do with the way the sun set. I had to agree, that his being blind did not stop the sun rising, or setting. But how he percieved these things inside did matter to how he saw.

Life is like this. Sometimes blind is relative, and we are seeing with only the depth, and awareness we choose to.

You want your life to change....Then change it. You want to know what it means to be true to yourself...find out who you are, and create the being you always wanted to be. You want love then become love. Leave yourself no excuses. Tell yourself no lies. Be true to your own heart in ways only you can be.

Any choice is a path...and you have the power within to create the path you are on. You are here to learn and grow. You are here to face yourself, and to embrace the lessons not to get lost in the emotions. You are here to find yourself. The best place to start looking is inside your choices. Become your own reflection. Then lay down your fears, doubts, and emotions and face this being with beauty and truth. then you will find....You are already there.
Love you

[moonbeam]

thank you. that was beautiful.