hmmm...

[coracao1]

i am trying to reclaim my ability to express my emotions in a poem after years of giving it up. what do you think of my poem? please forgive any spelling errors


these days have brought me
thoughts of abandonnment
this is the gift they bring to me
life of my own has been so...
pointless
if only it would just let me be...
to curl up and do nothing
i might as well just die
but i can't make that decision
not even to save my life
this wreckage has no insurance
there will be no transformation
or that's how it seems
a wondering eye without sight
sees more even than mine
in all these years of life
my dieing wish would be just to see...
to give this life a meaning
in this time
and this place...

[Spyder]

well you've definately expressed yourself there!

[coracao1]

gone is my necessity
his own heart has left me
i can't help but to love him
though i don't need nor want him
but he has me
has this hold on me
constant dreaming yields to his hold
but where shall i go?
i can't bear to tear his soul
but shall i give up mine
to appease his own?
when will this heartless love take its toll
my life is just going
without flow, beat, desire, or need
i just need to be free
this bondage is death to me