Fresh coffee and smoking embers...

[HoneySuckleBlue]

...as I sift through what remains of the dark night I am amazed to find myself wanting to wander back into the darkness...

To seek the comfort of the familiar perhaps, almost in spite of the predictable outcomes.

I Know what must be let go (...and it is never what you think it will be!) ...but I'll be damned if I don't want to do it!

I often find myself yelling 'STOP!, right now!!' but I'll continue on like a stubborn child...looking over it's shoulder and grinning a big stolen chocolate chip cookie grin...waiting to see what the punishment will be this time but feeling that funky thrill of breakin' the laws.


How lame is that?

If it is a core problem or ego I can't distinguish. Quite frankly I am emotionaly mentally exhausted and I just want to sit down put my head on my knees and cry. This affecting every aspect of my life and I have to figure it out...maybe things will be better when I get done crying.


Damn.

No more tears.



Hauling stones might work it out eh?

I am gonna be pissed off if this is one of those moment of clarity lessons that only come as you are about to pass over. I can't live the rest of my life like this.

Perhaps shock therapy would do the trick...
http://www.religiouscounterfeits.org/phoenixb.jpg


....Clear!

[nirgal]

Hauling stones....... I recommend!
Hang on to yourself, that's all we have, that and the love given.....
Tears clean the soul, let them go...... can't be filled until you're empty
Love ya

[7river]

what makes you think the universe would let you live your life like that?

...the whole concept is of that veiwed by an outsider.

but this is an autobiography my dear and you shine way too brilliant for such destinies.

the fact that you conjour up such thoughts voids your ticket to such a life.

maybe(and i speak for myself,hence i speak for you) you need to start with knowing that it will pass. it always does

then maybe you can explore this feeling. take in the experience, pick it up turn it over with a childs curiosity and shake it upside down. play the role of its victim if you like, to amuse. but do this knowing that you are its master. it is your box to throw in a closet, smash, send adrift on the sea, conquer, or pass on as an heirloom.

i'll be thinking about you. give a hollar if you want to talk:)

[HoneySuckleBlue]

it is your box to throw in a closet, smash, send adrift on the sea, conquer, or pass on as an heirloom.



*marvels at this statement for a bit*

[nirgal]

Darkness, darkness, be my pillow
Take my hand and let me sleep
In the coolness of your shadow
In the silence of your deep
Darkness, darkness, long and lonesome
Is the day that brings me here
I have felt the edge of silence
I have known the depths of fear


Darkness, darkness, hide the yearning
For the things that cannot be
Keep my mind from constant turning
Towards the things I cannot see


Darkness, darkness, long and lonesome
Is the day that brings me here
I have felt the edge of silence
I have known the depths of fear
Darkness, darkness, be my blanket
Cover me with the endless night
Take away the pain of knowing
Fill the emptiness of right


Darkness, darkness, be my pillow
Take my hand and let me sleep
In the coolness of your shadow
In the silence of your deep


Darkness, darkness, hide the yearnings
For the things that cannot be
Keep my mind from constant turning
Towards the things I cannot see
Darkness, darkness, be my blanket
Cover me with the endless night
Take away the pain of knowing
Fill the emptiness of right

[HoneySuckleBlue]

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be. And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

I love singing around the fire....

[nirgal]

I don't think 2 of us singing is going to be very soothing, better hope somemore voices arrive or we'll be flushing out the RoadRunners :D

[mariecstasy]

Thats What My License Plate Is Gonna Read. Letitbe!!! I Have Found No Other In Maryland W/ It. Need To Get On It, Thought About It For Years

[nirgal]

let it be........

let's sit here and lean against each other back to back, it'll pass in time..........