My Poetry

[Zantetsuken]

Dreaming a thought

This life is a dream that I can't escape
I'm forced to breathe but I try to wake
I try to reach the purest thought
But now I sense that I've been caught
I've pushed myself, I've pushed it all
What's pure is gone and now I must crawl

We're told what's pure, we're told what's right
These things produced by psychological might
We're apes with brains and too lazy to care
Too bad our brains have surpassed our sight

Love is now just a delusional excuse
This excuse is to breathe, I must reproduce
The word is derived from fear of being alone
Just one more reason to teach myself to atone
Your leeching mind is no longer my goal....

We're told what's pure, we're told what's right
These things produced by psychological might
We're apes with brains and too lazy to care
Too bad our brains have surpassed our sight

I tear at these things, but why should I try?
I now know that I'm here to survive
I also know why I found these things
My thoughts come from fear, they come from life
So is this the truth, is this the light?
Truth is a word, and it's out of sight

I'm but a contradictive mind fucked mess
I am your reasons for finding words
You tell me I'm a fool, you show me I'm right
Being my own martyr for how much times I've died
So show me your cures and make sure I'm no threat
I am the unknown and you may fear my regrets

[Zantetsuken]

Energy

If I stare when my mind is down
My lucid glare will drown out sound
I'm lost in mirrors reflecting me
Deceived, I drown in my energy

I'll find a place refracting no light
I'll find a way to be in the night
Away from light, there is only me
Deprived, I am the energy

I look, I stare and I see
I'm one with mind and I am so free
There's light now shining in me
The cure within now helps me to breathe
Life's far away, but I'm energy

I take the step and walk once again
I break the mirrors, now they have names
I dance in life with those that know me
They've seen the glass and we're energy

[Zantetsuken]

Exchange Rate

My TV tries to talk to me
My music tells me I must see
Papers cost more than money
My view distorted with a fee

My friends all sell me what they hate
My life is judged by daily rate
I still believe I follow fate
I'd leave right now but it is far too late

Exchange me
Arrange me
Just show me what it costs

I'm breathing at expense of mind
I grieve as payment for being blind
I spend myself to show I'm kind
My heart I see is lost inside

My boredom takes up all my time
My fear makes things appear fine
I watch and dance and sing and whine
My drugs will show me how to rhyme

Thrill me
Kill me
Just show me what it costs

[Zantetsuken]

Exist for reasons, not lies

I swear that there's nothing out there
But yet you swim to life
Drifting down the somewhere
Avoiding all the knives
However, I delved down under
Examined all the caves
From where I looked above me
And I saw only hate
Well I can see you looking
Judging all the depths
Down here your thinking drowns me
But I still hear your fears
But as this fear sinks in
My hate will grow for you
And as this hatred forms sin
The fear takes me too
I'd tell you that you're living
If I got something in return
Just admit that you're dying
I'm sure that you'll learn
To take you down and under
I'm just another lie
For when you're up there judging
I may aswell just die
So take the dive and listen
The echoes become your eyes
No more learning to die for
And no more pointless sighs
Forever I am down here judging
It seems that nowhere is safe
And as I hear your screaming
I seem better off in this place

[Zantetsuken]

The Gargoyle

Living and breathing
I crave for these things
Staying and leaving
The lies build inside
Denying I'm grieving
My devil has wings
Killing the weeping
Yet I still try to hide
I'm judging those with their minds

Flying and hating
Observing all I pollute
Dying, relating
Alone and breaking with time
Watching and picking
Their minds can not elude
Hoping and healing
Killing me is no crime
I'm not breathing inside

Darkness becoming my eyes
Living contradicting my mind
Hating yet loving my lies
I'm far too fucked up inside
I'm watching all that pass by
They breathe out all they find
Alone, I'm forced to ask why
Kill me, before I survive

Sleeping, I'm dreaming
Reflecting, redeeming
Taking is part of the lie
Dreaming I'm leaving
Sensations are free from my sighs
Let me be free inside
Denying me this is all that I find

[Zantetsuken]

Held together by hate

Always debating the end of the world
It seems it's so clear to me
We're falling, dividing, we do what is heard
Somehow I fought and broke free
But now I see I'm just the same
And now I feel my blame

Denying the battle that's inside
Breaking it open with my lies
Hating and judging
Hating judging
I've lost my mind
There's always suicide

Looking at something will cure my scars
The battle is further from home
We're fighting, existing to claim what's not ours
My time seems best spent alone
But now I see I'm just the same
And now I feel my blame

Denying the battle that's inside
Breaking it open with my lies
Hating and judging
Hating judging
I've lost my mind
There's always suicide

I'm fading from the life I've made
I'm cuddling up to all my fear
I'm falling from my dreamy state
I'm waking into what's really here
This world is losing to our hate
If we're real, let's shed a tear

Denying the battle that's inside
Breaking it open with my lies
Hating and judging
Hating judging
I've lost my mind
There's always suicide

Denying the battle that's inside
Just break it open with your eyes
Using and losing
Using losing
You've lost your mind
There's always suicide

[Zantetsuken]

Human

The smallest weakness I will find
With it I will fuck your mind
Using is my only goal
Hereditary human flow
I'd compensate what I stole
But I'm human, let it go

I can make you breathe it in
I can take your mind away
I can make you see nothing
I can lead your soul astray
So follow me and hope to fight
I'm nothing but a parasite
I'll hold your words, I'll take them in
I'll read your mind, I'll find something
When I know it, you will fall
And I will rise above you all

I can make you breathe it in
I can take your mind away
I can make you see nothing
I can lead your soul astray
Now that I am so far up
It's hard to breathe, it's so damn tough
I want you all to bring me down
Take my egocentric crown
Why the hell can't you see?
What I do, it's all for me

[Zantetsuken]

Natural Cure

Our sin is feeding
We tried to throw it out
But now it's eating
It returned in our doubt

The past will catch us
Beauty is far worse off
Innocence matters
If you want to be lost

I have the cure now
Enough to keep it at bay
But still it haunts me
I need to keep it away

Here you go, take it
I need to see that you're safe
But still you will break it
I see that you're far too gone
The child wants to belong

So throw it out, fake it
I know that you are the shot
Your glass is empty
Though you think it's half full
Your ignorance needs to rush

Our hearts are bleeding
Still we try to go on
We keep on needing
Why should I write this song?

Alone and hiding
Our caves are worn with mistrust
But still we're biding
All that's left is our lust

So hate yourself, throw it
Isn't life just so fun?
Now tell someone, seek it
Show your fear of the gun
I bet you can't even run

So shake it up, breathe it
Your life is now just a show
You'll throw it down, break it
You enjoy not being able to say no
The joke is that you don't even know

Do you know what is happening?
Can you even begin?
Just try and stop laughing
Our minds are swarming with sin

Do you see what's out there?
Do you even see me?
Just think and be nowhere
All life will soon cease to be

To know you are nothing
This haunts me all the time
To take this personally
You're now just one of my rhymes

The cure is in you
Just see you're not the only one
This life is so painful
So redeem what's left of our sun
Just let go of the gun

[Zantetsuken]

Nature's Law

Seethed from the sounds of nature's law
The ground opens up as it has before
A nameless soul that knows no wrong
Its eyes open up and it hears the song

A word is imposed upon its head
Its mind is so open yet it's almost dead
So proud are the givers that they seek and deliver
Now nothing is heard but is told instead

The melody of life is an endless dream
We're slaves to ourselves yet it does not seem
We breathe in our lies like we're the gods of all
Yet we're all still right here dancing down this fall

[Zantetsuken]

Night

Everything I've done
To draw her close to me
Fear the morning sun
For night I beg and plea
Without her at my side
There's no more light to see

All the hate I built inside
And all the fear stored within
I look into your eyes
And nothing is a sin

I'm falling through the night
My goal is all too clear
Descending far from light
There's nothing left to fear

I can see you in my mind
You are all too near
Your eyes I cannot find
You're now the only thing I fear

[Zantetsuken]

Over the Fall

Redeeming light, the kind of thing I needed then
My lethal sight, responsible for everything
Whenever I have fallen down
The angel’s height, I am so happy from the high
The blinding night, I survive on ignorance
The edge is looking good
I’ve fallen down

I fall from you, the people that are real
I’m crawling through the sky that makes me heal
The ignorance is drifting far from me
And when I look I see what’s happening
If you’re alive then please tell me you’re listening

Now I’m here, trapped in a place in mind
This place is clear and everything will help me find
My helpless sound
No angel’s here, and with the devil out of me
I try to find life’s insecurities
Just look at me
And search for you

I fall from you, the people that are real
I’m gliding through the sky that makes me heal
The ignorance is drifting far from me
And when I look I see what’s happening
If you’re alive then please tell me you’re listening

I close my eyes, I’m pretending that I’m crazed
But now I know, normality is just a haze
I am alone
I climb the lies, I reach the mountain top
I have to go, this place is now just another drop
I can’t believe just what I’ve heard
I’ve fallen down

I fall from you, the people that are real
I’m gliding through the sky that makes me heal
Ignorance is drifting far from me
And when I look I see what’s happening
If you’re alive then please tell me you’re listening
Is this the end of what could be?
Killing minds from the age of three
Forget you’re dead and use the key
Just take the jump and you can see
Live again or just cease to be

[Zantetsuken]

Condemned

Condemn me for something I have never done
I know that blame will always come
Forget me, apart from when it suits your needs
You need my mind, you need to feed
Return me, for loneliness I will have to run
Fuck the pain and screw everyone
Bleed me, all alone without your voice
If only I was strong and had a choice

Condemned, forgot, returned and bled
You've fucked the thoughts up in my head
You brought me pain but killed instead
The reasoning inside is dead
Condemn, forget, throw me and wait
You have shown me my self hate
I can't control my open state
I'll kill myself, it's not too late
Condemned, forgot, returned and bled
You've just heard what can't be said
You're guilt is mine, I have just fed
Don't be blind, I'm in your head
For all my guilt is dead

[Zantetsuken]

Problem/Answer

I stay awake to this fading dream
Unable to sleep for thoughts of her
I avoid the truth within my head
I burn the things that make me care
I ignore it all away

I'm happy, we're happy
We all seem very happy
I walk this path without a choice
Another head fucked person to up the cost
Never sure if this is my real voice
Acceptance is your only loss
I tear this mask away

Violence and crying
These things are fucking trying
They're tearing, they're daring
I throw them all away
Ignorance and lying
These things are fucking blinding
They're staring, they're blurring
It's just another day

I search for truth, I know it's there
I know deep down that it's somewhere
The lies are real, we're in a dream
The irony comes when we're redeemed
I laugh you all away

[Zantetsuken]

Pure Light

The streams of time will always flow
My fear of the world will continue to grow
All hope can fall into an empty void
This void was my heart that is long since destroyed
My faith in humanity lost in this slaughter
And my frail soul still suffers the torture
As all this darkness clouds my mind
As my hate grows before I am no longer kind
As I fall through the uncertain days
I see your light in so many ways
The purest thing I have ever seen
Fun, forgiving and never mean
An optimist and a visionist
A comedian but never an egotist
You are the things I gave up trying to find
And the only thing I would miss if I went blind
I would hate to see your light extinguish
You are my last hold on a life I wish to relinquish
The only clarity in a world full of darkness
And the only thing to give me a meaningful purpose
So take my hand and we can shine
And guide eachother through the streams of time

[Zantetsuken]

Relive

Mix some lies
Pour when ready
Create the scene
It's imaginary
Anger, Fear
Hatred, Envy
In the end
We're all just drifting vessels

Drifting forward
More momentum
Never slowing
No progression
Stop, Relax
Sit and Wait
Calm yourself
You must control your fate

You fear the fading light
You fear the upcoming night
Fear in motion
Is a fearful notion
Forget the night
Overcome emotion

Forget your sins
It's in the past
Start again
Renew your awkward life
Drop the pain, hate and envy
Slow right down
It's no longer imaginary

You fear the fading night
You fear the upcoming night
Fear in motion
Is a fearful notion
Forget the night
Overcome emotion
And when the rythm is embracing
And the light is what you're facing
Turn around, take a hand and never stop dreaming

The night is gone
The light is forever
Hold on tight
Embrace this lovely weather

[Zantetsuken]

Safe in hate

I hate today and can not face it
It's do or die I just need some passion
Too bad that disease is all I live for
I die some more every time I see you
Wherever I look I see false compassion
And everything I breathe will create a fucked up reaction
It tears me down, will kill my mind and create another reason
The only thing that keeps me here is the hope of progression

Every scene in life just shakes me down
I'm not on stage with all you fucking clowns
Instead I watch and see how this became
Why don't you see that every day is just the fucking same?
The shake of hands, it's fucking electrical
All your reflections, they're just symmetrical

To live again is to seek somebody's attention
Deceive myself into thinking they will give me progression
But what do I find instead?
More fucked up things inside my head
I ask you what drove you to this
But all I get is more of it
So now I crawl from you
My sickness, far from through

I find a reason to believe in myself once again
Fuck all care and fuck your nothingness
I watch you all and find a way to bring you down
I am here and I will show you your nakedness
I know I hate but the reason is far too intense
I am your hate, your lies and your innocence
You've made me breathe, so if you do not repent
I'll take your sins and tear you down, perhaps I'm heaven sent

[Zantetsuken]

Spiral Freefall

I've lost all control
I spiral below
I have destroyed it all
This is my freefall

I circulate this fear and hate
I must control this bitter state
To kill myself, it's far too late
Don't pretend that you know me

I've lost all control
I spiral below
I have destroyed it all
This is my freefall

Retort upon your thoughtless voice
It is all just one big noise
I will not give you a choice
Fuck off acting like you know me

I've lost all control
I spiral below
I've destroyed it all
I'm in a freefall
There goes my soul
It's spiralled below
I've destroyed everything
I cannot fucking win

[Zantetsuken]

Subliminary Head Fuck

You're in my mind once again
Like a rush of adrenaline
I feel your breath like a cold sweat
I dream of the day the two of us met
I hear the sound of your voice in my thoughts
I fall away from the world as I feel what you brought
My eyes will burn as I look into yours
My sins will fade as I examine your flaws
A harmonic echo within my heart
A sudden aggression as I recall what you are
The end of my life and the start of my war

Sleepless desire and no sense of loss
I'm caught in a void that's bringing me sores
I turn around to look as I fall again
I'm bringing me down but I can not complain
So tear up my heart and drive me insane

I'm now far too gone to let you inside
What's wrong is right, you're just another lie
Let me drown in thought and be alone
I can't stay with you when I just want to die
So pull away from me and open up your eyes

Sleepless desire and no sense of loss
I'm caught in a void that's bringing me sores
I turn around to look as I fall again
I'm bringing me down but I can not complain
So tear up my heart and drive me insane
But keep in mind you're just another game

[Zantetsuken]

The cry of the dead

Anger, hatred then democracy
It all became when we joined you see
Religion started in our smallest groups
But now we're here it's what splits us up

The stubborn rules of our society
Religious laws become anxiety
But what will come to be?
Forget our currency

Ruined, lost and forsaken lives
When we're born it's all just a lie
Inside I'll never be forgiving this
You're turning us into lying hypocrites

Just look around
It's a horror movie now
I can hear the sounds
We're crying now

It's now or never that you drop the hate
It's now or never 'cos it'll be far too late
You are killing us
You're betraying us

Just see yourself
You delay the wealth
Destroy our health
After this, what will be left?

[Zantetsuken]

The Current

Here again and flooding the skies
My dreams are numb as days become night
My lies delude and strangle my mind
The hands of faith will hide from my sight
The signs are clear
My time so near
But I jump and fall to know that I’m here

I fall away
The life within will hold onto me
My eyes burn as I believe
But I smile and start to see
My hate fades and I’m so free

I’ve woken
I’m life again
You’re broken
So I’ll pretend
For all the things that have taken me down
With all the life that seemingly drowns
I take your eyes and try to replay
I see your lies and what you’ve repaid
It’s clear
With time so near
I’ll jump and die to know that I’m here

I fall away
The life within will hold onto me
My eyes burn as I believe
But I smile and start to see
My hate fades and I’m so free

You’ve woken
I hold you close
We’ve spoken
Remember us
There is hate surrounding all of our lives
There is death distorting all of our sighs
With fear and plague just mocking our cries
Please remember why we survive
It’s clear
My cries are fear
I leave you now to know why I’m here

I fall away
The life within will hold onto me
My eyes burn as I believe
But I smile and start to see
My hate fades and I’m so free
I’m trying to stay
But I can’t hold on
My last day
Soon I’ll be gone

We’ve spoken
I held you close
You’ve woken
Just live and love

[Zantetsuken]

The Energy of Hatred

I see my faith it’s so worn and lost
At least I know this
I drink my daily cup of lust
I know I do not need it
I am living in my own ways
Too bad my soul is rotten
I know that all life is dead
Seems you’ve all forgotten

Ash and dust are in our eyes
We dream that we’re alone here
We’ve let their hate hypnotise
There’s nothing now to hold dear
It’s here I stand without my lies
I know I’m so near
But when I’m close I hear you die
And I am left here

Now I’m high without my skin
Seems that hate surrounds me
I will fade into my mind
I dream I am free
The balance is so lost right now
When I can hear you
The fuel of hate will fill me up
Now I am dead too

Ash and dust will fill my mind
I live in someone’s anger
When I’m here I am so blind
The smell of death will linger
Now that hate is on my side
I’m breathing with my power
But fading out will make me hide
And now my hate is sour

Waking up I am not dead
But I must start again
I just try to sleep instead
This will make it rain
So I arise among the lost
Silence in my thoughts say
You are alive but you are gone
But it is here you must stay

So when hate comes to take me down
I know I must erase it
And if I find that it makes me drown
I know I must escape it
The ash is trust it’s in your bread
You can’t survive without this
Possessing dust is in your head
But with this you seek bliss
Here I am I know what’s true
I live for myself
Once you see you live for you
You will see your own wealth

[Zantetsuken]

The Unending Lies

Beautiful memories of a broken child
Sing for the ending but fear its grasp
Awake into nothing and hate what is left
A passion for leaving and a love for its theft

So self-destructive, I’ll choose again
Russian roulette will tell me my name
So I’ll dance with deciding
I’ll win once again
I’ll trust in your hatred
It’s all just a game

The blood is now dripping
I feel my thirst
This pain’s just beginning
I’ll make it much worse
So I start to breathe it
This flowing lust
I dance with its essence
I can’t get enough

The lies are unending, this life is lost
I’m tired of pretending that I can breathe
Hatred and fear will save my eyes
They’re too busy burning within the lies

Sold and forgotten, I died at birth
My soul is still rotting so I’ll make it worse
I’ll throw out the loving
I’ll build my wall
I’ll force in the hatred
I’ll laugh as I fall

The blood is now dripping
I feel my thirst
This pain’s just beginning
I’ll make it much worse
So I start to breathe it
This flowing lust
I dance with its essence
I can’t get enough

Deceive what is in me
I ask you please
My body’s unwilling
But my mind must feed
It still tries to escape me
It evades me in time
So please can you kill me
I’ll be free from my lies

[Zantetsuken]

Walk Away

My heart is heavy
My lies are stone
This time I'm ready
I die alone

My bones are broken
My soul is lost
Some words were spoken
That haunting ghost
I see her every time I close my eyes
Those words, in time, have paved my lies

My world is Jaded
My mind will stare
She lies there fading
Her eyes are blurred

My hate is blinding
My heart will pay
My fate is binding
I cannot stay
My dreams show me the only way
I must walk so far away
To die now is to stay
The light will guide the way

[Zantetsuken]

We are our own Gods

When did this begin?
Since when was there sin?
Why did we have to give in?
This fear is wearing us thin

He wrote his book and he earned
His views were treasured and learned
His fables were metaphorically burned
He's a person just like you and I
If he saw this, he would just sigh
He created good by using his eyes
Now it's just gone way too far

Ignorance begets hate, begets death
Love is loving ourselves instead
Why can we not agree?
We're all just the same in our minds
But life has distorted our finds
We've killed ourselves

Creating more steps to demise
The mountains we have to climb
Hierarchies must fall
They clutch us and force us to crawl
Selling our souls at our peaks
Our hatred becoming disease
Just kill yourself

Our Gods are just our minds
Distorting all of our finds
It helps us to reach our goals
To live and die as it goes
Beautifying all that we see
Boredom leads to disease

[carsick]

id tell you how good they are but it'd prolly go to your head!:cool:

[mysti]

those are ALL great!! do you have ne more?

[Zantetsuken]

I have quite a few more, but the ones I put up here are my favourites, there's a few more I'll be adding soon, as I write more poetry I'll be adding them onto here aswell

[Zantetsuken]

The Dying Race

Lovers, forget that things can be so bad
Brothers, take your turns at being sad
Mothers, save us from the worlds true face
Fathers, teach us why we have to hate

Stranger, why do you always seem to hide?
Danger, I sense it every time you lie
Your mask is wearing you
It saves you from all that's true

Nothing can ever seem to change
Our lives are all the same
It seems we can not rearrange
No one can ever hold the blame

Use us, it seems that it is all you do
Lose us, I now know that I use you too
It seems that there is no way through
Our lies are spread, we're doomed

Nothing will ever change
Our lives are all the same
We can never rearrange
No one can ever hold the blame

Look up, stop ignoring what's out there
Grow up, just choose the reasons why you care
Our lives are one, why can't you see?
Your bitterness will stop us from being
Soon we will just cease to be
We die the second we're not free

[Zantetsuken]

Not for human eyes

Another dream to show the way
Tell me what I'll learn today
Bring me anger and some pain
Force me to play another game

Shimmering faith and stormy clouds
Fucked up screams that are so loud
Diseasing minds within the crowds
I'll make a day of what I've found

My plague is forcing me
My dreams are leading me
Pretend it can not be
This isn't for me to see

Empty roads and empty minds
My empty heart will close the blinds
Boring oaths, it's all the same
I see a face, I see no name

My plague is forcing me
My dreams are leading me
Pretend it can not be
This isn't for me to see

Just one more day of suffering
Another hour that hate will bring
One more second within my skin
I'll drive me crazy from within

My plague is forcing me
My dreams are leading me
Pretend it can not be
This isn't for me to see
It's me against eternity
I'm writing for my sympathy
I'm dead and so is she
This thing isn't for me to see

[Zantetsuken]

Your Choice

If you listened I believe you would stand still
It feels as though you can't
Just see the reasons you need to live now
You will understand

Relying on others to teach you
Fear is only a word
Telling your mind what to look through
Ignore what is heard

You're pressured in to living and dying
What's in between is what they will say
A life spent selfishly lying
You're soon on your way

Just leave routine right behind you
Imagine time isn't real
All questions can be answered within you
Reflect and you'll feel

A world without people crying
This world I know exists
Everyone found out why they're sighing
It's hate they resist

Believe that good can become us
Meditate on why you hate
Teach yourself not to become rust
It's never too late

If you listened you will know what you must do
Pull yourself away from your lies
Drop everything and now look through
Free yourself from your cries

[groovygirl]

those are awosome dont give up ok;)

[Zantetsuken]

thanks, I don't think I'll ever be giving up.
whining about how bad the world really is and making other people realise it is my fave hobby O.o

[barefoot hippie]

those poems are absolutly amazing

[Zantetsuken]

Thanks, I was just about to write some more ^^

[Zantetsuken]

The Black Hole

Where's my faith?
It seems to try is to let it go
Where's my heart?
I let her leave and now there's snow
The light I feel is lost in sin
The dark denied is trapped within

Where's my mind?
To pull it close will make me cry
Where's my soul?
The day I loved is the day I died
The hate in me now starts to shape
It takes me down, I can't escape

Soon to be consumed by denying fate
I'm coming to the end but I try to heal
This only brings me close as it's far too late
I'd try to cry but I no longer feel

Nothing can pull me close, it's just a lie
My circuits overheat as I question why
Reality is never kind I know this now
Just stay away from me before you die

[Zantetsuken]

Shimmering Light

I'm flirting with my sky
It's light so must be true
It's the ocean that denies
It's the sky that gets me through

I see the depths that go so high
But why are they so blue?
As this question starts to sigh
I ask what it is for you

As the night draws close to me
I pull myself away
I sleep and it comes for me
Why is it here I must stay?

I awake to this
My sky now looks so grey
I look down and see it
The ocean knows the way

My depths now know their bounds
My mind begins to flow
Within this current I have found
There's nothing I can't know

The waves begin to breathe
I am now so near
My soul is now unsheathed
The oceans breath is here

It's here I part from days
Time is insincere
The sky is just a maze
The water is so clear

I see it passing by
Never knowing why
It's there that you all fly
I'll see you when you die

[Zantetsuken]

My blurred World

I am an Angel and a Demon, there is nothing in between
I am your ageing shades of reason, just show me what I mean
When I hold my breath, I'm in a natural high
If I hold it for too long, the Angel starts to cry
The Demon takes a hold and I can only fly
If you hold me down, I'll show you how you die

I'm a liar in denial, I will take it to my grave
If the truth will give me style, my path begins to pave
But even if I crawl away
Even if I hide away
Even when I feel okay
I know it's here that I will stay

I've heard that once you realise, you're half way there
But it's half way that I stand, confused beyond my care
With the Angel and the Demon beside me as I stare
Their battleground is worn, but now they've learnt to share

Chivalry comes from love and love is in our minds
The ugly must repent whilst beauty is too blind
Selfishness breeds lust and lust is all I find
But this is in my mind
Religion held us back since when it lost to hate
By being afraid to die, you throw away the wait
Forget all time, accept your fate
But this is in my mind, this is in my eyes

[Zantetsuken]

Following Dreams

Lifestyle is what you make
Not what they have told you
A lifestyle within their wake
You'll follow what they do

A lifestyle of soul retort
The dreams of their empathy
Lifestyle of what you bought
The mind is the enemy

Afraid now of what you think
Ignore it like they do
Pray now that there's a link
Pray now you're normal

Ash and dreams will cover all
There's no way you'll die now
This very second you could fall
But you're too caught in your lies

Follow all the gatherings
Safety now in numbers
You've no clue of the hate you bring
You're too lost and bitter

It seems their dreams had tricked your mind
You're ageing and you're wasted
As long as you believe you stood their line
As long as there's some life you've tasted

God came
He showed me why
It seems that he is in me
I know now I must please him
White came
Am I in a dream
Turns out that I'm in limbo
It's a test of what I make it

Hate rules and takes our souls
But I know I must grow stronger
If I resist and feel my goal
This hate will rule no longer
Within my mind I see the key
My dream is what I make it
I'll make it turn so I can see
A world where dreams are happy

[Zantetsuken]

The 60th first and last

My thoughts are lost in time
My lies forget what's real
If I tried to find
The more my pain reveals

The floods that wash my face
The fate that pulls me down
There's nothing but this place
I can never drown

My dreams are made from sin
The fabric that tears with hope
Without it I am skin
Without it I am lost

The portraits that I see
They're fading as I watch
The black-hole becoming me
I taint and never stop

I died so long ago
The reaper made a deal
The fear made me stay
As payment I can't feel

Open eyed and blind
The dirt will suffer me
The darkness is my mind
The darkness sets me free

[Zantetsuken]

Mind's Breath

The days I lost were spent and worthless
For years I tried to feel my purpose
Not what they say, not what I'm told
Not what I see, my fear grows
To know I'm here, to know what comes
To feel my fear as anger drums
It took me down

The dreams I kept were used and endless
I threw away and felt so careless
Not worth my time, not worth my life
Not in my mind, not in my sight
So tired of loss, so tired of hate
But with this time there grew my fate
It took me in

The light becomes my eyes
The clearing shows me why
Alone I see the sky
I walk away from lies

Today I see my purpose
A day of vain is worthless
A mind of hate is careless
The moment we die can't hurt us
The lies we hate, the hate builds fear
This test in faith, the goal is clear
The day we're free, the day we die
The seconds we breathe can leave our eyes
In fear we seek, in lies we hide
My heart is burnt but now I fly
The more I sigh, the more I smile
The more I cry, there's less denial
So fear it not and let it go
Retrieve some light and feel it grow
Today I feel, today I see
The end will come, by then I'm free
It tests me now
I'm lost somehow....

[Zantetsuken]

Dark Algebra

A lie in us that came from birth
This lie built us and made our world
Our hate for dark, But soon we adapt to believe it's right
Out of light, our parasite thirst is fed through our sight

I have seen what we can do
I believe dark pulls us through
Hate and lust, it's deep down inside even the purest saint
I see dust, our ignorant minds were bored, so had to paint

Giving or taking?
Healing or hiding?
Smiling or hating?
Living or dying?
Everything we're told is the wrong way 'round
The day that you die is when you hear true sound

I'm so tired of running
Though the lies are only in my face now
I know I can not fight it
The formula shows only one way out
Deceive my eyes
Fuck my mind
I let you in
I beg for lies

Just kill my mind
Just take my eyes
I must believe it's fine
I must escape my life
Just bleed me dry
Bleed me through
Feed my lies
Make me you
Kill this pain
Kill these sighs
No more games
No more cries
Fuck my lies
Fuck this mind
Screw these eyes
Make me blind
The formula has shown me how to find
Patience gets eaten in this darkness
To take the step out of these lies
But do I step into what defines us?

Another plague?
Another lie?
Another dream?
Another sigh?

[Zantetsuken]

Unlucky

Another friend and another try
Noting's here but a thousand lies
Another girl and another sigh
Nothing's here but I still deny

The pretty pictures build a masquerade
I just stare as my feelings fade
An empty corner where I wait and see
The only place where my mind is free

All's I want is my happiness
Helping others brings me emptiness
If I leech I know that I will die
Just give me lies and take me far from this

It's fair to say I never stood a chance
But building anger puts me in a trance
I'm right to say we're all lost in lies
The lucky laugh whilst unlucky people cry

In this theatre I judge the dreams
Dreaming people live in dreamy screams
It's no-one's fault but it's still hard to stand
Wake up now before my hate demands

[carsick]

if you read this before i ring you PREPARE.......... for me comin round and getting pissed and wrecked and stoned and morrowinded.

[Zantetsuken]

Nothing's real until you lose it

In my eyes there's nothing real now
A hole in space that tells me my feelings
Reflecting darkness that knows me somehow
Another breeze that's bent on redeeming

Nature's hands that stretch my resistance
In my mind I am the fire
I'm sucking in all in this distance
Tempting light but I am a liar

There's something wrong
I must expand it
Write a song or throw and demand it
There's something gone
I must now see it
When it's lost is when I'll believe it

No more words
I stand in silence
Another stare
I'll turn to violence

There's something wrong
But you can not see it
We live in lies and I only see shit
There's something lost
We'll never see it
When we're dead is when we'll believe it

[Zantetsuken]

Everything

I'm asking what is real
The voices can't decide
Is it what I'm told now?
Or is it what I hide?

Escaping is no option
To run will scar my mind
But I'm just so afraid here
There is no solace I can find

Is this nothing?
Or is this everything?
Is this loving?
Or is this just a selfish game?

Teach me how to catch it
Just show me how to race
Show me how to like it
Show me how to drown in hate

Am I something?
Or am I the same?
Is this your shoving?
Or am I just vain?

There's something
But everything's dead
No loving
Denying our breath
It's nothing
It's all in my head
I'm not shoving
Soon you'll be dead

[Zantetsuken]

Mass Illusion

Beside and in my arms there are so much sighs
Holding them to prove that there's nothing in this life
In this I now exist, and there's nothing left to hide

This is all in our heads, I could never really see
Feeling instead, my eyes will just deceive
The day that I fall is the day that I breathe

You stand so far away as I judge you inside
I see it all so clear, the things you've denied
Even if I try, you'll never realise

You're thrown into life and taught to see in the dark
A mind that was once pure has been given its mark
This is what you'll be until you don't relax

Dreams can fall apart if there's nothing to hold
They will swallow you up and chew 'til you're old
The breeze that takes your heart and makes you so cold

Outside I see the trees, their beauty brings sin
Soon corruption taints, it burns the forest from within
Such is the basic law of claiming everything

Among the desperate sounds I can hear in your world
There's bleeding and there's hate and a soul that you sold
There is no escape, you've become the black hole

Synthetic minds and synthetic rules
A shallow little mind and a love for its use
Let's make some paper now or we will just lose

[Zantetsuken]

Beginning and the End

I'm sitting back and letting days slip by
The window stares and shows me so much hate
My heart still fades as I resent its lies
I disappear as there's nothing left to hide

Holding me away from hurting you
I could bring you pain and burn you up inside
There's still a part of me I think is true
But if I looked, I know I'd shoot you through

The dark in me has claimed another day
The things I see are begging me to stay
The lies I hear still me it's ok
But to be free, I'll fuck it all away

The light is false, I know because I saw
The space above is just a natural whore
Without the dark, there's no such thing as law
The light I see is a reaction and a door

I'm taking you apart
I'll get inside your heart
I'll bet you feel so smart
I've fucked your mind and taken you to the start

I've taken me apart
I am inside my heart
I am my work of art
I've fucked my mind and now I must restart

[Zantetsuken]

Infinitely Blind

I have tried
I've tried so hard, but the lies
I have died
The feelings died and I now hide
I hide so far, now there's no more lies

Only sighs
I realise
We all died
The day we're born is the day we die
If I tried to stand I'd only fall to my lies

Even when I stand to reclaim
Even if I told you you're just the same
Even when I say you're insane
The parasites gather and I just fall to your blame

Such a shame
A shame you're just a game
But I'm insane
I'm another source of blood with a name
Even if you believed, it's only because it's a game

We're the same
We were never sane
My mind is tamed
But you're falling victim to your blame
With reason dead and a shaded mind, you still believe there's no such thing as a lie

Realise
Even if you tried to see
Even when you're down on your knees
Even when the light becomes your mind
Until we're dead, the dark inside makes us blind

[Zantetsuken]

Whispers

Another day that brings a whisper
My ears have been deceived
A dream that said I miss her
It brings a passion for disease

Fuck me, make me helpless
Just kill these thought and stay
If only my lies weren't worthless
She's a dream and far away

Is it too late for love to help me?
Is love even a truth?
I see my mind has made this clear
There's nothing now that can get me through

All these people make me angry
Let's trade some fucking pain
Seems deception makes them happy
I hope you choke on your vain

Take out my eyes and kill off my reasons
Kill my anger too
I feel I'm out of season
There's nothing left that can get me through
Just take back time and let me touch her
I'll fall into the sun
But soon it's time to wake up
Soon my dream is done

[Zantetsuken]

Lost in a Dream

I think it's funny how we deceive
We just think something is real
And then we hurt eachothers beliefs
If it threatens our relief

I think it's funny how I seem
I know exactly what you think
But to me, I'm real and you're a dream
Another joker with a team

Have I damaged your little world?
Am I threatening your beliefs?
Oh wait, you never heard
What I'm saying is just your dream

I think it's stupid how we deceive
You're setting up your little scheme
Yet you don't know what this means
Because to know this, will threaten your relief

Have I stolen your peace of mind?
Am I taking you apart inside?
Then again, you could never find
Everything you're hearing is just a lie

Do you feel that you can see?
Is everything you've heard meeting me?
Why don't you smile and then breathe
Because you're dreaming that this can be

[Zantetsuken]

Weight of the Infinite

The concrete cracks and frees me
I once denied the path I'd choose
I then learned to know what could be
And I faded and refused

Your world of endless questions
The lies that make them true
I then formed my own suggestion
Your eyes can not see through

Before you see what is above you
Before you ever hope to find
The questions that you deem true
Just try and leave your mind

As I stood here staring
I stopped without a thought
It's nothing worth me sharing
You're too busy wondering what you sought

Believing is deceiving
Illusions are what we see
Our brain is just deceiving
Our love and why we leave

Whisper me your hatred
Nostalgic disrepair
The words you use are natured
Of course you really care

Fall on me with fear
Some obsessive side effects
Know it's not why we're here
It is our lies that we forget