CaratheCara
12-23-2004, 02:35 PM
Hi, I'm probably just being paranoid but last friday my work had an end of year do type thing at 1pm, we all went to the pub and...I was very silly and drank quite alot, about 8 units I think, I wasn't too out of it but anyway at about 8.45pm I left the town to walk home, there was a bloke there who I work with (he's 19) (I'm 17 by the way), and I don't know him very well but he seems sweet but he wanted to walk me home, I said I'd be ok cos I didn't want to be a hassle and I already have a bit of a thing going on with another bloke so I didn't want to make the other bloke jealous, but he insisted he should walk me home. So we left the town at about 8.45 to walk home, I remember walking over the bridge, then I had to sit down for abit cos I felt abit sick, then I remember walking up the hill but I don't remember walking up the rest of the hill, I just remember him saying goodbye to me at the end of my road, (this was at about 9.30), it does normally take about half an hour to walk home from the town. He just kissed me on the cheek and we said goodbye and everything seemed fine, I went into my house and even had a little converstaon with my parents and everything seemed fine tho I was feeling abit out of it still, but not too bad!I didn't sleep that well that night, tossing and turning, mainly cos I was worried that I'd made a fool of myself that night with drinking too much (I am abit of a worryer!). But just a few days later I had a horrible thought, thinking back to that night, as I said, I remembered most things, just not everything i did in the town (but I know I was safe in the town cos I was with my friend then), but I just don't remember walking up the hill, so I was thinking, if I don't remember walking up the hill how do I know that nothing happened?I mean how do I know that he didn't rape me?I must admit, I'm quite a naive sort of girl, I've never drunk that much before so I don't really know what being drunk is like, I spose its normal for drunk people to forget things about thier night?& I'm sure if he did try anything with me I would've stopped him but I mean, what if I was REALLY out of it?&what if I was even slightly unconcious and didn't have a clue what was going on?what if he slipped me one of those date rape drugs or something?I don't really understand how those date rape drugs affect someone, how would I feel afterwards if he had given me one in one've my drinks?I mean how long would the affects have lasted?If I was unconsious, would I have been able to have a relatively normal conversation with my parents about half an hour after?
I asked him about the night and at first he was saying, o yes we did it, can't you remember, I can't believe you forgot, I can't have been that good, etc, but he did sound like he was joking, then I sat him down and talked with him and said about how worried I was and about how I could be pregnant then he said "No, we didn't do anything really, I just gave u a kiss on the cheek at the end of your road". Its just I don't really kow this guy well so how can I trust him?So from the facts I've given you do you think it was possible I could've had sex with him and then just forgot all about it?I am a virgin and I'm determined not to have sex with anyone until I know we are both in definate love but...o I don't know. I'm sure nothing did happen cos wouldn't I have woken up once I realised what he was doing? I'm just so scared because I don't want to be pregnant! And my period came the very next morning so it's abit hard to say whether I felt sort of sore around that area because I was in abit of a mess around that area anyway because of my period!
O I'm so confused, sure I'm just gettin over paranoid, but please answer me, sorry I've rambled quite abit, I've got no1 else to talk too. Thankyou sooooooooooooo much for your time, Jill xxx
I asked him about the night and at first he was saying, o yes we did it, can't you remember, I can't believe you forgot, I can't have been that good, etc, but he did sound like he was joking, then I sat him down and talked with him and said about how worried I was and about how I could be pregnant then he said "No, we didn't do anything really, I just gave u a kiss on the cheek at the end of your road". Its just I don't really kow this guy well so how can I trust him?So from the facts I've given you do you think it was possible I could've had sex with him and then just forgot all about it?I am a virgin and I'm determined not to have sex with anyone until I know we are both in definate love but...o I don't know. I'm sure nothing did happen cos wouldn't I have woken up once I realised what he was doing? I'm just so scared because I don't want to be pregnant! And my period came the very next morning so it's abit hard to say whether I felt sort of sore around that area because I was in abit of a mess around that area anyway because of my period!
O I'm so confused, sure I'm just gettin over paranoid, but please answer me, sorry I've rambled quite abit, I've got no1 else to talk too. Thankyou sooooooooooooo much for your time, Jill xxx