Just popped first half...

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Wish me luck... I'm goin' in!
I'll keep ya posted.
;)

[pandiebeer]

:D Have fun, let us know how you're doing!

[SweeperOfDreams13]

First half was popped about 15 minutes ago... Things seem a bit different, but that's probably just some sort of placebo effect because I've been anticipating this moment for a while. :)
I've noticed that my heart rate has increased significantly I really feel like popping the other half, but I must wait... hold on, gotta drink some water...
hm... I think this'll turn out ok.
I feel happy.


EDIT: Pills make me burp.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I tried smoking a cig, but I can't feel the smoke going into my lungs.
It's annoying.
I just outed it... I'll try again later.
I feel happy and social.
And this is only the beginning!

Whoa, I just put out a cig on my tongue.
cool.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Whoa, just smoked a cig and it's really starting to kick in... I'm feeling a bit dizzy, but overall it's good...
I am happy, I am laughing at everything.
Maybe I should pop the other half now?

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Just took second half... finished the first bottle of water.
I am feeling mellow and poetic.
It's all good.
All you need is love.
I feel like talking, carrying on a conversation. I have quite a bit to say.
I just keep rubbing my arm and chest, touch feels pretty good.
But it's not sexual at all, merely sensual.

[HappyHaHaGirl]

Keep drinking your water! I wish I could be there... :(

[SweeperOfDreams13]

lol, I wish you were here too, I need to talk to someone. I feel unusually social and happy.
I have not been grinding my teeth at all surprisingly enough... this is not very mind-blowing... should I expect it to pick up a bit soon?

[pandiebeer]

Sounds like everything is going good and you're experiencing the love effect e has. Remember to drink water every once and a while. It probably will pick up with the addition of the second half or it may stay the way you are now for a while. It depends. Pills peak differently.

[HappyHaHaGirl]

Maybe...the first time I did it (the only time, I guess), I just sat in the park with a friend and talked about a bunch of shit till 3 in the morning. We kept rubbing each other... I bet we looked stupid.


Go outside and look at the moon! That was my favorite part. :)

[SweeperOfDreams13]

WHOAOAA!
there we go!
yeah, this kicks ass, I feel like hugging someone!
this is amazing.
Wow.
It hit me like a ton of bricks.
A wave of euphoria and "It's amazing"ness just washed over me.
So tranquil and natural.
I love this.
I love everything.
Nothing could ruin this. Wow.
Someone talk to me.
I think I'll smoke another cig...I feel the jaw tension a bit now.. but who cares, I've got gum, water, whatever I need.
:D:D:D

[HappyHaHaGirl]

Yaaaay! Go outside, dammit! Just stay out of the street. :)

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I am floating... I feel wonderful... that's the only word to describe it... wonderful.
I wish my girlfriend was here. SHe'd love this. I should ask her if she wants to try this sometime later on.
Wow, I can't believe I've been missing this my entire life.
I am enlightened.
I'm going to smoke a cig now.


zooming in and out.
wow. I love this.
rushing.
wow.
I just got up and danced.
I need to pee.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

ow, headache. bad one,
I jussed pissed,
and the headache is in the back of my head, real weird.
I am peaking, it's so cool, I think I'll do this again sometime. it's wonderful.
Moving is so easy and fluid. I just danced for ten minutes... liquid rave.
Someone please IM me because I feel like talking, I was just talking to myself.
I love this.
Someone please talk to me, I'm lonely and I want to share this glorious awakening with someone.
I feel like communicating, E is beautiful, I think these pills were straight=up mollies, or maybe since this is my firsat time it is magical and wonderful... I love this.
Someone share this with me.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I just closed my eyes and became one with everything.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Just finished dancing.
I lvoe dancing, it moves so nice. I dance in the style of liquid rave and right now I have a headache but I dont' care since I am looking at hte pain objectively.
I am typing so fast.
PLlelelaaasese IM me, on aim or MSN.
I lovee you all
time to smoke another cig.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I just threw up.
even thrwoing up is beautiful.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

feels like I might throw up again..
I'll be right back
wow, I did throw up.
It feels good.
I'm listening to Pink FLoyd: Echoes.
It's beautiful.
Good thing I dind't clean that barf up right away because there was more.
I love this, despite the headache I have.
I hope I throw up again..
I am touching myself.. my arms, chest, It feel wonderful.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I am loved up.
I am changed.
I am a better person.
I am talking with someone on MSN and I barely know them but I am madly in love with them.
perhaps I should clean up the barf.
My dad will suspect something if there's a pile of barf on the ground in the morning.
I love you.
I spit out my gum while purging.
All the evil is gone.
I need to chew on something... maybe I'll have another smoke
I love you.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I am everything but I am nothing.
I think I'll smoke a bowl now.
and a cig.
damn, that's three cigs in a half-hour
I'm crazy.
ZGood crazy.
Someone IM me, anyone, I dont' care.

[monosphere]

Hello! Sending out the mad love and positive vibes.


Are you drinking enough water? Make sure to drink plenty of water.

Might I make a suggestion? Spend some time feeling different textures. Your favorite blanket, the rug, if you have any smooth stones, those are great. Leaves or flower petals, etc. I think you'd have a lot of fun with that.

[jackovgoesjacko]

cool-E I need some synthetic love too

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I am alone and I find it ebautiful, because everyone' beside me, and I am beside everyhting, because I am everything... only i am concentrated into such a small space I wish I could escape.
I... love the very fact that I exist.
I think therefore I am.
Just almost tripped on my vomit while getitng more water
and a smoke.

[Jetblack]

lol i just talked to him on im (sweeper) it was great hes like i luv u man and i just said i luved him back ahh i hope hes having a bad ass time i wish i was rolling :)

[SweeperOfDreams13]

hmm, I'm just coming down a bit now.. I wish I could throw up again.
I've smoked like 10 cigs in an hour... I normally only smoke 2 in a day.
I hope nobody is pissed at me for being so talkative and annoying, but I really loved talking to everyone, I felt to wanted, and love was everywhere, My life is changed, for better or worse, it is all opinion, but nothing is a bad experience when you think about it.
I wish there was someone else I could talk to now.
I love everyone here, all my love is being reproduced like single-cell organisms, making mroe and more love and appreciation for everyone and everyhting.
I lvoe you guys.
I need a hug.
And a smoke

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I'm coasting... I partially lost my poetic rythmic typing...

But it's still there, and always will be there, after this realization has come and gone.
I think you all might (just might) notice a slight shift in my typing style after this is all over... or seems to be over... maybe jsut beginning.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I'm coasting o a truck... the truck is my trip, it's running out of fuel... I am still grinding my teeth, the outside love has faded somewhat, but the love of the outside has made a great impresion of the love inside, and that shall always burn bright, like the flame of hope.
I think I'll smoke another cig.
I am relaxed.
I love you all, thank you so much.
:D

[SweeperOfDreams13]

It's all good... you are here now, and you were there then, does it matter if you are absent one minute, if your spirit and mark lives on forever?

[SweeperOfDreams13]

I am no longer a psych. virgin.
I feel good.
Thank you all, I (still) love you all very much!
I will definately do this again (how long do you think I should wait until next roll?)
I think that E is something that everyone (maybe not everyone) should experience at one point in thier life.

Thanks again, Love to all

-SweeperOfDreams13

[xaosflux]

No word in a couple of hours...you're probally one with the dreams now, sweeperof!


Excellent account..did you get to talk to or see any people during the trip?

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Well, I feel fine.
I still feel the effects kind of... or perhaps just the impression that the drug left behind.
I'm getting some pretty decent tracers.
I slept a deep and dreamless sleep, knowing that last night was quite possibly the best night of my life.
Unfortunately, I wasn't with anyone. Although quite a few nice hipforumers took a few minutes to listen and surprisingly, they all humored me. Haha.
I have a bit of a headache, but the pain is dull and meaningful. I might even go so far as to say that it's enjoyable. My jaw is kinda sore.
Ah, stepped in the damn vomit again.
I still feel like talking and overall the after-effects are quite pleasent.
I feel like just sitting back and watching and admiring the beauty of existance.
I am kind of sad that the trip is over, and feel the need for some more. Especially during the comedown, as well as now. But I'm not that stupid, I wouldn't do any more even if I had any because I know that's how addictions and dependence start... Neither of which is good.
Makes me sad that people would actually abuse such a wonderful thing.:(
Now a question for everyone I talked to on AIM/MSN... Did I make any sense? To me, it seemed as if I made more sense than I've ever made before, because I understood. Or was I just spewing psycho-babble and "I love you"s all night?
Well, I don't think I left anything out... Uh, the sense of touch still feels good. I am rubbing my cheeks now.
I think I'll go smoke a cig.

And I still love all of you!:D

[Jetblack]

lol u did say u luved me a few times but besides that if u hadnt of told me u were on E i probably wouldnt of known

[boringtree]

oh ya really shouldnt have wasted your first time on your own. tis best with a group a friends who are also on the buzz. no sober folk.

welcome to the world of mdma. just go easy on them! they dont kill but they do destroy!

[xaosflux]

Im surprised you threw up so much, I never do on E...


Were you doing anything else?

How was your diet yesterday?

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Well, I ate some Boca veggie nuggets, and drank some water, that's about it.
Maybe some rice cakes?
I had only smoked two or three cigs before I threw up.
I think the pill may have been a bit dirty.
Oh well, I'm not complaining, purging was great, it's like... out with the evil and impuritites.
That doesn't make me pure though, oh, no, not at all.
These pills do not contain god... just his phone number.

[Josh-e]

so your 14 and just done a pill on your own in your basement, sorry but thats just really sad!!! lol!! :D

[Autentique]

I think being alone is kinda I don't know a waste, but he seems like he enjoyed it. Just wait until you roll with a group of ppl. I love how all the energy and love is spread onto everyone. The first time I went to a rave like a year ago, I went and was 100% sober, I still wasn't doing E, I didn't drink all night or anything. But everyone else was rolling, and you could feel the whole energy taking over you.
I made a friend there and he still doesn't believe me that I wasn't rolling. This made me see how much it affects who is around you in your mood. Even if you are on drugs or not.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

so your 14 and just done a pill on your own in your basement, sorry but thats just really sad!!! lol!! :D

I don't find it sad... quite the opposite!
Although it would have been better if I was with someone else.
hey, there's always next time.
:D

[scarlettchasingroses]

"It's all good... you are here now, and you were there then, does it matter if you are absent one minute, if your spirit and mark lives on forever?"

i think you should write that statement down somewhere....it was the most profound thing i found in this thread.....

[Josh-e]

I don't find it sad... quite the opposite!
Although it would have been better if I was with someone else.
hey, there's always next time.
:D
dont do anymore on your own, very sad and a waste of braincells too, lol.

it's like getting drunk on your own is quite possibly the most saddest thing you could ever do.

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Yeh, I wish I had friends who rolled.
Maybe my girlfriend will sometime in the future... hopefully... that would be wonderful.



EDIT: And I'm feeling the post-trip depression.
It won't last long though... after a good sleep I'll be all happy again.
It still was worth it.

[pandiebeer]

Wow, it sounds like you had experienced everything most people do when they roll. I'm sorry I couldn't have been online while it was happening. But Josh-e is right, if you do it again you should try to do it with someone, e is a drug better used in social situations. But don't peer pressure somone into it. ;) For it being your first one I think it's fine that you took it by yourself, except for maybe if something were to happen, you need to make sure you're in a safe place where someone can find you. Since you were home, you were probably safe though.

I was reading aloud what you were posting though to my boyfriend and we both really want to roll now. The way you explained everything was making us say, "yeah I remember that, yeah, cool". :D

I've gotten sick a couple times rolling too, and once unfortunately was a few minutes after I popped a pill. That was awful. I have some stomach issues though so it probably wasn't the pills fault. And the after depression can suck sometimes, but as long as you remember what caused it, it'll pass more quickly. Give yourself some recovery time before you roll again so you don't send yourself into some accidental depression because your seratonin levels haven't gone back to normal. And although you're young, in case you can get access to it, stay away from alcohol too. I always look at drugs and their effect on the body (except maybe weed) as someting really harmful. Even though it was fun, your body may not agree and you have to let it catch up after what happened to it. If you do that then you'll almost always be fine afterwards. (I say almost because I'm not an expert on drugs so that's mostly my opinion and what has worked for me). :)

[Guru420]

Yea, fourteen is young to start experimenting with psychedelics as I illustrated in my other post.(http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?p=60103#post60103) Come on, in your teens who needs MDMA, there's more fun to be had just trying to get laid and goofin around with friends.