kidswillbeskeletons
11-12-2004, 05:43 AM
this is another advice post, sorry if you were expecting something exciting.
heh well here goes:
i was wondering what i should do about this relatively major incident. first of all, i should inform you that i am a girl and the friend that i speak of is a girl as well. i recently told this good friend of mine that i thought i was bi-sexual. she and i were discussing gay-lesbian profiles on a website. i had mentioned that i posted one to find "friends", and then I later went on to tell her the real deal behind the profile. she kinda of looked at me strangely and then laughed. I said " i hope that you dont feel differently about me because of this" and she replied with, "oh, no, not at all i think it is okay too look at women and think they are attractive" but I think she missed the point. I not only think of women as beautiful beings, i want to be with them intimately also. Of course, I didn't tell her this. I knew what her reaction would be. Needless to say, she hasn't spoken to me since. What doesn't help the situation is that I only go to school for two hours a day. So, I rarely see or hear about things that happen at my school. But, everyday I walk into school at the same time she is on lunch break and her and a group of boys are standing in the door way, hanging out, and they stand there and STARE at me, while I walk through them as if I am not bothered by their blantant oogling. She has been a friend of mine, since I was in 3rd grade (now in 12th),and now, has not spoke more than a "hey" to me.
I feel really uneasy about the situation. I wonder if she has told all of her immature friends and now they will increasingly alienate me from the school. I am already in the process of alienating myself from the school, because I take post-secondary classes at college. Thus, limits my time at my high school. I would like to sever all connections with the school anyhow, but am afraid that i will miss out on the "high school experience". (somehow i dont think i am missing out on anything.)
any advice and/or similiar experiences?
heh well here goes:
i was wondering what i should do about this relatively major incident. first of all, i should inform you that i am a girl and the friend that i speak of is a girl as well. i recently told this good friend of mine that i thought i was bi-sexual. she and i were discussing gay-lesbian profiles on a website. i had mentioned that i posted one to find "friends", and then I later went on to tell her the real deal behind the profile. she kinda of looked at me strangely and then laughed. I said " i hope that you dont feel differently about me because of this" and she replied with, "oh, no, not at all i think it is okay too look at women and think they are attractive" but I think she missed the point. I not only think of women as beautiful beings, i want to be with them intimately also. Of course, I didn't tell her this. I knew what her reaction would be. Needless to say, she hasn't spoken to me since. What doesn't help the situation is that I only go to school for two hours a day. So, I rarely see or hear about things that happen at my school. But, everyday I walk into school at the same time she is on lunch break and her and a group of boys are standing in the door way, hanging out, and they stand there and STARE at me, while I walk through them as if I am not bothered by their blantant oogling. She has been a friend of mine, since I was in 3rd grade (now in 12th),and now, has not spoke more than a "hey" to me.
I feel really uneasy about the situation. I wonder if she has told all of her immature friends and now they will increasingly alienate me from the school. I am already in the process of alienating myself from the school, because I take post-secondary classes at college. Thus, limits my time at my high school. I would like to sever all connections with the school anyhow, but am afraid that i will miss out on the "high school experience". (somehow i dont think i am missing out on anything.)
any advice and/or similiar experiences?