i just wanted to share

[ZePpeLinA]

when i was little i always felt attracted to girls on the TV or my school mates, etc, never actually thought about boys until i was about 11 when i kissed a boy for the first time.

my first kiss was actually to my best friend (female) when i was about 9 years old, and we were kind of really into it in the toilets during break time or when we had lessons cancelled. i felt really bad about all that cos i had a classmate who saw us kissing and kept bullying me and threating me to tell everyone if i didnt hang out with her. That year was hell, i felt so guilty for doing what i was doing and this girl was constantly bullying me...

I tried to forget about everything, even though i always felt a bit weird, like i didnt actually wanted to forget about it, and constantly had crushes on female teachers and female friends, but i just let it go.

now i've realised that i cant do this anymore. i actually feel very attracted to women, but so to men, although right now i dont really need one to be honest. i just broke up with an ex boyfriend and i just really need to be on my own.

i havent been really lucky with men, cos i'd never been 100% sincere with my feelings perhaps. i'm just afraid of being alone, who knows?

i hate labels to be honest, i'd hate to call myself bisexual. i just feel that i could be attracted to either boys and girls...and the funny part is I really do!!!

last friday i kissed a girl and it was amazing. it felt great...i dont know i really need some insight and if you could tell me about your experiences, how you discovered you actually liked the same sex and how you felt during that time.

lots of love

Zep x

[Snowdancer]

I have developed a theory that there are degrees of being bi. I happen to like females a little better than males, can form long term bonds with women better than I can men, stuff like that. My last boyfriend though was the other way. He is mostly gay but had a small attraction for women. Sounds like you are closer to him, with the exception of your being female etc. Guess what though? It don't matter. ;) There is plenty of room in the spectrum for everyone. You are right to stay away from labels although I have to admit that the best thing I did for myself was to admit that I was bi but that was just my experience. The advantage of my knowing & letting folks around me know that I am bi is that we are all playing on a level playing field. For you it could well be a different situation, different perspective.

It is too bad that you had to deal with that bullying. That is always terrible & it is great that schools are finally catching on that bullying isn't tolerable. too bad it didn't happen about 200 years ago.

As far as finding a man who will accept that you are bi that can be more tricky but not impossible. I am lucky that I found a wonderful woman who still married me even though she knew I was bi & not your average husband all around. I would be willing to bet that there are men around equally as open minded or maybe you really need a woman who can accept that you want to play with the boys once in a while. From what I know of you from reading your messages you have your head screwed on about right. You will figure out what is right for you if you haven't already & you have an open enough mind to flow with your feelings to let the good things happen.

I hope this helps. I have posted about my history here & there on this board but if want to know any more please PM me.

when i was little i always felt attracted to girls on the TV or my school mates, etc, never actually thought about boys until i was about 11 when i kissed a boy for the first time.

my first kiss was actually to my best friend (female) when i was about 9 years old, and we were kind of really into it in the toilets during break time or when we had lessons cancelled. i felt really bad about all that cos i had a classmate who saw us kissing and kept bullying me and threating me to tell everyone if i didnt hang out with her. That year was hell, i felt so guilty for doing what i was doing and this girl was constantly bullying me...

I tried to forget about everything, even though i always felt a bit weird, like i didnt actually wanted to forget about it, and constantly had crushes on female teachers and female friends, but i just let it go.

now i've realised that i cant do this anymore. i actually feel very attracted to women, but so to men, although right now i dont really need one to be honest. i just broke up with an ex boyfriend and i just really need to be on my own.

i havent been really lucky with men, cos i'd never been 100% sincere with my feelings perhaps. i'm just afraid of being alone, who knows?

i hate labels to be honest, i'd hate to call myself bisexual. i just feel that i could be attracted to either boys and girls...and the funny part is I really do!!!

last friday i kissed a girl and it was amazing. it felt great...i dont know i really need some insight and if you could tell me about your experiences, how you discovered you actually liked the same sex and how you felt during that time.

lots of love

Zep x

[rocknroll_girl]

Oh year, there's a huge spectrum. Don't give it a second thought.

[honeyhannah]

when i was little i always felt attracted to girls on the TV or my school mates, etc, never actually thought about boys until i was about 11 when i kissed a boy for the first time.

my first kiss was actually to my best friend (female) when i was about 9 years old, and we were kind of really into it in the toilets during break time or when we had lessons cancelled. i felt really bad about all that cos i had a classmate who saw us kissing and kept bullying me and threating me to tell everyone if i didnt hang out with her. That year was hell, i felt so guilty for doing what i was doing and this girl was constantly bullying me...

I tried to forget about everything, even though i always felt a bit weird, like i didnt actually wanted to forget about it, and constantly had crushes on female teachers and female friends, but i just let it go.

now i've realised that i cant do this anymore. i actually feel very attracted to women, but so to men, although right now i dont really need one to be honest. i just broke up with an ex boyfriend and i just really need to be on my own.

i havent been really lucky with men, cos i'd never been 100% sincere with my feelings perhaps. i'm just afraid of being alone, who knows?

i hate labels to be honest, i'd hate to call myself bisexual. i just feel that i could be attracted to either boys and girls...and the funny part is I really do!!!

last friday i kissed a girl and it was amazing. it felt great...i dont know i really need some insight and if you could tell me about your experiences, how you discovered you actually liked the same sex and how you felt during that time.

lots of love

Zep x
It's fine sweetie, you're not alone. Stop denying it you're 21, you're a big girl now, anyone who wants to stifle you can jump off a bridge(not really), anyway I don't label myself either, I just say I'm sexual, my first sexual experiences were with girls, and that is when i was a little girl as well. I never thought of myself as liking girls though, i just wanted to be sexual like all humans do and I hung out with girls. I never noticed an attraction to girls until I was about 16 and still I've never been with a girl in anyway since I've been old enough to really count anything, but still even if I never do anything with a girl, i will never limit myself if the chance comes along and I don't worry about labels either... release your inhibitions, my personal beliefs are if you feel it, it can't be wrong...follow your heart, and by the way you don't have to explain yourself, your feelings, or actions to anyone, not even yourself...good luck