whats so hard to believe?

[mastercylinder]

why do u guys find it so easy to believe that so many of you are into peace and love--but find it hard to believe that a tough guy can be in the mix? hell im not going into my history cas u wont believe it anyway--but ive paid for my bad karma with suffering most of u wouldnt believe--just last year i od'd and was inn a 5 day coma and i looked peaceful hooked up to the resperator but i was awake and suffering the tortures of the damned---i ipaid for alot of shit during those 5 days plus all the other pain ive experienced--im not trying to make enemies but have already made some anyway--but also made 2 cool girlfriends so i guess shit evens out--ill try to tone it down but i am what i am and taking mucho acid shrooms and mescaline doesnt automatically make you a good peaceful person--gotta throw in massive ammts of speed and alcohol and hanging with bikers to read me right--anyway this is the best i can do for apology and i apologize if ive insulted or hurt feelings out there--really ill try to be on my best behaviour from now on--i find this place mostly interesting--but im different and i thought hipforum could embrace alternative realities even if they dont conform with the norm-----thats all:cool:

[TopNotchStoner]

It's cool. I don't really know you, but I could really care less if you're a "tough guy" or not, as long as you bring positivity and helpful information to the forums.

I'm far from being a "tough guy", myself, but I also don't pretend to be into all the peace and love bullshit. lol Peace is a myth and love is rare, so give me the drugs:sifone: haha

[hippiehillbilly]

im thinking we once again have a confused newb on our hands lol..

so where are all these folks all into peace and love on these forums??lol

[waukegan]

i guess i get along with just about everyone because i know there's a few things which are universal to all people.race,gender,religion,lifestyle non of that really matters to me when it comes right down to it.rich or poor .there's things that matter to everyone.maybe this isn't true but it works for me.

[TopNotchStoner]

Most people on here are cool as fuck. It's very rare that I meet someone on here who I don't get along with.

[mastercylinder]

i admit im a newbe--to this form but not to lifes experiences---so im willing to be schooled in the ways of hipforum---and ill do my best to be respectful to all--believe it or not i have alot to offer--im looking for the thread from the guy who wants to come down with the minimum pain of WD-----give a chance and youll be repaid in full-- i have good reps on other forums--not really ann excuse but ive been xanaxed and alcoholed out all week--can we GIVE Peace a chance?

[TopNotchStoner]

i admit im a newbe--to this form but not to lifes experiences---so im willing to be schooled in the ways of hipforum---and ill do my best to be respectful to all--believe it or not i have alot to offer--im looking for the thread from the guy who wants to come down with the minimum pain of WD-----give a chance and youll be repaid in full-- i have good reps on other forums--not really ann excuse but ive been xanaxed and alcoholed out all week--can we GIVE Peace a chance?

You seem like a cool guy. I haven't seen too many of your posts though. Either way, welcome to the forums.

PS-Throw me some xanax:D haha

[mastercylinder]

--LOL----im on vikes for the next ten days then a week sober then soma kpin and xanax all at once--ill make sure i have someone over my shoulder during those 10 days---dont wanna be banned this soon---Peace

[raz5]

i'm all into love ;)

[TopNotchStoner]

--LOL----im on vikes for the next ten days then a week sober then soma kpin and xanax all at once--ill make sure i have someone over my shoulder during those 10 days---dont wanna be banned this soon---Peacelol Dude, I've been banned from HF quite a few times.

Back in my xanax days, I used to be too fukt up for people to be able to read my posts, so nobody really got offended by anything I said. haha Of course, I was eating them like candy, in those days.

[gEo_tehaD_returns]

It sounds like you've planned your drug use in advance. uh? is this prescription or something? In any case it sounds like you're using the more dangerous drugs in large quantities and regularly. You've just said that it caused hell for you yet you continue to do it. Are you addicted? Are you trying to stop? Do you just not give a shit because you're a "tough guy?"

I'm not your mother and wont' tell you how to live your life, but I will offer some advice. Take it or leave it, you'll do whatever you'll do, but I would advise you to stop taking drugs. Seriously, it sounds like you're in a bad situation with that. Especially the alcohol and Xanax - if you get too addicted to depressants like those then decide you want to quit you can actually die from the withdrawal, that is if the drugs don't kill you before that point. You won't be so tough when you're lying in a casket, know what I mean?

I dont' mean to be rude. You seem like you're trying to be friendly and not step on any toes so I'm doing my best to do the same. But I can't help but cringe when I read what your'e doing to yourself. I feel like I've gotta say something.

Good luck with your life however you decide to proceed.

[mastercylinder]

i get 60 xanax a month and for the next 2 months 60 kpin too plus 90 soma and 60 vikes all prescribed--i give them to family to hold so i take either 6 vikes a day or 6 soma plus 6 kpin or 6 xanax a day---soo the kpin are gonna run out soon but i can handle 6 xanax and 6 soma a day and its not being tough thats the ammt it takes to make me feel good--and with that ammt i dont get into trouble--i dont drink when i have the soma but last week i had the xanax without soma so i drank with them and got in trouble--so im on benzo about 10 days a month not long enough to get addicted--i know about the horrors o WD from benzo and i wont put myself through that--but thanks for your concern--but ii doubt ill ever quit drugs im about to get on medical MJ and hopefully that will cut down my drug use--but the shit is so expensive and not covered by insurence---so just wish me luck for the next few months then ill be a decent pot head with just the occasional pill and will be loved by all--LOL

[TopNotchStoner]

I hate soma. They've never really done anything for me. I ate 12 350mg somas one day and all it did was give me some freaky body tremors, with no positive effects. Since then, I've never taken any more of them.

That's just me though. I know a lot of people who absolutely love soma.

[twang]

Soma = headache
Weed = the best drug of all!

[Verisimilitude]

hey mastercylinder,

why are you apologizing? as far as I am concerned you're a normal member of this forum, and all your posts i've read and responded to thus far have been interesting and informative.

for me, this forum is a place to ask questions if I have them, and to help answer the questions of those newer to opiate use than I am. it is also a place where I can be myself, because as many of you probably do, I have to conceal my opiate use from the people closest to me in my life.

as an addict (I freely admit that I am physically and psychologically addicted to opiates, especially OC and dilaudid) I also use these forums to help my psyche when I am withdrawing and when I am considering "taking a break" (I'd say quitting but that is never realistic for me because I need my pills for chronic pain and my doctors will keep prescribing it and i'll keep taking it, even if I try to quit for a period of time)

Anyway what I'm trying to say is, everyone has his/her own reason for posting on this forum, but as long as everyone stays cordial and friendly (within reason of course because it is always fun to laugh at the kids who come on here and ask about "how to take vikoden i gets from this guy I know" lol) and helps provide information that is correct and helpful to each other, thats all that matters.

Keep posting and forget whatever criticism made you start this thread.

[ILL BILL NECRO]

i admit im a newbe--to this form but not to lifes experiences---so im willing to be schooled in the ways of hipforum---and ill do my best to be respectful to all--believe it or not i have alot to offer--im looking for the thread from the guy who wants to come down with the minimum pain of WD-----give a chance and youll be repaid in full-- i have good reps on other forums--not really ann excuse but ive been xanaxed and alcoholed out all week--can we GIVE Peace a chance?

mastercylinder a.k.a Rock is a good guy people... he is hard as fuck and his stories will make you laugh. :cheers2: Rock.

[always_sublime]

mastercylinder you seem like a real good dude. like you i am new to this forum and i got to say i love it. there is so much information available in these threads, and most of the people seem like really good people that are just struggling with the same things that i am. verisimilitude i really enjoy your threads on here you seem very knowledgeable and you always want to help the miss informed, thank you for that we dont need these kids od'ing on here

[mephist00]

ya im a get peace, and give peace kinda person
an over reaction here or there, but mostly peaceful lol

however, welcome to HF, looks like u will get along great here :>
& remember u dont need drugs to know that 'u got brothers and sisters who care' in hipforums

in short the rules are dont ask where to get drugs, and dont start conflicts :D
just follow those and your all good

[Verisimilitude]

alright, I just read over this thread again and I'm still trying to figure out what the OP is apologizing for. did someone start flaming you in another thread? did you post something inflammatory somewhere else and have the moderators come down hard on you? Whats the deal bro? As far as I can tell you haven't done anything that would make me think you don't belong here. I've been out of touch for a while so returning to the forums I've been seeing a lot of your posts (speaking to mastercylinder here) and they've all been decent. Also, you've been really active on the forum and I like that: we need more people like you who will post a lot and keep the forum moving.

Plus, what is hipforums but a place where people from totally different backgrounds and with totally different lives can come together and discuss the things they have in common? hipforums was created to be a place of peace and tolerance where all people are accepted, except for those who are too self-righteous to understand that everyone deserves respect who gives respect in return.

I am proud to be a member of this type of a community because they hardly ever exist in the real world.

[mastercylinder]

another thread where i was fucked up on xanax and alcohol and being kinda a dick but hey thats me sometimes--usually on refill day and every other word was fuck this fuck u fuck that fuck the police and got almost banned guess they deleted the whole thread any way thats past and refill day isnt till the 20th so i dont forsee any problems till then:cool:

[hippiehillbilly]

the only time i have seen you go off is in random thoughts which begs the question why did you post your apology here and not there?

none of those fuckers come to this forum.

kinda defeats the purpose of a apology unless of course you wanted what your getting here which is everyone saying they have never seen you do anything bad.

which again defeats the purpose of a apology.

maybe you should go to random thoughts and actually apologize to the people that its relevant too?

[mastercylinder]

cas they closed the thread--and i mostly dont know what im doing--and i was on vikes so opiates seemed cool to me-----come on looking for people to say ive never seen u do anything bad---man that youd even think that just shows me how new i am here--and like you said i only went off one time on random thoughts so im done---and i definately havnt avoided random thoughts cas ive posted random thoughts---now i know things are more segregated so ill keep that in mind----but one apology per mistake even in the wrong thread is pretty much my limit-public apology you didnt see all the shit i dealt with on the rep point thread where personal messages were exchanged

[Verisimilitude]

cas they closed the thread--and i mostly dont know what im doing

ok, i get it now. no worries, we all post shit like that from time to time. and I see why you didn't post in the other thread if they closed it. also, I have no idea whats going on half the time lol. thats the best part of opies: im disconnected and free of earthly concerns without being totally braindead the way I am when I smoke pot.

[kil0]

mastercylinder a.k.a Rock is a good guy people... he is hard as fuck and his stories will make you laugh. :cheers2: Rock.


hell yeah I vouch for Rock as well. Crazyiest mothafucker I ever met. And how Bill said, he has the most incredible stories, and so bizarre that they have to be true, no one would have the imagination to make that shit up. I got your back Rock :cheers2:

[TopNotchStoner]

hell yeah I vouch for Rock as well. Crazyiest mothafucker I ever met. And how Bill said, he has the most incredible stories, and so bizarre that they have to be true, no one would have the imagination to make that shit up. I got your back Rock :cheers2:He definitely seems like a cool guy and that he'll fit in perfectly on these forums. I like him, personally, and I loof forward to seeing what he'll contribute to the forums.

You and I have some pretty crazy stories, ourselve, don't we, Kil0? haha

[kil0]

lol hell yeah man. your like my favorite member here, since like day 1. you and Versimilitude, Im glad to see him back here again.

[TopNotchStoner]

lol hell yeah man. your like my favorite member here, since like day 1. you and Versimilitude, Im glad to see him back here again.You're one of my favorite members too man. Me, you, and Nick are the xanax gurus of the forums. haha I even liked you when you had your old username. haha That was back when you didn't believe me when I told you I ate 74 xanax bars one day. haha

You're mah boi, kil0, but to this day, I don't know your real name. Mine's Brian, if you didn't know.

[Verisimilitude]

^Lol, I was reading over old posts and just read that thread earlier today man. Where you start talking about how you just kept eating them cause you were so fucked up you didn't know how many you'd eaten.. And then K comes on with his old name saying you'd be dead if you'd eaten that many.

I'm thinking of the right post right man? The one where you say your mom was about to call the ER cause you were passed out and right as she was going to call them you got up and stumbled across the room and fell into something and shit?

I have a story like that actually. I was WDing hardcore, off a 200mg/day OC binge (raced through my month-long prescription in like 2 weeks of course. SO... I bought some 2mg Xanax XR from a friend. I think I bought 6 pills, and i took the first three and a half all in about 4 hours. Now, for you boys that might not seem like much but that was only the second time I'd ever taken more than .125mg of xanax at any one time. So lets just put it this way: combined with the weakness and fatigue from the opiate withdrawals plus 7mg xanax (I chewed it those XR's up of course, being the idiot that I am I wanted to get fucked up rather than just relieve the anxiety of withdrawal) had me totally out of my mind.

I was slurring my speech, I couldn't walk straight, I tried to take a shower but left my glasses on while I was in the shower and fell asleep until the water turned cold and I slipped and fell onto the bathroom floor and broke my glasses in half and just left them on the floor and got up and got into bed soaking wet and promptly passed out there.

Woke up like 5hrs later, naked, soaking wet, no glasses, wondering What in the mother of all fucks had happened.

Awesome.

BTW, both you TopNotch, and you kil0 are two of my favorites as well.

I was worried that after being gone for a few months you guys might be gone like what happened to Relayer and a couple other good guys. Long story short, I was pleased to find you both here and posting.

Peace.

-V

[mastercylinder]

see im real--lol--i have a warning cas ive been hooked on heroin methadone opiate pills---i had 2 close calls with fentanyl but didnt actually od and i was always so careful with heroin that i never OD on that either but i found an online pharmacy and they were selling Halcion which if you like xanax yud love Halcion but shipping was 35$ so you had to buy alot to make up for that shipping charge --and i had 120 Halcion and i dont remember shit except that i woke up in hospital my dad found me lying on the floor in my own puke--almost went out like Hendrix--andi was in a coma for 5 days b4 i woke up--this happened last August and it was the only time i ever OD'd and hospitalized in 30 years of drug addiction and it was on benzo--Halcion is just another benzo stronger but shorter acting than xanax--so be careful cas if benzo can take me out no ones safe--cant tell u how many pills i took though cas my Brother in law took what i had left---------------------:cool:

[Verisimilitude]

yeah Halicon is Triazolam and it is actually one of my favorite benzos. I got some from a friend's dad who takes it for sleep but only once in a while. Anyway I told my friend I was going through WD's and he wanted me to get clean so he told his dad he couldn't sleep and his dad gave him 10 .25mg halicon pills, you know the little blue ones scored in half? anyway, no other benzos really help with my withdrawal anxiety, they just make me retarded or asleep. (other than valium which does help, but it takes much higher doses 10mg valium helps me for a day, whereas 1mg of halicon helps me for a day) Anyway, I took just one of those 1/4mg Halicon pills after being clean from my 100-200mg daily OC habit (I may have scripts for all my pills but i'm still addicted, even if I am taking them for a legit reason) for two days and I didn't crave opiates and wasn't anxious about them for almost 5 hours. I felt like I was going to be fine and like I could kick my habit, no problem. No other benzo other than valium has come even close to helping me with WD's like this one.

Triazolam aka Halicon is the shit.

Wait, how many halicon did you take and how many milligrams were they? shiiit dude... you're nuts... A five day coma? fuuck. Glad you came out of it.

-V