keeping the gay secret = keeping more secrets

[We_All_Shine_On]

anyone here ever feel like since they are in the closet they tend to keep other thigns in the closet as welll? thigns they dont really have to hide?
like, censoring yourself to not sound gay leading to censoring yourself to not sound... uhm, I dunnio, crazy or something?
ahhh anyone get what i mean?
Do you keep more secrets after keeping a huge one?

[SelfControl]

I know when I came out I felt better for being able to be more honest with others. I think I did become more like the person I wanted to be, so I guess I was lying about how I wanted to be before.

[Snowdancer]

When I was in the closet I didn't do & say quite a few things because I didn't want to blow my cover. I didn't wear the cloths that I wanted to wear because they would be thought of as gay. I would let people tell me queer deragatory jokes or statements & not let them know that I thought they were being completely repugnant. I didn't tell people a lot about myself because I didn't want to tell everything so if I didn't let them in at all I didn't have to worry about them finding out that I was bi. The thing that I am most pissed off at myself is that I didn't tell the guy who was my best friend in 7th & 8th grade that I loved him. I of course couldn't have possibly told him because I was so in the closet at that point in time that I wasn't out to myself. I just had these unbelievable confusing feelings going on & couldn't even fully admit them to myself. I recently heard rumor that he is gay so since I heard that out I keep thinking what life would be like then or maybe even now if I were to have even hinted to him how I felt.