I Am Becoming....

[~Sam~]

I AM BECOMING

by Jayne Relaford Brown

I AM BECOMING
the woman I've wanted,
grey at the temples,
soft body, delighted,
cracked up by life
with a laugh that's known bitter
but, past it, got better,
knows she's a survivor
that whatever comes,
she can outlast it.
I am becoming a deep
weathered basket.

I am becoming the woman,
I've longed for,
with arms strong and tender,
the growing up daughter
who blushes surprises.
I am becoming full moons
and sunrises.
I find her becoming,
this woman I've wanted,
who knows she'll encompass,
who knows she's sufficient,
knows where she's going
and travels with passion.
who remembers she's precious,
but knows she's not scarce
who knows she is plenty.


Have a Good Weekend, All! The season's are a'changin'. If you can, get out there and look at some leaves, smell the air somewhere where it's clean, sit down on the ground and feel the earth hum. Enjoy.

Sam

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[MoonjavaSeed]

sam you've made me look forward to getting older....

[oldwolf]

Ridng through the storm

Heart rent, eyes flashing fire

On she came

None dare stand in her way

If she did not run you down

she would pearce you through

Yet where 'er she turned

There was no rest

Disease had her yet

Fighting hard was all she knew

And no one would get the best of her

But listlessly sinking into the brew

Come near the brink of breaking

Slowly within a new day dawned

A light she found within

Face to face

She stood her ground

And found her enemy within

Was yet herself

And with that insight

A hardness melted

For so long and hard had she fought

Weary beyond recall

Something had to change

Letting down her guard

At what she Saw

She could no longer hate

For the beauty she found

Was her own true Self

Slowly ever nearer it drew

Melting the years of fear

And One within

She had won her fight

And Love was in her heart

Face to face

Knowing her worth

Love had come to stay

Opening now to a brand new day

Surprised at the strength she felt

She had thought that hate was what she needed

To overcome all that befronted

But now she found that Love was more

And embracing herself she became Whole again

No longer the need to hold the guard

Joy within her grew

and she Knew that ahe had come home

And Home was inside of her

At peace

At one

Whole

A true force to be reckoned with

Yet not by force

But through opening

Her light was now her Being

Home at last

Nothing to fear

Nothing to fight

Home inside her Being

And what a wonder was her light

All felt drawn to her

And she found that now she could give of herself

And not hold back for fear

For now no one could touch

The places she had fought to hide

Now they shone so bright

And All rejoiced with her

The One had come home again

And joined herself made Whole

And All of her was more than enough

She laughed , and we laughed with her

Thank you for All you Are

Your Light it helps us grow

Thank you for Being you

And opening to Be that you Are

Loving you dear heart

Looking with wonder at what you've become

Welcome Home Welcome Home

The song seemed sung on High

Home is in your heart

And Love is now your Way

Loving Self and opening to Joy

Be All you Are

It Is enough

Welcome Home to stay

[Moving_cloud]

Sam

See and now I come snowing in here to just add

And it is simply just because
and too it is because you have been in my mind this morning
and because I thought of you with love
and a smile, too

And I thought of tiny mushrooms
growing in hidden forests
of magic mosses, roots and rocks
flowers and petals and stars at night

I thought of other things you showed me
that we never talked about
but that you have touched me with
more than you know

May the stars keep shining for you
May the sun shine bright
May you walk in peace
And be blessed

And thank you for the poem
Yeah we all grow on

Love you wonderful woman

[~Sam~]

Moving_cloud,

I often think of those tiny mushrooms growing in the damp, dark, dripping rock overhang above the spring's flow. I have wondered if you recalled, also, the joy of experiencing that minature world. It makes my heart glad that you have.

Smiling now, just as I did when I held that red clawed, tiny baby crayfish in my hand to show to you, I can still feel the tickle of its movement in the palm of my open hand.

I hope the Equinox of Autumn found you well and happy.


Old Wolf... Thank You.

Love Ya Both,

Sam

[teepi]

Thank you all for the big smile that is on my face.

And Moonjava, thank you too,....appreciate it ALL sweetie.

[rubymontana]

I AM BECOMING.......50 years old in 10 days....I am finding my power. ruby

[~Sam~]

sam you've made me look forward to getting older....MoonjavaSeed! I have felt badly about not replying to your post for days now, but my hubby is home on vacation and is keeping me busy, so I haven't had the time to get back here an rememdy the situation til now. I am sorry.

I did read your reply. And, I truly did enjoy your thought. Gettin' older ain't that bad when you look back on it. Matter of fact, most of the "Gettin'" has been a blast. Take Care, and Thank You for the Love.


You wipe that smile off'a yer face... he'a? Only funnin' Teepi... glad you enjoyed.


Only 8 days 'til 50 now, Ruby. Happy be-earlied B'day... and you're right... you Are coming into your power. It only gets better from here. Have a Good One if'n I don't get back here in time....

Love Ya All...

Sam

[oldwolf]

And sometimes the tide comes in a bit hgher
And as we move round the spiral
We find we've moved on to the next cycle

True friends also let one know when their behavior is not acceptable
Does not mean that they stop loving

Only the person reacting is responsible for their reactions

Loving you - even when you are in denial of your true beauty

[~Sam~]

That's how I got to Memphis, Man... that's how I got to Memphis.

I suppose that that's how I judge true friends, my Man. Indeed, our generation has been capable of traveling the gamet of being able to display emotion.

I don't know of anyone here on these forums whom I've spoken with, even if only briefly, who's been disposed to present themselves with intelligence and rage... who's not been over the edge once in a while.

Yes, I've gotten out-of-bounds. Hell, you show me a person worth their salt who hasn't.

This world of living ONLY in the politically correct... IZ... truly, total fucking bullshit. It certainly is what we sought to overcome... A safe, plastic existence. A life on the edge where you could feel the wind.

What happened to those of us who were Kicking Out The Jams, brother? Who lost the plan? Are we destined to live out our lives and to only share our expreriences on the edge of always?

I thank you, brother, for standing there in the face of all the rage I could muster. You stood fast. You showed me how to deflect incoming.
You showed me how to take a hit. You showed me how to turn the other cheek. And when I ran out of cheeks, you showed me how to really yell.

How do I thank someone for standing next to a friend through the darkness of the pain and thrashings of rebirth?

I take a deep breath, I center myself and I send you all the love of the Universe that I have to give.

Thank You for standing silent. Thank You for standing strongly in the face of rage. Thank You for showing me how to forgive myself.

I Love You, Brother.
Sam

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[oldwolf]

I hear you and understand - yet it's also true that more can be done with a soft word than the loudest yell
Centered in Self, with a soft spoken word the world can tremble and Change - yet it slowly become apparent that any real Change must come from inside
And Sam , thank you too - I do have some idea how at times you'd like nothing better than to shake, yell, and spit venom at me; times when you think I'm a sanctimonious jackass - I only hope that through it all you can See me across the table looking at you with love. Sometimes it's all I got to share and though I know it's enough, seldom do others accept as have you - thank you

[~Sam~]

Yes, Old Wolf... I think I've just said the same thing to you... I understand.

But, realize too, that I cannot be you. Nor can I behave in the same way that you do. You have have your temperment and I have mine. There are times when a soft word is called for... and I whole heartedly agree with you about this. And, I am capable of uttering soft words...

And then... there are times when a 2x4 across the back of the head is called for, and that's where I come in. You know, the folks up in "The Eddy" used to call me 'two-by'. But that was 35 years ago when I was the Goat Lady and folks used to come to me for herbal rememdies and for solutions to their problems.

We're both headed in the same direction, we're simply different people with different personalities and different ways about us.

This is what I think it's all about; Not trying to be the same... as if pressed from a mold... but by being individuals... and recognizing that each unit of energy has a niche to fill in this universe. Each different from the other. Each offering and learning different lessons from where they stand in the matrix of the swirling, colliding chaos.

Acceptance of the whole. And the whole is comprised of all. All... All is all... All is comprised of every divergent possibility that can be imagined. Hell, if it wasn't... we'd all still be Hydrogen atoms.

Love Ya, Brother,
Sam