have we all felt this way???

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Intoxicated

I used to do this to get me by
To release all the things inside
Now I’m without within myself
Everything is what I have left
So what am I finally today
My finality is to be portrayed
But inside this moment it never
Never ever even mattered

Instead of all the judgments
I decided to see what I sent
Instead of all the words
I decided to see what was heard
Instead of all the wrongs
I decided to see what didn’t belong

I used to forget to get these things
Wanting to get what comfort brings
But all that I have received
Has only been to my deceit
Filled with voided transitions
Roping all of my ambitions
What is only right now is now
This is what brought us to ‘how?’