cosmic_licks
10-08-2008, 02:13 PM
this is my first post on these forums, ive actually came here today specifically to make a post in an attempt to better understand my last two LSD trips.
Ive probably tripped 20 or more times, most of them with a friend or group of friends. I believe LSD as a substance has changed my life. The timeless realm, the feeling of connectivity, visuals, the bending of reality, beautiful colours, patterns....
One particular experience was sneaking outside into a friends back garden to play on his younger sisters swing, giggling like I was 5 again, I'm 24! The most explainable single event up until this week occured that night, after playing on the swing I lay in the long uncut grass of his overgrown garden, I felt like I was part of the world. I was looking at trees and grass sprouting from earth. The tree reminded me of a human nerve. Maybe plants are the earths nerves? its receptors? maybe everything was? maybe I was too? maybe we are all the same? BUT...I can jump, i leave the earth, not always connected?... then again maybe thats why gravity always brings me back? i'm a de-tachable nerve? the earth feels through me? through the trees? through us all? we are all the same? part of one? i had a feeling i was onto something. this strongest singular experience touched me... i felt i was close to secrets. i decided that next time i would trip alone. a search for enlightenment i thought.
lets move forward 6 months, to 2 saturdays ago. I dropped a single, smallish white tab of LSD that beared a black playboy bunny logo. my girlfriend was out, i was home alone... i settled on the sofa with a can of beer and my earphones. i began listening to music iTunes on random and Moby - lift me up started to play..... i forgot about instant messaging conversations for a minute and closed my eyes... the trip was pulling me in... i could feel myself physically being sucked in... the closed eye visuals began... strong.... rune like rectangles, thousands of them.... each depicting a white symbol?... each had a white border? could possibly be green in colour? but changing like the colour you see when you look at a lightbulb. floating up, interwining with each other, like smoke rising... or ripped up paer in the wind... only not paper... runes?... i wasnt watching them though, i was moving with them... upward.... but then they dissapeared.
no visuals, it was all blackness.... but I felt something from my shoulder blades... i could feel movement... sprouting....arms?..... growing from my back??? what the fuck?... at first I depicted the feeling as like a bollywood dance, when two people stand directly behind each other extening their arms to look like they have four. but no... these were my arms... i could move them... i did... i made them dance.... and could move my own arms at the same time.. i got a shock.... have i got four arms? What??????
the shock startled me into stopping this particular visualistaion and i felt the arms shatter into a thousand pieces.... into the runes i had previously been watching dance skywards... the shattered arms, now runes, flew over the top of my head... over my head and into my eyes... the visuals had started again and it was then i noticed something.. whilst lost in the trance i had moved position without even knowing. i opened my eyes.... i was sitting in the lotus position, crossed legs, hands open as if holding something. i was quite startled. i had not done this on purpose.
the following day i basked in the afterglow. feeling good. noticing more about nature than usual. beautiful skies, trees, birds chirping. i was so unsure about what i'd experienced. i'm a western man, from england... i have no knowledge of foreign religions. i don't believe in god? i thought the lotus position was how monks prayed. i didnt assosciate this previously with four arms? on monday morning back at work i googled "man with four arms", "lotus position", and a mixture of other terms... and i found something which left me quite startled.
for anyone who has experienced deja vu. the moment realisation sinks in, the sick feeling... ive been here before.... ive said that or done that before? the effects were identical. this is what i read....
http://www.wildmind.org/mantras/figures/avalokitesvara
avalokiesvara has four arms... and he sits in the lotus position.
as i read further i reached the picture of the prayer wheel, it is almost identical, maybe slightly rounder than the runes i pictured. i had never heard of or saw a prayer wheel in the past.....
he is related to enlightenment.
and then the scariest part.... the part where my arse twitched.....
"At one time, having worked tirelessly for the welfare of beings, Avalokiteshvara, at Amitabha’s prompting, looked back and saw that there were still uncountable beings suffering in samsara. At that point he became discourage, fainted, and shattered into a thousand pieces".
Ive probably tripped 20 or more times, most of them with a friend or group of friends. I believe LSD as a substance has changed my life. The timeless realm, the feeling of connectivity, visuals, the bending of reality, beautiful colours, patterns....
One particular experience was sneaking outside into a friends back garden to play on his younger sisters swing, giggling like I was 5 again, I'm 24! The most explainable single event up until this week occured that night, after playing on the swing I lay in the long uncut grass of his overgrown garden, I felt like I was part of the world. I was looking at trees and grass sprouting from earth. The tree reminded me of a human nerve. Maybe plants are the earths nerves? its receptors? maybe everything was? maybe I was too? maybe we are all the same? BUT...I can jump, i leave the earth, not always connected?... then again maybe thats why gravity always brings me back? i'm a de-tachable nerve? the earth feels through me? through the trees? through us all? we are all the same? part of one? i had a feeling i was onto something. this strongest singular experience touched me... i felt i was close to secrets. i decided that next time i would trip alone. a search for enlightenment i thought.
lets move forward 6 months, to 2 saturdays ago. I dropped a single, smallish white tab of LSD that beared a black playboy bunny logo. my girlfriend was out, i was home alone... i settled on the sofa with a can of beer and my earphones. i began listening to music iTunes on random and Moby - lift me up started to play..... i forgot about instant messaging conversations for a minute and closed my eyes... the trip was pulling me in... i could feel myself physically being sucked in... the closed eye visuals began... strong.... rune like rectangles, thousands of them.... each depicting a white symbol?... each had a white border? could possibly be green in colour? but changing like the colour you see when you look at a lightbulb. floating up, interwining with each other, like smoke rising... or ripped up paer in the wind... only not paper... runes?... i wasnt watching them though, i was moving with them... upward.... but then they dissapeared.
no visuals, it was all blackness.... but I felt something from my shoulder blades... i could feel movement... sprouting....arms?..... growing from my back??? what the fuck?... at first I depicted the feeling as like a bollywood dance, when two people stand directly behind each other extening their arms to look like they have four. but no... these were my arms... i could move them... i did... i made them dance.... and could move my own arms at the same time.. i got a shock.... have i got four arms? What??????
the shock startled me into stopping this particular visualistaion and i felt the arms shatter into a thousand pieces.... into the runes i had previously been watching dance skywards... the shattered arms, now runes, flew over the top of my head... over my head and into my eyes... the visuals had started again and it was then i noticed something.. whilst lost in the trance i had moved position without even knowing. i opened my eyes.... i was sitting in the lotus position, crossed legs, hands open as if holding something. i was quite startled. i had not done this on purpose.
the following day i basked in the afterglow. feeling good. noticing more about nature than usual. beautiful skies, trees, birds chirping. i was so unsure about what i'd experienced. i'm a western man, from england... i have no knowledge of foreign religions. i don't believe in god? i thought the lotus position was how monks prayed. i didnt assosciate this previously with four arms? on monday morning back at work i googled "man with four arms", "lotus position", and a mixture of other terms... and i found something which left me quite startled.
for anyone who has experienced deja vu. the moment realisation sinks in, the sick feeling... ive been here before.... ive said that or done that before? the effects were identical. this is what i read....
http://www.wildmind.org/mantras/figures/avalokitesvara
avalokiesvara has four arms... and he sits in the lotus position.
as i read further i reached the picture of the prayer wheel, it is almost identical, maybe slightly rounder than the runes i pictured. i had never heard of or saw a prayer wheel in the past.....
he is related to enlightenment.
and then the scariest part.... the part where my arse twitched.....
"At one time, having worked tirelessly for the welfare of beings, Avalokiteshvara, at Amitabha’s prompting, looked back and saw that there were still uncountable beings suffering in samsara. At that point he became discourage, fainted, and shattered into a thousand pieces".