I am rollin for my first time right now...

[mebesideme]

Wow. Wow. Wow. Why did I never try this before? I used to be so against rolling, my friend Jimmy OD'd on it a couple years ago and diers the first time he took it. I had taken a half a pill that nbite, but I was so panicked when he died, being in the ER beside him and all, that I guess I had a bad trip per se on it. Tonite a friend said I should try it once and gave me a free pill, so I decided to try it. I was gonna take it tomorrow nite, but I got home early tonite cause the party we were at got shut down, so I said it fuck I am gonna roll. I have nothing to do all weekend. And, WOW!!! I love this. I now I will type all night if I don't stop soon. I love how fast I can type rright now. Yeah. I still like cid more, causer it is way more intuitive and helps me explore myself more, but I like this al ot . I can feel everything. Its like the visuals I see when trippin a lot of acid are compunded by ten into pure good emotion. I fgel so much love and empathy right now. Its greatr. I better stop typing soon beofe I get stuck doigt his all nite. WOW. I will report back tomorow. Or maybe ina few mintus If I get borted, which is likely. WOW

[mebesideme]

I just came to a realization. What I am experiencing right now is the ultimate universal emotion of being. I simply am. I partake of the essence of existence. I am a black hole with a purpose...I take in the entire universe and simply see it. It doesn't affect me, I don't affect it. I am part of it. It is part of me just as much as I am part of it. I am simply an infintesmal fraction of the universe. Normailly, in a sober state, I am trying to do, and be, and change. I should not be doing that. I should just be. Just sit, and exist, and partake of the ultimate creation, be part of the ultimate creation. I should not try to be what I want, do what I want, I should just be what I am, and encompass all that is and make it part of my very being as I am a part of it. I have now come to terms of my relationship with the girl I was last dating. I have been missing her a LOT lately, and have been depressed and down witrhout her near me. Now I see that she and I are as close as we ever were, because we are one and the same, we are both fractions of this whole we call existence. So from now on, I will see us this way. She and I may be apart in this reality, but we are together in the universe, we are simply both parts of the same universe. I have missed embracing her; I did not realize that by embracing everything that is and that I love, I am embracing her as part of it. This is so awesome! I now understnd my very essence, my reason, my being. I understand the True way. I have fully embraced and comprehend Toaism now. If you have a conflict, it is only a conflict on that level. By going down a level on the grand scale involving th conflict, you become part of the conflict. By rising above the conflict, and ewmbracing All, you effectivley eliminate the conflict because it is truly in significant in the Grand scheme. I am going to walk away from this truly enlightened. I can feel All, now, I am a part of the whole, and therefore the whole is a part of me. My purpose is to embrace and partake of the divine blessing we have recieved in simply existing. Wow

[mebesideme]

The secret to finding ones path through this life is to find a way to step back and look at the bigger picture. To find your way through the easiest way possible, look at All as a map. You can see every possible destination, and ever point on the map. It is all apparent when you step away and look. To see the map, just cease to think you and think All. Embrace, and see. Then find your way from afar before stepping in.

[eat_some_LSD]

Sounds like you're having fun. :) Any chance you might share what kind of pill you ate? I have to wait 'till Monday when I'll be getting some more blue hammers. :(

[mebesideme]

LOL, Blue hammer. Thats all thats been aroubd here the last month. We usually see some smileys, blue dolphins, and white doves. All have been real and very good according to my friends. I seem to be coming down a little off of this. I Chewed the pill before I swallowed to get it to kick in faster case I had just eaten, could that make it last less time? Anyway, I am surely a fan of X now. This is one of the best drug experiences of my life, I have conquered my depression over my ex, and come to realize the true form of my existence and my theology. Definitely gonna be rolling more i my lifetime, just gotta make sure not do it too often.

[eat_some_LSD]

You'll be up for quite awhile, then; they need more MDE, after the roll wears off (4-5 hours MAX), the meth just keeps on tweakin'. Pretty dank, though; I recommend getting some of the Blue Dolphins, they roll just as good but they don't keep you tweaked out for the rest of the night, either.

I've heard of the White Doves, I'm hoping to run into some soon. :)

[mebesideme]

Cool, thanks for the info. I gues I am pulling an all niter after all. Anyway, I used to push a lot of beans for the cash, but I never did them. I haven't seen any White doves since late July. I have gotten small amounts blue dolphins at times, never more than 20 or 30 though. I used to get about 30 apiece for them though, people loved them. Blue Hammers are the only thing arounf here in great supply right now. Cheap too, about 12 apiece when you get a 5 pack. At least that's what I paid.

[mebesideme]

Okay, I found some REALLY good rollin' music, the soundtrack to the movie oasis. I accidently downloaded the whole thing when looking songs fromt he band Oasis. You have to check this cd out, its called Oasis- Tangerine Dream, Music from the motion picture Oasis.

[mebesideme]

Well, I have been pretty much down now for about 20 minutes. Still RESLLY jacked up, I feel like I shotgunned a few rails of coc and meth together. EXTREMELY Jacked right now, not sure I like that too much. The peak lasted about, uh, lets see, 2.5-3 hours. A little shorter than I was expecting. I guess I am still up a little bit. I don't have that good feeling all over all the time, but this music is still extra vibrant and beautiful. I am mostly just tweaking now though. And its hardcore too, I am gonna need some wood to chew on if I can't stop grinding my damn teeth soon.

[eat_some_LSD]

Yeah, they're methed out pretty bad; we fed 2 to this one guy for his first roll...he kept taking his straw out, and by the end of the night, he'd done so much damage to his front teeth that they no longer touched his lower jaw. :eek:

[mebesideme]

I am still awake, been up for like 56 hours now, I am about tired though. I will sleep a while tonight, prolly till late tomorrow.