march 27th will be 2 years sober..(updated)

[hippiehillbilly]

an all i gotta say is,,,


FUCK THE NAY SAYERS!!

daddy always told me,"cant never could do nuthin"...http://www.hipforums.com/forums/images/newsmilies/sifone.gif

[HoneySuckleBlue]

Rock on HHB!:)


Do you feel like a new man?

[hippiehillbilly]

well at the moment i feel like shit.. (touch of the flu)

other than that,yes i feel like a new man.. ive tried through all this to not beat myself up over the 20 years i wasted being a drunk.. dont get me wrong i was always productive,just the reality of how much money i spent on alcohol and all the days i didnt do as much as i should have etc..

its been a eye opening experience.i really dont think my brain is fully adjusted yet. i guess thats to be expected,it took my body about 6 months to really start feeling healed..

one things for sure,as i stated when i began this new path,
I WILL NEVER DRINK AGAIN..

makes me wonder where all the nay sayers are now.. my guess is about half drunk somewhere trying to convince themselves that i am not being truthful ..

sorry folks,i guess im stronger than you thought i was... ;)

[freeinalaska]

Hey, good on ya. I just did a six month break myself and I'm not sure where I'm going with it all. It sounds like you know you made the right decision for yourself.

I hear you on the cost of 20 years of drinking. I just added exactly that up for my daughter. My god, would I be set if all that money had gone into the bank, not to mention all the human energy wasted.....

peace

[HoneySuckleBlue]

Man, I guess the cost is something that never really seems like anything in the mean time when one is partaking...that just made me think of all the money I spend on wine a month...dang, we could probably take that trip to Alaska the girls and I have been dreaming about for so long. If only, jeeze...

So what made you decide this was the time?

I ask because my brother and my dad drink alot and I wish I could say or do something to help encourage them with out pushing them away. Is it something internal just 'clicking'?

I sure am happy to hear you sounding so fresh and energetic, even if you are fluish. Lots of strength and Love to you HHB, hope you kick the bug real quick!

[Duck]

Good job man =)

[autophobe2e]

congratulations, your a legend!!

my friends dad just got over smack, hes got massive scars all over his arms cos when the heroin leaves ur blood it itches under ur skin nd he ripped chunks out of his arms with his fingernils at night.

ive got nothin but respect for anyone who can conquer any kind of addction.

[hippiehillbilly]

So what made you decide this was the time?

well it was a lot of things that lead up to it..

as ya know for years we opened our home to folks with nowhere else to go etc.. well that winter at one point there was 13 people here. there was a LOT of stress and i was drinking more and more.. long story short(much MUCH more to the story) i came home from work one day and dilligaf was gone..

that was all the wake up call i needed.. i remember everyone telling me i would never quit for her,i could only do it for myself blah blah..

what noone seemed to understand was getting her back home was for me.. so if quitting drinking was the only way i could get her to come home then that is what i decided had to be done..

so once again to all those who said i was doing it for the wrong reasons,and that i couldnt do it for those reasons etc..

where are you now?

im here nice and sober and as happy as ive been in 25 years..

[stinkfoot]

Congratulations and much respect man. It's a life experience that you're better for having been through though.

[astrialkiss]

How did you do it?...............I have a few problems myself.............been to rehab soooooooooo many times. Im still drinking every now and then, smoking pot some, its the other stuff that is starting to get out of control. i havent used in 3 days, i really want to stop..................i know where this path leads..........but it seems damn near impossible to turn the other way.

[hippiehillbilly]

well the post before yours i pretty much explained it..

i dunno,, i just look at it as being responsible for your own actions..
my actions began to hurt others emotionally and i just knew that it was time to stop what i was doing.. so i did...

i guess maybe im the exception and not the rule,,possibly,because its never been a problem dealing with the withdrawals(i shot dope for 7 years,,been clean from that for 20),in fact the withdrawals both times gave me the conviction to resist temptation and not backslide..

i dont care to EVER go through that again,,but now i only partake in the sacred herb,,so i dont see that being a problem.. ;)

i aint sayin it was fun,,but for me,i really havent had any desire to backslide either time..

as far as turning the other way,,some people have to distance themselves from people who still partake in what there addiction was,,thats never been a issue for me but it may be what you need to get clean and stay clean..

i hope i maybe helped.. if ya ever wanna talk about what your goin through just gimme a holler..
but be forewarned,,,i am a tell it like it is kinda person an i dont give a fuck about hurting peoples feelings when i believe im tellin it like it is.. ;)

good luck though..

[astrialkiss]

You have helped a lot. ive been clean for a week. seems like an eternity. week ends are the worst for me, i live alone, everyone is out doing their fun stuff with their mates. this fri i just went by my daughters and asked to bring her baby home with me. that kept me straight. when she cane to get the bootsie baby..............her 2 year old begged to stay.................so she did. i know im not gonna be using when the babies are here with me.

[RiffRaff]

well at the moment i feel like shit.. (touch of the flu)

other than that,yes i feel like a new man.. ive tried through all this to not beat myself up over the 20 years i wasted being a drunk.. dont get me wrong i was always productive,just the reality of how much money i spent on alcohol and all the days i didnt do as much as i should have etc..

its been a eye opening experience.i really dont think my brain is fully adjusted yet. i guess thats to be expected,it took my body about 6 months to really start feeling healed..

one things for sure,as i stated when i began this new path,
I WILL NEVER DRINK AGAIN..
makes me wonder where all the nay sayers are now.. my guess is about half drunk somewhere trying to convince themselves that i am not being truthful ..

sorry folks,i guess im stronger than you thought i was... ;)

You seem pretty arrogant in regards to this topic if you ask me. After all, it's only been a year (1 1/2 now?). I don't know that I would say 'never' if I were you. Alcohol is cunning and powerful.

[stinkfoot]

You seem pretty arrogant in regards to this topic if you ask me. After all, it's only been a year (1 1/2 now?). I don't know that I would say 'never' if I were you. Alcohol is cunning and powerful.

I'm sure the service of naysaying has its value in motivating someone bent on proving critics wrong. In that sense I'm confident your contribution here is appreciated though I doubt that it's really needed.

[stalk]

you still puff herb?

[hippiehillbilly]

You seem pretty arrogant in regards to this topic if you ask me. After all, it's only been a year (1 1/2 now?). I don't know that I would say 'never' if I were you. Alcohol is cunning and powerful.



actually its almost 2 years now.:cheers2::rolleyes:

lol yeah im a arrogant old asshole who knows how strong willed he is and yeah i know how weak minded some people must be to believe alcohol or drugs have power over your own mind..

you control your thoughts and decisions not alcohol or drugs.

when one is naive enough to say alcohol has power then its obvious they dont grasp anything at all about recovery..

alcohol and drugs dont have power,people have weak minds. its as simple as that.

yes i can say without a doubt i will NEVER drink again because i know who i am,i know where i have been,what ive overcome and what i am capable of achieving when i put my mind to it.



and yeah stalk i still smoke weed when its around..

[odon]

You seem pretty arrogant in regards to this topic if you ask me. After all, it's only been a year (1 1/2 now?). I don't know that I would say 'never' if I were you. Alcohol is cunning and powerful.

Fair play to him I say.
I and I know others who have wasted time, money and respect through drink.
If I quit for 2 years (after 20 long years) I'd be pretty bloody happy about it too.
Sure, from experience, he can be arrogant - but on this - full respect to him - let him be as arrogant as he wants :cheers2: (ok wrong icon :D) http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/images/icons/icon14.gif

[RiffRaff]

actually its almost 2 years now.:cheers2::rolleyes:

lol yeah im a arrogant old asshole who knows how strong willed he is and yeah i know how weak minded some people must be to believe alcohol or drugs have power over your own mind..

you control your thoughts and decisions not alcohol or drugs.

when one is naive enough to say alcohol has power then its obvious they dont grasp anything at all about recovery..

alcohol and drugs dont have power,people have weak minds. its as simple as that.

yes i can say without a doubt i will NEVER drink again because i know who i am,i know where i have been,what ive overcome and what i am capable of achieving when i put my mind to it.



and yeah stalk i still smoke weed when its around..

Keep telling yourself that. If you are an alcoholic, you'll not succeed. A few years maybe, maybe even 10 but you'll give in without help.

For you sake, I hope I'm wrong.

[hippiehillbilly]

by your logic no one who has ever been addicted to drugs or alcohol is capable of walking away for good and im here to tell you thats just plain stupidity.i was a junkie for 7 years and havent stuck a needle in my arm in over 20,are you saying i will again?? poppycock!!

as a matter of fact i know dozens of people who have quit for good. one on these forums that come to mind is oldhippie54 he has been sober for 25 years.
now that i think about it,,stinkfoot didnt you have a bout with alcohol? i know your dad was a alcoholic..

once again it has to do with personal responsibility and being responsible enough to know there are some things you just cant do..it has nothing to do with giving in without help,it has to do with weak minded individuals who cant stand by their commitments to themselves..

a backsliding alcoholic makes a choice to drink again even though he knows the implications,alcohol doesnt tempt,ones own mind tempts.i know i am a stronger individual than that. something tells me you are not though..;)

at any rate,thanks for your vote of non confidence, i really would be looking forward to proving you wrong but alas your old ass will more than likely be dead in 10 years and i wont be able to flaunt it in your face unless i was to dig your grave up...:p

[shameless_heifer]

Here here HBH,
I walked away from the needle and alcohol thirty five yrs for the needle, 10 yrs for alcohol, I did it on my own no help but from my husband who was patient with me.

It CAN be done. I was addicted to pain pills when I got hurt, broke my neck. I took them just like the doc said and was addicted three yrs. I put them down never to want to see another pill in my life that was not made of natural substances ever. that was in 98'.

I drank everyday, got drunk everyday for yrs. I did the doing of what had to be done also but not to my potential. I found I could take it or leave it when I had to leave it. I could not take pills and drink too, so I gave up the booze bc the pain pills stopped the pain.

After I gave up the pills. I thought I might try a drink or two or three, but my body had already gotten it out of it's system and wanted no more of it and if I forced my body to accept it my body would simply rid itself of it by making me hurl. Even one sip.

So Kudos to you my friend and congarats, you can keep on keeping on. Do not listen to others weakness, you already got it licked.

sh

[sideshowbobstylee]

Grats. Quite the accomplishment. Stay strong.

[MayQueen~420~]

props to yah, it's not easy. I'm 2 years clean, had a bad coke problem, now I smoke and drink occasionally. I've always thought that alcoholics have the worst time getting clean because alcohol is legal and everywhere! Keep it up man, I'm proud of you.

[earthmother]

Hell yes! And my old man been clean over 3 years!!! Congrats to all.

[Zoomie]

Comin up on another one HHB. I PM'd you you quit and told you that you could do it. I was right. I like it when that happens.

I guess you don't want to celebrate this year with that pic of you carrying in a fresh 30 of Icehouse, huh? :D

Good on ya.

[hippiehillbilly]

thank you zoomie.. pats on the back are nice..

no i think ill pass on celebrating with a beer.. i am to the point now where the smell repulses me so thats probably the last thing i would wanna mark the occasion with..

thanks for thinkin of me..

[TheSystemOrange]

Keep telling yourself that. If you are an alcoholic, you'll not succeed. A few years maybe, maybe even 10 but you'll give in without help.

For you sake, I hope I'm wrong.
You are just a negative aaaahole aren't you? Sorry for being so blunt but come on... everything you just said is a flat out lie- you are like a black cloud of doubt trying to get someone to fail. I've seen dozens of people myself walk away and never look back. It happens all the time.