Penny
02-10-2008, 11:01 PM
I went to see my friends show last night.. though I didn't really feel like it because my ex-boyfriend remains the popular drummer of the band.. hah.. and.. we didn't really break-up in the most awsome terms.. haha.. so.. and there were a couple other people I didn't necessarily want to see either. Awkwardness, dirty looks, attitudes.. no. I mean from their part, anyway.. I'm not like that, I would just.. ignore them.. but.. turns out things went way better than I tought!
At first, it was really awkward. I was all excited to see them play, and they've gotten so amazing over the past few months, but I couldn't deal with Tyler's look. Finally.. I had fun.. pretended he wasn't there.. but when it was time to split, I had to choose between staying there for the next band, and hang out with the band and my friend Heather, who really wanted me to stay and come out with them later, go home, or hang out with other friends. I almost went home.. but.. Heather insisted.. and I was like.. no I don't feel comfortable hanging out.. you KNOW why.. and she just laughed and told me I was being silly and that it would be alright.. so.. I stayed. For the entire time the next (sucky) band played, I stuck to my chair, next to Heather and her boyfriend, leader of the band, petrified, looking at the back of Tyler. How would it go? We'd go out to eat, and then go to a common friend's house and drink and hang out together.. how fucking awkward? lol I mean seriously. I almost changed my mind and left.. But then Tyler came up to me, and goes "hey, what's up?" - I could feel my face - and entire body - get extremely hot. "Not much" I go. "Hanging out". "Thanks for coming out" he goes. "You're welcome". So he wasn't pissed-off at me anymore! Or just wanted to fuck me, haha..
The rest of night went really well! I got wasted.. so did Tyler.. and everyone really. But Tyler just acted like his good old self around me.. it was like.. before we got together.. but I didn't give in to his "I'm so horny" and various sex refferences.. and I didn't go join him on the couch when he was alone.
We're in good terms, he's moved-on.. but.. I'm not forgetting the scenes and how he's still in love with his exes.. all of them.. haha.. fucked-up kid. I mean I don't really care enough to be bitter about it at this point.. I'm just.. yeah, I don't know. Done with the drama. But he's fun to be friends with! At least now things won't be weird anymore.
At first, it was really awkward. I was all excited to see them play, and they've gotten so amazing over the past few months, but I couldn't deal with Tyler's look. Finally.. I had fun.. pretended he wasn't there.. but when it was time to split, I had to choose between staying there for the next band, and hang out with the band and my friend Heather, who really wanted me to stay and come out with them later, go home, or hang out with other friends. I almost went home.. but.. Heather insisted.. and I was like.. no I don't feel comfortable hanging out.. you KNOW why.. and she just laughed and told me I was being silly and that it would be alright.. so.. I stayed. For the entire time the next (sucky) band played, I stuck to my chair, next to Heather and her boyfriend, leader of the band, petrified, looking at the back of Tyler. How would it go? We'd go out to eat, and then go to a common friend's house and drink and hang out together.. how fucking awkward? lol I mean seriously. I almost changed my mind and left.. But then Tyler came up to me, and goes "hey, what's up?" - I could feel my face - and entire body - get extremely hot. "Not much" I go. "Hanging out". "Thanks for coming out" he goes. "You're welcome". So he wasn't pissed-off at me anymore! Or just wanted to fuck me, haha..
The rest of night went really well! I got wasted.. so did Tyler.. and everyone really. But Tyler just acted like his good old self around me.. it was like.. before we got together.. but I didn't give in to his "I'm so horny" and various sex refferences.. and I didn't go join him on the couch when he was alone.
We're in good terms, he's moved-on.. but.. I'm not forgetting the scenes and how he's still in love with his exes.. all of them.. haha.. fucked-up kid. I mean I don't really care enough to be bitter about it at this point.. I'm just.. yeah, I don't know. Done with the drama. But he's fun to be friends with! At least now things won't be weird anymore.