i wish i had that carelessness i had....

[SonicYouthFan]

when i was a rather young child like from 5 to likke around 9 or 10 something before you get self consious about stuff and never knew what an awkward situation even was cause you just were way to wrapped up in so many things all the time and even when u know now u were doing some pretty mindless stuff like just sitting on some rocks and looking at nothing but for some reason it was the best thing you could ever imagine or could be doing at the moment in your life, you woke up at 6 in the morning totally psyched for the new day and what it could bring. nothing mattered, responsiblity didnt exist in anyway.. endless supplies of energry and exicitement. i was so much more wilder in earlier years and was a total free spirit and i wish i could bring that back to my life now but with the knowledge i know now...i feel like that could make me the best person i could ever imagine myself to be.. i guess this post started from the imaginary friends thread cause peoples posts brought back that childlike state of mind where you were truely free of evrything you could be doing the most retarded thing ever but it didnt even matter because in your head it wasnt at all you were doing for the hell of it... does anyone know where im coming at?

[BraveSirRubin]

I'm a tad different. I've always felt old as a child. Felt like I was a 100 years old.

The older I get, the younger I actually begin to feel. I didn't have a pretty childhood, and it's actually nice to discover the child in me right now. I feel so much more free now than as a child... it's wonderful.

I don't think that a lot of people feel the same as I do though. I think that some of my drug use is a result of trying to re-capture the childhood I've never really had.

I do like the Sonic Youth though.

[mamaKCita]

the farther i get from my childhood, the happier i am.

[green faerie]

I'm a tad different. I've always felt old as a child. Felt like I was a 100 years old.

The older I get, the younger I actually begin to feel. I didn't have a pretty childhood, and it's actually nice to discover the child in me right now. I feel so much more free now than as a child... it's wonderful.

I don't think that a lot of people feel the same as I do though. I think that some of my drug use is a result of trying to re-capture the childhood I've never really had.

I do like the Sonic Youth though.
i can relate. as a kid, my youthful optimism and love of life died very quickly.

i think most intelligent and mature people have unhappy childhoods. you realize how messed things are in your life and the world in general, but everyone treats you like you're ignorant and stupid.

when you get older and have more control and respect, things tend to improve a little.

[SonicYouthFan]

Its strange because i had an amazing childhood for the most part couldnt really complain but i think around highschool something happned and then i got alot more quiet when i used to be the most talkable person and would always joke around then i got all serious in highschool i dont know what it was but i just did and no that im out i find myself slowly going back to my oldself having more fun with life and im learning more about myself so my freedom is slowly coming back so one day i know ill be back in action. i guess i just went through an awkward phase and now im seeing things for what they really are i guess its just a new stage in my life and i see a bright future where i can fully flourish into who iam. i feel like im figuring out who iam but theres still so much to learn about myself and my role in the world of ares. rite now i feel good but i know i could be feeling a whole lot better its just gonna take some effort on my part to get where i truely want to be. it will come that i kno and i just have to experience life and shake things up.

[SonicYouthFan]

btw green faerie your very attractive

[i_was_in_shroom_land]

yeah, thats exactly like me.. i really miss being a kid again... =\

but when i was younger, (like a lot of people) i wanted to be older...
and i never really understood why the older people always told me how they wish they could be young again... i was like... whyyyy??... lol but now i understand...

i did have a great time while i was younger, i didn't even realize it at the time.....

blah... the grass is always greener... lol

[green faerie]

btw green faerie your very attractive
thank you. :)

[SonicYouthFan]

i was similiar shrromland i remember times when i was young i had a desk in my room and i pretended i was the boss of an important company haha now im my life that the last thing i want to be funny how things change.

[BraveSirRubin]

This is a fascinating thread.

I've always wanted to be younger when I was a kid so that I could relate to people my age. I always ended up hanging out with adults.

Now I still feel a thousand years older than people my age, but... I used to feel a million years older when I was kid... so I'm making good progress.

[stinkfoot]

I wish I had a tad more recklessness when I was younger. So much dimension to my life experience has been stifled because I've walked a little too cautious.

[myself]

when i was a rather young child like from 5 to likke around 9 or 10 something before you get self consious about stuff and never knew what an awkward situation even was cause you just were way to wrapped up in so many things all the time and even when u know now u were doing some pretty mindless stuff like just sitting on some rocks and looking at nothing but for some reason it was the best thing you could ever imagine or could be doing at the moment in your life, you woke up at 6 in the morning totally psyched for the new day and what it could bring. nothing mattered, responsiblity didnt exist in anyway.. endless supplies of energry and exicitement. i was so much more wilder in earlier years and was a total free spirit and i wish i could bring that back to my life now but with the knowledge i know now...i feel like that could make me the best person i could ever imagine myself to be.. i guess this post started from the imaginary friends thread cause peoples posts brought back that childlike state of mind where you were truely free of evrything you could be doing the most retarded thing ever but it didnt even matter because in your head it wasnt at all you were doing for the hell of it... does anyone know where im coming at?

Few very young children are shy... or worry about anything, such as what people are going to think about them. They're more communicative, and address lots of questions to adults. Which changes in later years, when kids grow up and become more self-conscious...

[Penny]

I couldn't agree with you more, SonicYouthFan. I really wish I could be the way I was when I was a little kid again too, sometimes.. but just sometimes. The times when I worry about stuff, the times when I have to take responsibilities, the times when I have to act a certain way because of this or that, the times when I have bitter reactions.. Being older IS a good thing in that you've gained experience, and maybe wisdom (or maybe not.. in fact) but when you're 4, 5 years old, you just live in the present. You're totally in the now; you don't worry; you can't be bitter because past doesn't matter anymore... When you're that young you're innocent, you do things because your heart tells you to without thinking and that is, I think, the most beautiful way to live. I try and live like that.. but it is so hard.

[thehippie_08]

true dat.