Checked Out of the Hotel

[kitty fabulous]

We're finally checked out of the hotel and are staying at the farmhouse at the Center for Symbolic Studies. http://www.symbolicstudies.org/why.html I'm using the wireless access and Brendan's computer at the movement center here, but there's no access at the farmhouse.

It's all starting to sink in now, and I feel very lonely and depressed. Damien is doing better, not crying so much, but Shakti has suddenly started peeing herself, and wetting the bed at night.

I would love a steaming mug of chai.

[scarlettchasingroses]

:grouphug: things will get better soon...

[HoneySuckleBlue]

Well give us an addy and I can definately swing some chai ;)

How long will y'all be staying there?

*Holding you guys in my thoughts*

[Piney]

Best wishes & prayers................................

[mariecstasy]

That place looks so freaking cool though:D What a blessing!

I can understand why you are feeling it all right now. Hope that you continue to grow. I love you girl and call me anytime if you still have my number.

[HoneySuckleBlue]

Go Lizzie Go!


http://www.folkloredreams.com/sites/omnisitefolder/_files/Image/pheonix_bird.jpg

The depth of feeling this event opens up in your heart is a powerful gift.

[mariecstasy]

absolutely. It is in dying that we resurrect stronger.

Nice image Kim.

[HoneySuckleBlue]

Thanks Marie, I have been loving yours two, the tree turned into two people hugging and their energy radiating all around a few days back.


I'd love to explore the place where you are staying Lizzie. It looks like such a great place for healing. Life always puts you perfectly where you need to be.

I did a simple two card draw for you, I hope you don't mind, if you do let me know and I will take this down. But my reflection says " EXISTENCE ...you are where you are to discover that you are not accidental and that Existence needs you. HOme is not a physical place in the outside world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance. The stars the rocks the trees are all our brothers and sisters in this and we human beings tend to forget as we persue our own private agendas and believe we must fight to get what we need. But ultimately our sense of separateness is just an illusion, manufactured by the narrow preoccupations of the mind. *Now is the time to look at whether you are allowing yourself to recieve the extraordinary gift of feeling at home where ever you are. "

and, "SLOWING DOWN MEditation is a kind of medicine- its use is only for the time being. Once you have learned the quality , then you need not do any particular meditation, then the meditation has spead all over your life.
Walking Zen is Sitting zen.
Then what will be the quality? Watchful, alert, Joyful, unmotivated, centered, loving, flowing, one walks. And the walking is sauntering. Loving alert, watchful one sits, unmotivated-not sitting for any reason in particular, just enjoying how beautiful just stiiing doing nothing is, how realxing, how restful...Each moment one has to be at ease with ones self-not trying to improve, not cultivating anything, not practising anything.
The essences is at ease.
That is the key word. Do what ever you are doing but at the deepest core remain at ease, cool, calm, centered.

The knight of Rainbows is a reminder that, just like this tortoise we carry our home with us where ever we go. There is no need to hurry, no need to seek shelter else where. Even as we move into emotional waters we can remain self-contained and free from attachments. *IT is a time when you are ready to let go of any expectations you have had and take responsibility for any illusions you may have been carrying. There is no need to do anything except rest in the fullness of who you are right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their dissapearance is making a space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is, and you are able to welcome this development in a way you have never been able to before. Savor this quality of slowing down, of coming to rest and recognising that you are already at home."

Loving you mama. It all works out eventually.