ever think about this?

[jakel]

this sounds weird but for some reason i always think about going on a ski trip when its nice and snowy and a fire is going in the mountain cabin and some of your best freinds and wives are there just having fun and enjoying a good night while im on a nice 160+mg oxy dose... i dont know i just picture that in my head and it makes me really happy...... everyone sitting around talking about old times while im feeling on top of the world not having to drink or smoke ganja, but smoke a pack of ciggs! lol......just be warm with the pills and the fire! dammit i think im an addict beyond help sometimes! jake

[G0dm4ch1n3]

Being passionate about a substance doesn't mean your an addict. There is a huge difference. :)

[jakel]

yeah but thats how much my mind and body wants the feeling it gives me..... i know it will never happen but i wish there was a drug they could prescribe that gave similar effects without the bad stuff and wasnt as dependant.....and yes im an addict, im just trying to quit actually.