fountains of nay
12-03-2007, 05:19 PM
Usually when I switch off the computer I leave and don't think about the internet whatsoever. Recently I've been thinking about my usage and realised that all I ever do when visiting messageboards is put out lots of negative energy. I have been trying to understand why and here are a few reasons (please excuse me for not expressing this very clearly but this has always been a problem of mine).
Unless I'm using facebook or something similar I disconnect the "real" world with the internet world and totally forget that I am interacting with "real" people who actually value their time spent contributing to these kinds of things.
When I go online I usually do it to fill time and most of the time I'm usually stressed and trying to distract myself from whatever I should be doing, hence my argumentative, most of the time mindless/thoughtless comments. I used to use messageboards as a way of venting in order to not let it affect my relationships with people on the outside world. I won't call it an alter-ego, but I don't know how else to explain it. I suppose I just used to come online to piss some people off, make myself feel better and then not think about it again.
Also, I'm really lazy when it comes to the internet; I can never be bothered to read things properly etc, I have problems with this not only on messageboards, but through emails, articles... EVERYTHING! I'm a bookworm...I can't help it. This would also explain why I misunderstand a lot of concepts throughout these boards...I do this with text messages too!
So, I've made this post as an apology to everyone on the forums that I've offended and also as a brief explanation. If I was to meet you outside of the internet, I think you'd be rather shocked.
Anywhos, I can't turn back the time, but now that I've become aware of this it is never too late to change.
Once again, I apologise to people and in future, if I choose to contribute I will genuinely express my opinions and not ones that will just create conflict for the hell of it.
Thankyou for taking the time to read this.
Nayhem
Unless I'm using facebook or something similar I disconnect the "real" world with the internet world and totally forget that I am interacting with "real" people who actually value their time spent contributing to these kinds of things.
When I go online I usually do it to fill time and most of the time I'm usually stressed and trying to distract myself from whatever I should be doing, hence my argumentative, most of the time mindless/thoughtless comments. I used to use messageboards as a way of venting in order to not let it affect my relationships with people on the outside world. I won't call it an alter-ego, but I don't know how else to explain it. I suppose I just used to come online to piss some people off, make myself feel better and then not think about it again.
Also, I'm really lazy when it comes to the internet; I can never be bothered to read things properly etc, I have problems with this not only on messageboards, but through emails, articles... EVERYTHING! I'm a bookworm...I can't help it. This would also explain why I misunderstand a lot of concepts throughout these boards...I do this with text messages too!
So, I've made this post as an apology to everyone on the forums that I've offended and also as a brief explanation. If I was to meet you outside of the internet, I think you'd be rather shocked.
Anywhos, I can't turn back the time, but now that I've become aware of this it is never too late to change.
Once again, I apologise to people and in future, if I choose to contribute I will genuinely express my opinions and not ones that will just create conflict for the hell of it.
Thankyou for taking the time to read this.
Nayhem