Confessions!

[Tree-Hugger]

I don't want to be in the game.

[Waking Life]

I don't want to be in the game.


well hugs, we're all in the game. its just a matter of degree.

[Face Eater]

I signed up for the Australian eharmony site, did the test and all it gave me was some stupid personality profile that basically says I am a selfish, uncompassionate person that believes everyone should take care of themselves. Then it asked me to pay to see my matches.

Is that how its supposed to work?

[Waking Life]

I signed up for the Australian eharmony site, did the test and all it gave me was some stupid personality profile that basically says I am a selfish, uncompassionate person that believes everyone should take care of themselves. Then it asked me to pay to see my matches.

Is that how its supposed to work?

ya thats about right.

So how many matches did you get?

[Tree-Hugger]

I signed up for the Australian eharmony site, did the test and all it gave me was some stupid personality profile that basically says I am a selfish, uncompassionate person that believes everyone should take care of themselves. Then it asked me to pay to see my matches.

Is that how its supposed to work?

That's why I like you so much.

[Face Eater]

ya thats about right.

So how many matches did you get?

I didn't pay for it. Why would I pay for such frivolous shite. I have no idea, except that I was summarized into a selfish bastard for no reason.

EDIT: I just went to the "my matches" tab and it said 'no matches'.

Is that true? Good. I want to die alone.

[Face Eater]

That's why I like you so much.

I like you also for the same reason but its really only 95% true. I can have boundless compassion when the need arises, when REAL need, its just that most of the time I like to stay on the level and let everyone else deal with their frivolous emotional crap. The test failed to say that.

[Waking Life]

I didn't pay for it. Why would I pay for such frivolous shite. I have no idea, except that I was summarized into a selfish bastard for no reason.


Wow, the Australia is even tighter than Canada! At least they softened my blow with a number. Kind of a fucked up way of selling a dating service. "You're a fucked up numbnuts, we could only manage to find 7 people across the country that are remotely similar ..... and we'll give you a name and a photo for the low low price of ..." god.

[Tree-Hugger]

I like you also for the same reason but its really only 95% true. I can have boundless compassion when the need arises, when REAL need, its just that most of the time I like to stay on the level and let everyone else deal with their frivolous emotional crap. The test failed to say that.


Yeah I know you are. I've been told that I'm sweet when I chat through pm's. :rolleyes:

[Face Eater]

LOL pm's = PMS

[Tree-Hugger]

LOL pm's = PMS

I'm rather quiet during PMS. Quiet and deadly....like those silent farts in elevators.

[Dave_techie]

I can shoot a target the size of the bottom of a soda can from 100 meters away with a bolt action .22

less a confession, more a gloat, but, it's not like I'll ever get to use said skills, so, I dunno, I feel kinda weird about having them.

[Face Eater]

I can skin a human within 5 minutes, and chop up the remains so that they neatly fit into my guitar case.

[Dave_techie]

I can skin a human within 5 minutes, and chop up the remains so that they neatly fit into my guitar case.
getting in practice must have been tricky.

[Face Eater]

getting in practice must have been tricky.

I am South Australian, I learn from the best.

[Dave_techie]

ahh, okay, all makes sense now.

hey, could you kill and taxiderm a wombat for me?

[Face Eater]

ahh, okay, all makes sense now.

hey, could you kill and taxiderm a wombat for me?

I don't kill animals. I one with the birds and the trees. Man is the enemy.

[Dave_techie]

I don't kill animals. I one with the birds and the trees. Man is the enemy.
you're too nerdy to be ra's al'ghul.

[indian~summer]

oh god the last couple of pages have made my night
so funny :biggrin:
i might take that eharmony shit just to see if i'm matchable...

[zen_arcade]

i like daft punk

:puke:

[Face Eater]

One more time, got me feelin so free, i'm gonna celebrate, celebrate and dance so free, one more time...

Woo.

[Dave_techie]

you sing like a girl.

[indian~summer]

:puke:
that was a little bit of a delayed reaction....

[indian~summer]

i did that eharmony bullshit
that was like the longest fucking thing evers
and now the fucking page won't load
fucking ass

[Face Eater]

Im gonna start a site called "e-fuck"

[indian~summer]

i like.

[Face Eater]

One more time, a celebration, musics got me feelin so free. One more time, a celebration, celebrate and dance so free, one more time

[zen_arcade]

that was a little bit of a delayed reaction....

I needed some time to think about it.

[Waking Life]

i did that eharmony bullshit
that was like the longest fucking thing evers
and now the fucking page won't load
fucking ass


wow, you broke the webpage.


soooooo unmatchable.

[indian~summer]

wow, you broke the webpage.


soooooo unmatchable.
actually i got 7
kiss my ass vagina




ps. vagina is your new name
and i'm still not talking to you
go die

[Waking Life]

actually i got 7
kiss my ass vagina




ps. vagina is your new name
and i'm still not talking to you
go die



so then what the h did you say your page crashed for? why not just say 7? its nothing to be ashamed of. Look, cate got zero.

Vagina has always been synonymous with my name, so I dont' mind the jump.

[indian~summer]

i said the page wouldn't load, and then it loaded.
seriously, go die.

[indian~summer]

i confess that although i am almost never serious, i love saying seriously.

[Waking Life]

i said the page wouldn't load, and then it loaded.
seriously, go die.

Alright alright. no need to get testy.

[indian~summer]

:tongue:

[Waking Life]

and she's back. ol' blue eyes missed ya.

[Allonym]

i stayed home sick today, though i was probably well enough to drag my lazy tush to work

[Dave_techie]

I stayed home sick today, and I am thinking my job is not worth it if I can't drive.

I spent this morning vomiting, but I probably could have gone in if I'd really cared.

[I'minmyunderwear]

i stayed home today because it is my day off.

[Tree-Hugger]

I stayed at home because I'm unemployed.

[Jaitaiyai]

I went to school.


I feel like the odd one out.
:leaving:

[wastingthedawn]

...I'm really really randy. I always get really randy in economics class...

...I think just I get bored and my mind wanders to more interesting topics...

[redyelruc]

I haven't had a drink for 2 weeks and it feels great.

[Tree-Hugger]

I haven't had a drink for 2 weeks and it feels great.


Congrats Red! :D

[redyelruc]

Congrats Red! :DThanks. It hasn't been difficult. I was tired of being trashed.

[Cate8]

If drinking always = trashed, then definitelyyyy take a break.

[indian~summer]

i confess that i really wish i was one of those bitchy girls that holds grudges
i am incapable of holding gruges

[Dave_techie]

i confess that i really wish i was one of those bitchy girls that holds grudges
i am incapable of holding gruges
I think your story is more tragic than you deserve.

[Funkateer]

i once killed a man

[indian~summer]

I think your story is more tragic than you deserve.
i don't know what you mean by this dave
but seriously sometimes it'd be good to hold a grudge

take the show the hills for example, lauren has had a grudge against heidi for like 2 seasons now...
and all heidi did was get a crappy boyfriend who may or may not of spread a sex tape rumour
i've had friends do way worse than that, but still i am incapable of holding a grudge

i'm just not a cunt
i wish i was tho...
i need more dumb girl friends


and dude, who hasn't killed a man, seriously

[Funkateer]

dont you mean srsly

I love how you actually used the hills as a reference

why on earth would you pay attention to such a vile tv show?

[indian~summer]

it's like crack
srsly

[Boogabaah]

i didn't vote..


:leaving:

[Dave_techie]

I voted for nader.

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess I lied today.
I told Luke my bra size is a billion ZZ.
But they were so big, I had to chop them off.
I donated them to the breast cancer society.
Viki thought that was harsh. :rolleyes:
I said I kept spare boob under my bed.
Just in case.

Then he asked what my bra size really was.
But i kept telling him the same answer. He just laughed.

I lied yesterday too.
I had a guitar exam so I wasnt in for a lot of yesterday.
Viki asked me about it, I said I got the wrong bus.
Ended up in manchester!
Its because I fell asleep.
Then David asked me, I told him i got lost.
Went right when I should've gone left.
Then I told him I fell asleep on the bus.

They all just laughed. :rolleyes:

[Tree-Hugger]

I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I also don't want to help my cousin understand Brit. Lit. I quit school because I didn't want to be an English teacher, damn it!

[Cate8]

I dont want to go on a date tomorrow.

[indian~summer]

i confess i had a threesome with two guys last night
so i can cross that off my list
except they were drunk and bad at the sex
so i'm still gonna have to do it again, but screen the men better

i have the shakes, i think i ned more nutrition in my system
and for me that qualifies as tequila

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess.. I feel stupid. :(
But its time to go to sleep. so eh.

[indian~summer]

my uncle just got here from montreal
and every cell in my body is telling me to get the fuck out of this house

arg i hate my family

[Tree-Hugger]

I'm so glad that my uncle would be shipped back to prison if he was caught back in Ga.

[Dave_techie]

I just thought about my ex girlfriend, and almost started crying.

[zilla939]

i confess i had a threesome with two guys last night
so i can cross that off my list
except they were drunk and bad at the sex
so i'm still gonna have to do it again, but screen the men better

i have the shakes, i think i ned more nutrition in my system
and for me that qualifies as tequila

i have done that too, with dean and my friend richard.
my friend was kind of a vagina about it, though.

[Hyphy]

I think I'm getting one-itis :(

[indian~summer]

i have done that too, with dean and my friend richard.
my friend was kind of a vagina about it, though.
that is totally what happened!
i don't get that
i mean if you're in it, why be a vagina? don't fucking pussy out! go balls deep!



i am so fucking drunk right now, time for beddies

[indian~summer]

i really like pickles

i once got dragged, hung over to an art show called 'i like pickles'
it was held in the smallest town ever
the town consists of one road called main street
but i ate pickles hung over and then slept on one of their two park benches
and honestly if you want to sleep on a good park bench, go to orno ontario

i am listening to the pixies eating pickles :)
yay

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess I am going to sleep now.

[Dave_techie]

when I see people who act like my father I am needlessly cruel to them

and I enjoy it.

[Tree-Hugger]

I hate the muzzle of fear Skip put on me.

[Dave_techie]

I want my workplace to burn to the ground.

[deanmono]

I'm incapable of sleeping from 1am to 8am and usually miss half the day sleeping, og!

[zilla939]

I'm incapable of sleeping from 1am to 8am and usually miss half the day sleeping, og!

yeah, and if goodwill hunting comes on, you're FUCKED! :D

[deanmono]

you see this, all this shit... it's not your fault. look at me son... it's not your fault. it's not your fault.

[indian~summer]

dean i too am incapable of that

[Dave_techie]

I think I am a bad person.

[Aristartle]

I think I am a bad person.

Why?

I confess that I'm on day 44 of my menstrual cycle. Dammit, my period is late.

:toetap05:

[Dave_techie]

Why?

I confess that I'm on day 44 of my menstrual cycle. Dammit, my period is late.

:toetap05:


causes for that other than the first that pops into mind?

[Aristartle]

causes for that other than the first that pops into mind?

My average cycle is every 35 days. This just happens to be a longer cycle. Same thing happened last November, I was on day 47 when I got my period. I think it happens because I'm back to school, stressed, busy, working, preparing for exams, etc.

Anyway, why do you think you are a bad person?

[indian~summer]

allison if you have a baby will you name it after me?


i had an ultra sound today, made me feel preggers
but it's to make sure i don't have cancer


and dave, you are a bad person
a real bad bad man
you need punisment
and to be put onto the rightous path

[Aristartle]

allison if you have a baby will you name it after me?


i had an ultra sound today, made me feel preggers
but it's to make sure i don't have cancer


and dave, you are a bad person
a real bad bad man
you need punisment
and to be put onto the rightous path

:( OMG. I hope you're okay.

Yeah, I'll name it after you of course! Hopefully it comes out Hungarian and beautiful like you.

[Dave_techie]

nowhere did it say I had to go into detail about my confessions.

that's what you get.

if it makes you feel better, I could tell the reasons to a doctor or lawyer, and neither would feel even remotely worried, or compelled to break confidence, even if they were a hardcore busybody.

[Aristartle]

nowhere did it say I had to go into detail about my confessions.

that's what you get.

if it makes you feel better, I could tell the reasons to a doctor or lawyer, and neither would feel even remotely worried, or compelled to break confidence, even if they were a hardcore busybody.

You don't deserve to feel so far removed.

[indian~summer]

nowhere did it say I had to go into detail about my confessions.

that's what you get.

if it makes you feel better, I could tell the reasons to a doctor or lawyer, and neither would feel even remotely worried, or compelled to break confidence, even if they were a hardcore busybody.
wanna bet?

first post buddy

[Dave_techie]

wanna bet?

first post buddy
you should have had Allie edit it for you so it wouldn't have the "post last edited" thing.

and I don't know how to not feel so far removed.

also, jess, didn't you say you were definitely going to bed?

[indian~summer]

unfortunately, my laptop is portable
i am in bed

just not sleeping

i should be sleeping

and i had a reason for editing, cause you're a coochtard, so that's that.

[Dave_techie]

unfortunately, my laptop is portable
i am in bed

just not sleeping

i should be sleeping

and i had a reason for editing, cause you're a coochtard, so that's that.
oh fuck I need to double post

AND tell you that you need to have sex while watching internet porn in bed.

[Dave_techie]

just double posting so I can have post 1337.....

FUCK YES, I AM THAT COOL!

[Dave_techie]

I'm a horrible person because I relish the suffering of others, and I want to take thesuffering I feel and inflict it on those around me who contribute to my suffering, instead of accepting responsibility for putting myself in the situation that caused my suffering, and just dealing with it at the root.

[indian~summer]

that's not bad, that's normal
god forgives

[Dave_techie]

that's not bad, that's normal
god forgives
which is nice, because god is perfect, but I am not, and, I forgive the fuck out of others, but not myself.

and I don't ever feel like anyone else ever forgives me.

[indian~summer]

i'll never forgive you for eating my sandwich

[snake_grass]

i hate to love people

[zilla939]

which is nice, because god is perfect, but I am not, and, I forgive the fuck out of others, but not myself.

and I don't ever feel like anyone else ever forgives me.

all that matters is forgiving yourself.

[Face Eater]

I confess that I don't like myself very much at the moment. I'm not self loathing, like that other guy, but I feel like half a person. It happens. I'll live. My inflated ego will return. No pussie remarks please.

[zilla939]

I confess that I don't like myself very much at the moment. I'm not self loathing, like that other guy, but I feel like half a person. It happens. I'll live. My inflated ego will return. No pussie remarks please.

how bout working on a healthy ego? inflated egos are generally masks of insecurities...

[Face Eater]

how bout working on a healthy ego? inflated egos are generally masks of insecurities...
How bout you shut yo mouth.

[Jaitaiyai]

The light just went out in my room. My eyes hurt but I dont want to get another lightbulb. So the worst time to do it.

[Dave_techie]

I use a five watt incandescent bulb to light my room.

[indian~summer]

i don't light my room
i sit in the dark and cry

[Allonym]

im old today

well, older.
if only i didnt have to work, id drink a shitload of baileys and play video games all day. but i did get to play video games all yesterday (rememberance day = no work), i guess i shouldnt complain too much

[Dave_techie]

I want pianos to fall on people.

certain people.

[indian~summer]

i confess that although i want to sleep with lots of people, i kinda wish that all the people that want to sleep with me would be more like one person wanting to be with me.....

do ya dig, or am i drunk?

i'm drunk.

[Jaitaiyai]

i confess that although i want to sleep with lots of people.Same.
But not lots of people.
Just someone. Anyone.

[wastingthedawn]

i confess that although i want to sleep with lots of people, i kinda wish that all the people that want to sleep with me would be more like one person wanting to be with me.....

do ya dig, or am i drunk?

i'm drunk.

I dig.

...although more in the way that I would want someone who ALWAYS wanted to be with me and that we could rampage around seducing other people together...or apart and then tell eachother about it and not be bothered cause we knew that what we had with others didn't take away from eachother kind of styles...

although that beingg said, I'm pretty down with not having that and just being in love with everyone too.

[indian~summer]

alex, i love you my dirty hippie
i completely agree with what you're saying
you coming home for christmas?
if you do, call me

[wastingthedawn]

sure am. in a few weeks. :)

[wastingthedawn]

I think we prob have some getting juiced and exchanging traveling adventure stories to do.

[Cate8]

I concurr, Jessticle.

[indian~summer]

heeheehee jessticle is even better than uncle jessie
that should totally be my new nickname :biggrin:

i am so down like china town alexx
call me when you get here, and definitely getting jucie and exchanging stories is a must

[Dave_techie]

I want to be happy.

[indian~summer]

so be happy.
duh

[Aristartle]

I want pianos to fall on people.

certain people.

I always thought anvils were more comical.

[mamaKCita]

i find some of the anons to be amusing.

[Dave_techie]

I always thought anvils were more comical.
pianos are easier to find.

and in response to KC's

some HFers are anons......

[Face Eater]

I want to be happy.

Happiness is a construct. When you stop trying to be happy you start feeling happy. Isn't life ironic?

[mystical_shroom]

I confess I have no idea what this "anon" talk is...I obviously missed something and am pretty glad I did...

The more you put pressure on yourself to be happy, the more miserable you will feel....All you have to do is be true to yourself...

[Cate8]

I got drank last night

Also, toasted whole wheat bagels with butter, cheddar cheese, and tomatos are my newfound Timmys hangover cure

[Cate8]

heeheehee jessticle is even better than uncle jessie
that should totally be my new nickname :biggrin:


I felt good about that one. :p Lets go out this weekend, kay? I am paid tomorrow.

[Allonym]

i may have an unsolicited job offer coming my way
unsure of the details...
or hte pay...

or if id take it. the person i liked best there is quitting (this is at a company i previously worked for, in a different position). the person i like the least (a stupid, incompetent twit) is still there.
gah, i dunno. hard to decide without knowing any details

[mamaKCita]

pianos are easier to find.

and in response to KC's

some HFers are anons......

i think their memes are incredibly lame and stupid. however, a real conversation with some is fun. i'm too old to give a fart in a tornado about their "movement," however.

[Dave_techie]

i think their memes are incredibly lame and stupid. however, a real conversation with some is fun. i'm too old to give a fart in a tornado about their "movement," however.
no one really gives a fuck about the memes, it's just a sort of way to identify with the group

in person, cliques wear certain clothes

on the internet, this anonymous mass has memes

it's like if a surfer goes to anothe part of cali, and sees a group of guys with boards, he knows he can talk to them about certain things.

memes are surfboards.

[Allonym]

im reconsidering quitting my pt job, even though ive given notice

[mamaKCita]

no one really gives a fuck about the memes, it's just a sort of way to identify with the group

in person, cliques wear certain clothes

on the internet, this anonymous mass has memes

it's like if a surfer goes to anothe part of cali, and sees a group of guys with boards, he knows he can talk to them about certain things.

memes are surfboards.

yeah, i know. i just don't like theirs. :cheers2:

[mamaKCita]

i have to admit, though, i'm enjoying the trashpool quite a bit. they're like RT before the godly spanking.

[Cate8]

I forget where their forum is

[Arlandis]

I must confess

I went to a strip club on wednesday :o

[Dave_techie]

I'm depressed. the real, fucked up, I should probably be on some kinds of drugs kind

and the thing is, depression has such an incredible stigma attached to it, and so many people are wrongly diagnosed (there was a study in 02 that said something like 40% of people diagnosed with depression were simply suffering from normal, healthy sadness or mourning) and the word is used to broadly, that it's become a joke.

it's become something that middle class wives say they suffer from because they want more attention from their long suffering husband, instead of something that people recognize is REALLY fucking with someone else' head.

I don't know ow to deal with it. it's been with me since I was eight, I thought VERY seriously about killing myself then, and from time to time, recently I have had the same thoughts.

I'm not going to, I can't do that, which, makes more sense to me than it does to you I suppose. it's just one of those absolute things.

I am so tired, and every day is so painful, it feels like everything is just....

someone turned the saturation all the way down, but turned the intensity way up, and the light is making incursions out from where it is supposed to stay, shrieking at me, cutting me, making the world a brittle, arid place.

and I do not know how to keep going.

I just feel like I am pushing everyone away.

and so I try to be more likeable, I really do, and then everyone says I'm creepy, and trying too hard, and I am scaring them away, and I just.

I don't know what to do.

I feel like I've given so much of myself away. I feel like there is so little left. and I have received nothing but pain, and cynicism in barter.

my only real option is to go somewhere else and start over, but I am so afraid, honestly afraid, that, even if I manage to "succeed" elsewhere (find a job, find an apartment, function as an adult) I don't have the social skills to make friends, or socialize, or be anything but the worthless shut in I am here.

and then, I'd have no one to help me if I had a seizure, what if I had a grand mal and tried walking down a common hall? fell down some stairs? I just, I don't know what would honestly happen if I didn't have someone to babysit me post ictal

and what if I lost my drivers license in a city without mass transit? and most cities with mass transit are expensive to live in. and most mass transit systems suck, some are awesome, but they're rare exceptions, could I afford rent, and food, and communication, and transport?

I'm going to need communication, this is the only place I talk to people who aren't coworkers or family. and I'd need a phone to talk to family.

and the first time walker asked me to come over and I'd have to explain why I couldn't would be really sad.

this is too fucking long, I am just going to hope no one really reads it.

I'm depressed, and afraid, and insecure, and broken.

and I don't know what to do.

[redyelruc]

Dave, I just read through all of that and I'm a little at a loss for words. I have to see that you seem like a reasonable intelligent guy on here so I'm unsure as to why you can't socialise off of here?

I went through some serious shit in my teens early twenties, and attempted suicide many times. It is definitely not the answer you are looking for.

Neither really is moving away, but perhaps a fresh start would be just what you need. I have given myself many fresh starts in far-off places. But at some stage I know that I will have to stop, and that's a little scary

As for the fear thing, everybody is afraid of something, so you are not alone. I know that thought does not help you if you have a fit but there must be others who live with this condition and manage to get by somehow.

All of what I've written is pretty vague bullshit and of no use to you but I just felt like I should write something in response to your honesty.

Oh, and maybe you can't fix what's broken. Maybe you have to learn how to live with the broken parts.

[Dave_techie]

I was just feeling really fucked up and alone last night, I needed to talk about it somewhere.

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess, Dave techie, I am sorry but I do not like your new avatar.
I keep thinking you're someone else.
Someone female..

:leaving:

[Dave_techie]

I confess, Dave techie, I am sorry but I do not like your new avatar.
I keep thinking you're someone else.
Someone female..

:leaving:
it's the giant's causeway.

[mamaKCita]

i'm medicated for anxiety disorder. it's the smartest thing i ever did. fuck the stigma. i'd be locking myself in my closet, hiding from my children, crying my eyes out in a frenzy of freak-outedness. then i'd just get so so tired and lay down, not want to get outta bed. cry all the time. my poor kids, man. they shouldn't have to be raised by a crazy woman. i wasn't able to be a mom without medicine. i tried going without several times, weaning off slowly, giving myself time to adjust. and for a while i'd be awesome. then i'd just start going batshit all over again: afraid to go outside, can't cope iwth kids being kids, crying every time there was a mess on the floor, or just plain not giving a shit and having to be begged to make my kids food.

yeah, fuck the stigma, man. it's not a joke.

[Dave_techie]

it complicates things that when I did try medication I had a REALLY hard time with all the ones they tried me on

I couldn't function at all on effexor.

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess i worry.
You think people are gonna get annoyed with me for making so many stupid threads?
Only I have a great idea...

.. but thats what i said about the letter. :rolleyes:

[Dave_techie]

I confess i worry.
You think people are gonna get annoyed with me for making so many stupid threads?
Only I have a great idea...

.. but thats what i said about the letter. :rolleyes:
you're fifteen, the WORST that's going to happen is someone is going to mention that.

you're fine

[Jaitaiyai]

you're fifteen, the WORST that's going to happen is someone is going to mention that.

you're fineI dont get it.
Mention what?
eh... nvm.

I have a new idea: Im going to record myself singing the full Fresh prince theme song. Its pretty funny. :D

EDIT: besides I could be an old pervert. I COULD BE!

[Dave_techie]

I dont get it.
Mention what?
eh... nvm.

I have a new idea: Im going to record myself singing the full Fresh prince theme song. Its pretty funny. :D

EDIT: besides I could be an old pervert. I COULD BE!


oh, I assume everyone here I haven't seen pictures of is an old pervert

and even some of those.

[mamaKCita]

it complicates things that when I did try medication I had a REALLY hard time with all the ones they tried me on

I couldn't function at all on effexor.

yeah, that's a lot harder. but finding the right one makes all the difference in the world. for a month or two i'm a total zombie on mine. i was really scared about starting it in the first place, but it's working really well once the fog lifted.

[Jaitaiyai]

oh, I assume everyone here I haven't seen pictures of is an old pervert

and even some of those.I posted my pic in the designated thread.

Its also in my gallery. :rolleyes:

[Dave_techie]

I see NOTHING in your gallery

so ha

[Jaitaiyai]

Let me rephrase that.
Its also in my ALBUM.

You wouldnt be able to see it anyway.

[Dave_techie]

ah, well then.

[Jaitaiyai]

Right my last confession before I go to sleep - Im getting really sick of all this clever talk. All the spiritual crap people throw around.. :rolleyes: Like you cant talk for a while without getting into a deep convo. It happens in Art too.

[Dave_techie]

I don't think I've ever been loved.

[Jaitaiyai]

I think Im addicted to smilies.
Name and no. of a rehab anyone?

:tongue:

[Allonym]

im annoyed at my cousin over stupid unimportant stuff

also the cafe that a bunch of us go to brunch at every sunday is clooooooosing imminently! i be sad

[wastingthedawn]

on friday my friend visited from out of town and it was soooooooo much fun! She let me give her a haircut and then we glewed the hair pieces to our faces and made really realistic facial hair out of it, then we took our clothes of, put bondage tape over our nipples, dumped fake blood all over our selves, got fake swords and ran around my apartment building...

...it was so much fun. I miss her. and am said she had to move away.


it's good to have friends who are as weird as I am.

[indian~summer]

alex i know what you mean!
i've recently started hanging with a couple girls that are just as weird as i am
it's so much fun!

i confess that drinking stolen booze in front of the person i stole it from brings me joy in the pants
especially when at the end of the night said person tries to take it back and then willingly gives it to me
i have a really good mouth, for negotiating

[redyelruc]

I confess that this is always the first thread I check when I log on here.

[Dave_techie]

I wanted to quit all day at work, but am losing my resolve as I see how few jobs there are.

I am scared.

I now know I just need a part time job, I'm thinking something shitty that no one else wants. that way I can take classes. I need to start taking classes again.

[Aristartle]

I think I'm fat.

[Dave_techie]

I think I'm fat.
I don't think you are.

[mamaKCita]

i think i'm unemployable.

i'm not cool enough for the book stores. it's been too long since i worked in an office. and too old for most retailers.

[Jaitaiyai]

I dont actually lol alot on these forums. In real life I'll laugh at anything and everything, (someone said I have unaspergers because aspergers makes it harder to get jokes. I get nonexistant jokes :rolleyes: I had a reason for laughing dammit!) Annyway, I dont find it as funny. Ive never laughed much from a forum. Or a book. I giggle. A bit.. Thats about as far as it goes.

[Dave_techie]

I quit.

and, the not getting jokes thing, it sort of finessed.

[Dave_techie]

drug mule.
how do you get into that line of work?

[redyelruc]

how do you get into that line of work?
First you have to practise by shoving large objects wrapped in cellophane into your bodily cavities and seeing how long you can keep them there.

[Tree-Hugger]

I'm calling a lady tomorrow about a pt job in a bridal shop.


I hate my life. haha

[indian~summer]

i'm going to update my resume and then apply at the local dirty strip club
and i won't allow the owner to say no
i will fucking get a job!
i hope...

allison you are not fat
i think i'm fat though...

aidan i want waterfall, sex!
:biggrin:

[Tree-Hugger]

You are not fat. I think I'm the only fat ass in this thread......it irks me when skinny bitches call themselves fat.

[fitzy21]

i'm fat

[redyelruc]

i'm going to update my resume and then apply at the local dirty strip club
and i won't allow the owner to say no
i will fucking get a job!
i hope...

allison you are not fat
i think i'm fat though...

aidan i want waterfall, sex!
:biggrin:
Get your ass over here then.

I'm sure the waterfalls in Canada are fucking freezing.:eek:

[darthkacie]

I confess that part of me (some days it's smaller, some days it's bigger) has never stopped loving my first love.

I confess, too, that I have more emotions than I know what to do with.

[redyelruc]

I'm calling a lady tomorrow about a pt job in a bridal shop.


I hate my life. haha
I think I would rather be dirt-poor than have to listen to pre-wedding nerves and tantrums everyday.

[indian~summer]

i think that they would fire me cause i'd wear the wedding dresses...

out to the bar...

ps. ang i hate your sexy face you stupid whore!

pps. you're a skinny bitch, every day you get skinnier and bitchier

[indian~summer]

I confess that part of me (some days it's smaller, some days it's bigger) has never stopped loving my first love.

I confess, too, that I have more emotions than I know what to do with. not that i'm much older, but you are 18 and everyone has emotions they can't deal with at 18
and i don't think i've ever been in love..but it's a powerful thing and it's not surprise you still have lingering feelings
<hugs>



*gropes*

[indian~summer]

Get your ass over here then.

I'm sure the waterfalls in Canada are fucking freezing.:eek:
send me a plane ticket baby :wink:

[darthkacie]

not that i'm much older, but you are 18 and everyone has emotions they can't deal with at 18
and i don't think i've ever been in love..but it's a powerful thing and it's not surprise you still have lingering feelings
<hugs>



*gropes*

right on.
there are times that .. this first experience makes me wonder if I've ever really experienced anything since. but 700 miles is a long way. :]

*gropes back*

[redyelruc]

send me a plane ticket baby :wink:
HAHA! If I had that much money I'd be getting laid already.:p

[indian~summer]

good point red

i think i might have been in love... i don't remember his name, or really what he looked like...but the sex was really good, and he was from berlin

[redyelruc]

I confess. Every time I open this thread and get sent to the first page, I sigh and grind my teeth a little.

[Dave_techie]

I confess, being jobless, is less scary than it was this morning.

and that I need to rearrange the conglomeration of all of my families stuff to fit neatly into the small amount of space we have here.

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess that I really really DO NOT fancy him. ew. ewww.. ew..
Also... I forgot what I wanted to confess.. Actually there was a few things I wanted to.
I'll start of with no.1 which is, I feel so sorry for Robert. He doesn't seem so bad...

[Jaitaiyai]

Oh yeah and I confess, after you're an asshole I wont like you as much.
No matter if you were joking.

[wastingthedawn]

i'm going to update my resume and then apply at the local dirty strip club
and i won't allow the owner to say no
i will fucking get a job!
i hope...

allison you are not fat
i think i'm fat though...

aidan i want waterfall, sex!
:biggrin:


oh hun, I'm a giant supporter of you bartending the strip club- you'd make mad good tips and get to wear fun boots to work- but the Royal -ew. :P apply to the whitby sex shop- it rocks in there. other small towns's sex shops are crap in comparison to that one- it's rad in there.

[Tree-Hugger]

I think I would rather be dirt-poor than have to listen to pre-wedding nerves and tantrums everyday.


I only make $50 a week at the moment.

If I get the job, I will be able to wear all of my nicer dress clothes I bought for my teaching hours. :rolleyes:

[Tree-Hugger]

i think that they would fire me cause i'd wear the wedding dresses...

out to the bar...

ps. ang i hate your sexy face you stupid whore!

pps. you're a skinny bitch, every day you get skinnier and bitchier

I wouldn't be caught dead in a wedding dress.

My Picasso face is so sexy. :rolleyes:

:eek: I wish. I get fatter everyday.

[redyelruc]

I only make $50 a week at the moment.

If I get the job, I will be able to wear all of my nicer dress clothes I bought for my teaching hours. :rolleyes:You could try all of your nicer clothes on one night and take some photos for us here.

[mamaKCita]

GAWD dammit, yer smart.

[Allonym]

i confess i have a mouse in my house, and am waiting for my fiancee to get a trap like he said he would

[Dave_techie]

I think my brother in law, ex brother in law, and sister are all shitty parents.

[Tree-Hugger]

I'm about to go steal a cookie out of the cookie jar.

[Dave_techie]

they are your parents?



joke :)
my dad is a horrible parent too, but that's only incidentally related.

[Allonym]

one of my hands smells like ramen, but the other doesnt.
hmm.

[Dave_techie]

I was a four H kid.

[Face Eater]

I confess that I am close to becoming a resilient, action oriented, social human being that actually cares about the world, and I am terrified, and close to madness.

[Dave_techie]

I confess that I am close to becoming a resilient, action oriented, social human being that actually cares about the world, and I am terrified, and close to madness.
good luck man.

[Face Eater]

good luck man.

Thankyou, although what I really need is infinite will power and resoluteness in the face of shocking changes in the luck continuum.

Sincerely, frightened, insane and close to tears

[Jaitaiyai]

Thankyou, although what I really need is infinite will power and resoluteness in the face of shocking changes in the luck continuum.If you became dictator of the world, you'd have all the power in the world. http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/images/icons/icon14.gif


I confess, tomorrow my friend has her birthday party at the cinema, but its at night. And I don't think I'll be able to go... Another of my friends was being quite catty about it actually as I said my parents would need more notice than one day for me to go on a friday night. She was saying loads of stuff like "oh why do they need notice? .. Well, Im going." When she hasnt even asked her mum if she can go and her mums so much worse than mine. Either that or she lies. Either one is possible.

Anyway, after what happened to my brother.. I doubt I will.

[Dave_techie]

I am alienating friends by being myself.

"be yourself" is only good advice if "yourself" is someone within certain tolerances, which most people are within (thus it is good advice for most people, ergo it is "good advice" but it is not universally good advice)

[Dave_techie]

the argument that they aren't really friends only works if one can acquire friends by being oneself.

[Rudenoodle]

I have no idea how many civilian's I've killed.

j/k...

[Face Eater]

I am alienating friends by being myself.

"be yourself" is only good advice if "yourself" is someone within certain tolerances, which most people are within (thus it is good advice for most people, ergo it is "good advice" but it is not universally good advice)

I have thought of this a lot. This advice is obsolete for the majority of people with an IQ over 110.

Still, the advice "be yourself" is good advice whether it alienates people or not.

[I'minmyunderwear]

Still, the advice "be yourself" is good advice whether it alienates people or not.

i really don't know about that. ultimately, it depends on your goals, but i can't think of a single situation where being oneself is truly the best option...

[Dave_techie]

i really don't know about that. ultimately, it depends on your goals, but i can't think of a single situation where being oneself is truly the best option...
unless oneself is a sociopath

[I'minmyunderwear]

very true; there's always exceptions.

but barring extreme circumstances, i'll still stand by my initial statement.

[Face Eater]

very true; there's always exceptions.

but barring extreme circumstances, i'll still stand by my initial statement.

Why would you want to be what other people want you to be?

I agree with dave, unless you're a sociopath its fine. If you're a sociopath you need to die.

[Boogabaah]

i like to scroll to the bottom of the main page and see who's birthday it is. and a lot of the time even if i don't know them i post a

:party: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :party:

on their guestbook. :D

[I'minmyunderwear]

Why would you want to be what other people want you to be?

i wouldn't necessarily want to be, but it is very helpful if you want to have sex, make friends, keep friends, get a job, keep a job, etc.

[Jaitaiyai]

Im on my period.. Which means I'm insanely HUNGRY!

[Allonym]

im getting a cold and i hate it
i dont feel like showernig even though my hair is greasy and im going to an xmas party tonight

[Waking Life]

What's that? Leaf tickets on wendel clark banner night? Yes I do have some!

[Jaitaiyai]

I confess, all this butt kissing is starting to get to me too.
I don't want to read all these posts about how great blah-di-blah is.
They probably are, but you're fucking them up by saying it so much.

[Dave_techie]

I am beginning to feel like I am wasting my time here for the most part

I have some amazing conversations with some amazing people, and, I have grown as a human being from many of them, and I'd like to believe I have helped others in the same way.

but, I think I might need to find someplace new

the problem is, I don't want to lose any of the people I talk to here.

and I am really very worried anywhere else I go, I will just find arrogant hubric prats who are deluded with their own self importance, and are no more adult than joe bob bettin' on the ponies....

[Jaitaiyai]

I am beginning to feel like I am wasting my time here for the most partSame.

[indian~summer]

i confess that i really want to be a whiney bitch right now
but i realize how gay it is to post personal shit on this here interneting
therefore i won't
i'll just be a dick instead of a pussy and say i fucking hate everything

i'll be out back digging a hole...

[drew172]

I confess that right now, I feel like a very ugle person on the outside.

Because of that, I feel ugly on the inside.

[Face Eater]

I am beginning to feel like I am wasting my time here for the most part

I have some amazing conversations with some amazing people, and, I have grown as a human being from many of them, and I'd like to believe I have helped others in the same way.

but, I think I might need to find someplace new

the problem is, I don't want to lose any of the people I talk to here.

and I am really very worried anywhere else I go, I will just find arrogant hubric prats who are deluded with their own self importance, and are no more adult than joe bob bettin' on the ponies....

I really doubt you will find any forum like this one on the internet. The reason why you can pretty much waste hours on here at any time of the day is because its so popular. Its popular because of the people. I have never come across another forum with the same balance of cynical, sarcastic, bitterness and genuine openness and understanding . Most forums either go to one extreme or the other...one is all butterflies and love, and the other is cliquey hatred of anyone not cool enough to be part of the group. They go to both extremes here. They're generally well rounded people, people that you'd want to have on your side in real life.

If you're going to find something else, find it in real life, or if you discover a forum as good as this one let me know.

Hipgraveyards was a good forum ;) but its disappeared now. UKhippy.com is an offshoot of hipforums, and could be almost as good, but I find British people a little odd, not bad, just worlds away from me in humour and opinion.

I have the same fears as you. Hipforums is an addiction for me and I feel like the only way I can kick the habit is to just never go near the website again, but then I would be walking away from some of the most amazing people i've met, people I want to meet one day. Its a shitty dilemma.

[zilla939]

mm yes.. moderation moderation moderation

[Dave_techie]

in reality, I want to have a big multi-unit house one of these days

something built out of shipping containers, earth, all kinds of things, which lead to an incredibly structurally sound, modular (easy to expand) off grid large home.

and I want to be able to open it to people I have met here, but I don't think I'll ever have the resources to make that dream.

I am starting by looking at moving into farming (a big part of being truly off grid) I'd be free from a bullshit boss, yeah, hard work, but the freedom inherent, would be glorious.

there is a certain chaining to the ground, but that's natural, we're chained to circadian rhythms, to an extent, and that's okay, I don't think being chained to the seasons is so bad.

I think it would be awesome, if I had a family member, or friend, who I had encountered anywhere, who wanted to take a time out from their life for three months, hang out on "the farm" and that be an option, separate units so people wouldn't get in each others hair, and using things LIKE shipping containers, you could a very large, very modular structure, relatively inexpensively

it's all a pipe dream, of a lonely, insecure boy who hasn't grown up all the way, and wants to play treehouse with his friends. but, maybe someday.

it'd be cool.

[Dave_techie]

some of the people here actively disgust me.

they think they are helping others, but they are causing them harm more than they know, because they have their own problems they will not see, and will not address, because they have an easier answer than actually figuring out what is wrong, and fixing it

I have heard many terms to describe this sort of thinking, monkey rigging, jury rigging, nigger riggin', I actually think someone with racist intentions adapted nigger riggin' to monkey rigging, jury rigging sounds like something a technician, or engineer, or miner came up with.....

in any event, it's no way to deal with psychological problems, even if it's really popular


this being said, I KNOW I have problems, that's part of figuring out how to fix them, and recognizing the shit wrong with oneself is a critical part of fixing it.

[Allonym]

some of the people here actively disgust me.

they think they are helping others, but they are causing them harm more than they know, because they have their own problems they will not see, and will not address, because they have an easier answer than actually figuring out what is wrong, and fixing it

I have heard many terms to describe this sort of thinking, monkey rigging, jury rigging, nigger riggin', I actually think someone with racist intentions adapted nigger riggin' to monkey rigging, jury rigging sounds like something a technician, or engineer, or miner came up with.....

in any event, it's no way to deal with psychological problems, even if it's really popular


this being said, I KNOW I have problems, that's part of figuring out how to fix them, and recognizing the shit wrong with oneself is a critical part of fixing it.

i so agree with you on the harming when thinking theyre helping thing.... so disgustingly common here

i confess ive been a total flake on my friends lately, not following through on plans to meet up with them.... i think my cousin is pissed at me because of it, but ive just been feeling so withdrawn and antisocial lately

[Jaitaiyai]

UKhippy.com is an offshoot of hipforums, and could be almost as good, but I find British people a little odd, not bad, just worlds away from me in humour and opinion.Shuddup!! :(
I disagree with your opinion and think British people are great. :tongue:

[indian~summer]

dave in reference to you "be youself" comment
i'm pretty sure i told you to do the opposite of what you'd normally do...


i'm smiling on the outside, with buning hatred on the inside :)

[Allonym]

i begged out of going ot the gym with my gf because i was tired and lazy and wanted to play video games

[indian~summer]

i confess i want sex
right now

[Face Eater]

Shuddup!! :(
I disagree with your opinion and think British people are great. :tongue:

Don't get me wrong, I think you're great as well, really great. When I lived there I just felt different though. I felt like I didn't fit in. I could never say the right thing.

Consider that I only spent a week in the south of England and a year and a half in Yorkshire, Northumberland and Scotland, so my knowledge of brits as a whole is pretty limited.

Also remember that I am insane and I don't fit in anywhere so don't listen to me :p

[neponiatka]

i dont belong to this world
nor to any other

i am a separate world MYSELF ^)))

[redyelruc]

There seems like there is going to be a civil war here very soon, and the only reaction I can muster is slight interest as to what will happen.

[Greengirl]

i`m in love with another guy and all i wish for is to disappear for some time

[Jaitaiyai]

Don't get me wrong, I think you're great as well, really great. When I lived there I just felt different though. I felt like I didn't fit in. I could never say the right thing.

Consider that I only spent a week in the south of England and a year and a half in Yorkshire, Northumberland and Scotland, so my knowledge of brits as a whole is pretty limited.

Also remember that I am insane and I don't fit in anywhere so don't listen to me :phaha.. lol. Thanks.

I'd say a year is a pretty good inclination of a countries people but it depends who you're talking to. Chavs for example... urgh.. Yeah, if you were talking to them, no wonder. :)

Ever watched Mock The Week? Or IT Crowd? I just luurrve brit humour. :D

[Jaitaiyai]

Im going to sleep in a bit.. I feel too socially arkward to be up anymore.. :(

confession gone whine.

[Jaitaiyai]

I have another confession! I'm like a sex machine but not with sex, with confessions!! It's amazing.. Wonders of the 21st century. :D

Anyway.. I like Bon Jovi. I really really do. I have the Have A Nice Day album.

[Face Eater]

haha.. lol. Thanks.

I'd say a year is a pretty good inclination of a countries people but it depends who you're talking to. Chavs for example... urgh.. Yeah, if you were talking to them, no wonder. :)

Ever watched Mock The Week? Or IT Crowd? I just luurrve brit humour. :D

Oh shit yeah, I love the IT crowd. Peep show is one of my favouritist shows ever. Gavin and Stacey is good. Black Books....one show I really miss is the Royal Family :( I love british humour as well, and if I had met some Pirates, comedians or gypsies, I bet I would have really got along with them. Sadly, I mostly hung out with geordies and I loved them, but I just didn't feel like I belonged. I honestly don't think they could understand propa english like, which causes problems.

[Tree-Hugger]

I just poked my own fucking eye. Oww that hurts!

[indian~summer]

i confess i almost fell out of the car like half an hour ago
and i almost wish i did
it would have been even funnier than it was
especially if i had road burn on my face
fucking hilarious

also i confess that going to church does nothing for me, but make me fear bursting into flames, make me want to drink more, and make me want to corrupt church boys, that are apparently young
perfect.

[Nasty Nigel]

Jesus Christ was reincarnated in 1987 and was a childhood friend of mine, but he died in a car accident when we were 11 :auto::driving:

[indian~summer]

i do not believe you
i know that jesus was born in 1980 and he's still alive
plus his penis is very nice

[Nasty Nigel]

I know a girl who knows a girl who knows a girl, and I've heard it's not quite impressive enough to go running home to mom about, actually quite the opposite. And he most definitely died in a car accident in 1998 I am absolutely positive.

[indian~summer]

if he died when he was 11 than how does anyone know how amazing his penis was?
no seriously, he's still alive and his penis is very nice
i like to play find the erection with it

[Nasty Nigel]

He's Jesus he could get any girl he wanted to I'm sure plenty of women saw his dick when he was 11, that is... before his mother's 1991 Toyota Tercel got T-boned by a McDonald's semi-truck at an intersection, instantly killing his mother and sending him to the ICU where he died that night.

[indian~summer]

i do not believe you
and because this is my forum and my thread, i say go spread your lies elsewhere

[Dave_techie]

I've offended people I care about. and I feel remorse in regard to it.

[Dave_techie]

I objectively do not think it is possible for anyone to love me in my present form. that's why I am so desperate to change.

[indian~summer]

dave, change for yourself and your own progression as a human being
changing for others defeats this purpose



on a less philosophical note
i'm pretty drunk and just want to fuck

[Dave_techie]

dave, change for yourself and your own progression as a human being
changing for others defeats this purpose



on a less philosophical note
i'm pretty drunk and just want to fuck
I know I have a certain end point, I know what changes I need to make to get there, and I know that version of me will be much more likeable

I also know it sucks to be alone on the way there.

[indian~summer]

as much as it sucks to be alone, at the same time it's fulfilling to be by yourself

[Dave_techie]

as much as it sucks to be alone, at the same time it's fulfilling to be by yourself
not yet.

[Greengirl]

i really, truly , deeply want to fix my nose

[Jaitaiyai]

i really, truly , deeply want to fix my noseBut..But you're incredibly hot...

[Cate8]

i really, truly , deeply want to fix my nose

Aw you sitll do? Cause I have a confession. I want to fix mine too.

[Jaitaiyai]

Aw you sitll do? Cause I have a confession. I want to fix mine too.What is wrong with you people?! :toetap05:

I have a much worse nose than you guys.

[Allonym]

i really enjoy watching porn

[wastingthedawn]

i really enjoy watching porn



me too. But not as much as I used too.

[Dave_techie]

Aw you sitll do? Cause I have a confession. I want to fix mine too.
oh screw you, your nose is fine

mine is crooked and I don't even want it fxed, and you have a great nose.

[Cate8]

oh screw you, your nose is fine

mine is crooked and I don't even want it fxed, and you have a great nose.

:mad: Fine. So screw me then. :mad:
:toetap05:

[Boogabaah]

no! my feet are not cold! :rolleyes:

[Face Eater]

:mad: Fine. So screw me then. :mad:
:toetap05:

Yeah, you're an idiot. You have a perfect cute little button nose.

[Dave_techie]

:mad: Fine. So screw me then. :mad:
:toetap05:
okay, we'll need to schedule this.

[Jaitaiyai]

I just realised I find it incredibly easy to flirt talk with girls but not with guys.
Even if I find neither of them attractive.