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[SandyLee]

IM stoned of extacy sam and i dont know what write

but i need to talk to you.


this is a call out, for your help and love,
Hope your on.

[~Sam~]

I dunno, Sandy. I've never taken Ecstacy. But remember that it is a drug. It's effects will wear off, and you'll be back again. Hang in there.

In the nicest way that I can think of to tell you... I'm not a teacher or therapist. I claim no wisdom or grandiose schemes here. I merely write to share with you all the happenings of my daily struggles with life.

But if you'd like to talk with me... here, on my open forum is where it should be done. I don't do Private Messaging. What I have to say to you, or anyone else, is better said in the open, where everyone can participate.

Kay?

Sam

[SandyLee]

Sam thank you for your honesty, yyou do teach sam, just in the way you live.

Anyway this is whats going on for me, Last night i did more extacy and i realised how much i want to just Live and Feel. They are the real drugs.

but there is still this part of me that just wants take more and more.

so i am dealing with this by having this experience consciously with the intention of Breaking on through to the other side, Life.

Cheers Sam

[~Sam~]

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Break On Through To The Other Side....

Feeling... really and truly feeling everything in your immediate environs is The most important thing one can do in order to experience their own life.

How you do this, is up to you alone. However you get in touch with your surroundings, and how you use that experience to forward your personal growth... is the work of a lifetime... Yours.

Sam

[SandyLee]

Humm sam, i would like your opinion on this matter.

I dont know know weather i should just go cold turkey, or continue to expreience the drugs consciously.

LIke tonight i smoked mj and before i did i felt so full of Life and Feeling.

Then i smoked and everything just becomes meaningless.

and i hate it yet at the same time there is this part of me that wants more and more.

so what i am debating is weather or not i need a really intense experience to fully learn and complete these lessons.

or weather i should just go cold turkey.

i dont want to avoid, this part of me that craves these drugs, yet at the same time i dont wont to lie to myself and use excuses to continue using.

Im finding it really hard to trust myself with decidiing my next course of action and intention to end this once and for all.

Your thoughts and opinions would be greatly appreciated.

Cheers Sam

[~Sam~]

Shoot! I don't know what to tell you, Sandy. I imagine that if you go back and read your own thoughts again... you might find you hold your own answer.

It's not all One Way, this life we live. Sometimes you need to be sober in order to get things accomplished... Things that have meaning for you, yourself. At other times, you might want to be fucked up and continue on with the party.

I can't give you my opinion on this... the thoughts of which way you want to go with your own life lie within your little brain box. They are your key. Some of us never look for, or find that key, and the answers only become apparent after we've crossed over and have to go through our Life Review.

You're asking good questions... but, methinks that you also have equally good answers for yourself. The drug issue, is, to me, very private and kinda iffy to be discussing here. I'm neither an advocate nor a nay-sayer on this matter. The choice in my life, of whether "to do or not to do", was mine alone to make... ditto for you baby.

Sam

PS. As I said in my first reply, I'm not a teacher. Nor am I a guru of Any type. Questions about drugs really don't belong here in my personal forum. There are other forums which pander to these kinds of questions... Me? I'm a Lover of Life and a Steward of this Valley in which I live... and that's all I have to say about that.

[SandyLee]

sam i know full well the this is my desciscion to make, i wasnt asking you for the asnwer, but only your opinion and own experiences.

Maybe i should have been more specific.

And this isnt really about the drugs.

sense some unconscious patterns at platy.

if you dont want to answer the questions sam just tell me, im cool with that.


Ciao Sam