Heroin...I need help and advice

[PsychMyke]

Today is my forth day doing heroin in a row...I havent gotten dopesick yet, but im definatly hitting some sort of psychological addiciton. I bought two 20 bags yesterday, did one and planned on saving the otherone for when I trip off acid on friday.

I woke up this morning and it was like I was a fucking human magnit being drawn to the scag in my desk drawer. I couldnt stop thinking about it. It was almost like the feeling of having coke lying around...

Ive been addicting to OC's and percs...so i know being dopesick sucks balls, I'm definatly fimiliar with the sensation. I dont want to be addicted to heroin, I need some advice bad, being a slave to any substance is a horrible sensation. If I start getting dopesick tomorrow, I'm not gonna be able to trip and Im going to be pissed cause it's 4/20...Please help. I'm feelin' desperate.

Keep in mind that I havent been doing insane amounts daily, and this even though I'm not well versed with dope, I know this shit isnt of highest quality. I get wacked hard by an OC 80, they are like a dollar a mg so the dope is more of a bargain.

[ten1000whispers]

:dupe:
ready to die man? good shit

No worries bro, doin it that long, you're A-OK, you might just feel the 'want' real bad right now. Basically you gotta find a replacement in your life and mind. I found the guitar ... different case though ... I was gakked for years.

You're straight, just don't start doin a lot, then you're in trouble ... make a goal for a couple days and stay busy till then ... then you're free as the wind

:nopity: be happy man, you're cool

time to experience the learnage of control of your self ; a valuable tool in life

[PsychMyke]

thanks man, I appreciate the advice.

[Shocbomb]

Also the first few times you get a little habit its not that bad at all to kick, It fells like a cold for a day or two thats it, its after you do Herion for a long period of time and it really works its was into your body and systum.After that every time you kick gets worse then the last , after that it sucks but still managable . But when you a strung out and doing a hell of alot of bags a day and been doing it for a while the kick is just the worst feeling in the world, I mean it is pure hell ! I was more afraid of not getting my bag of dope in the morning then any thing on this earth when I was using. I am so dam glad those days are behind me now. lesson learned buy this thread don't Do dope ?

[ten1000whispers]

true, Shocbomb ... My last and worst 'drawls went down in jail ... makes me a little sick to think about it again ... awful times ... in the past, thank Allah :nopity:



you still good PsychMyke?

keep hangin ... chill with a few nice nugs or a fine lady tonight (or both), it's all good

[Shocbomb]

I miss doing dope every day, But I don't miss being sick, Its the worst !!! After whilw thats all you are trying to do is prevent yourself from getting sick. ten1000whispers I feel for you I do man I don't even want to know that it would be like kicking in jail. Hear in New York they give you Methadone in Jail if you are a herion addict/Opiate addict. its not enuff Methadone the most they will give is usally 40mg you still feel like shit but its not the full out DT's !!!!

[PsychMyke]

i havent done it ast all today, bu i dont feel any different then when I started, no dope sickness at all...im a little tired but thats a biout it...

See my problem is i cant smoke nugs, im allergic...so, it mskes it hard to keep away from the hard shit

[Fallout55]

Not to sound all anti drug and want not but your 18 man do you really want to mess with this shit now?
You should be going to college/starting a carer real soon so why fuck with something as addictive as heroin?

[PsychMyke]

im in college

[Jack_Straw2208]

Good Answer!!! =d =d =d

[Krsna Bhakti]

To each their own. If somebody wants to take the risk of a horrible debilitating sickness that comes with addiction to opiates, the only thing you can do is be there to help them. I realize not everyone has that kind of acceptance of patience, but we could all learn to sympathize and help. I myseld am trying to quit a 6 year addiction, I went back to dope for a little bit, now I have cut back down to morphine in pill form, I was injecting for a little but I have gone down to 60mg;s a day swalloed in tablet form. I know that it is disgusting to be consumed by this drug, but I dont see it as fair to look down on me or any other user for it. I dont steal to support my habit, and I dont do it when my son is in my care, and I dont allow it to interfere with my fincancial situation. I also have a very strong will and mindset, and I dont allow it to alter my mood and prevent me from spreading love and acceptance when I am going through withdrawl. I was getting horribly sick, now I just get irritated and cold like symptoms since I am on the morphine only, and while I am not claiming to be a saint, I believe that a 60mg a day habit is much better than my previous 500+ a day habit :) One day at a time, I am not depressed about life in general, but damn man I just dont seem to have it in me yet to go all the way. I hope I see the light soon and step in, I dont have anyone to support me anymore, other than the love of my son, but I think I may be able to develop a stronger character and give it all up some day. I was recently in love, but that fell horribly apart very quickly and I went back like a baby. Oh well, at least the girl didnt interfere with my son emotions.

[soaringeagle]

youve only done it alittle while & its gaining control
take control back & flush that shit
throw out any1's numvbers who uses it, dont go anywhere u know where to find it & vow to yourself never again...& you;ll be fine
if u cant do herb, maybe another herbal high like valarian would help
or just stay off everything
your 18 & already had 2 addictions?
doesnt that tell u to avoid anything addictive?

[PsychMyke]

its my personallity really...I have a very addictive personality and lifestyle...even with herbs, people say pot isnt addicting but it is, i was addicted to MDMA for some time, or heavily abusing it at least, some would say I'm addicted to LSD but i disagree, i just love it a little too much. But regardless, I just need a break from drugs as a whole, even tripping. My LSD supply is going to dry up in about a week, so i think i might take a brreak from substnces for like a month. I need some time to get my life back on track. However the break will have to wait until asfter this weekend, I'm trippin with some buddies tomorrow to celebrate 4/20.

[ten1000whispers]

well heard and well taken man

if we lived in a free country, I'd live with the poppy plants, I look at it through that view: this life, this day, this time, this society. Realized that's not what I'm for right now.

[ten1000whispers]

what s valarian?

[Krsna Bhakti]

well heard and well taken man

if we lived in a free country, I'd live with the poppy plants, I look at it through that view: this life, this day, this time, this society. Realized that's not what I'm for right now.Hey, thanks man, and I definitley agree, if we could live with poppies TOTALLY legally and have our opium, I think I could take it and leave it as I please will total comfort. But its so expensive and physically debilitating, that it has come to be viewd as being a chemical from hell, and my contacts are constantly switching so every time I get a source, I drain the hell out of it, thinking once this guy runs out/gets busted, Ill be done. Of course, they never run out, and when one goes down, 2 more spring up in their place, with better stuff lol :)