Poems 1-12

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER ONE


They all bowed down
Not to the king but to the crown
They gave all love to the heavens and none to earth

They sought in vain for things beyond their reach

And took for granted the ground beneath their feet

Forsook the gift beyond compare

In search of deathless light not theirs

And with the right kind of eyes

You can see where the hope drowned

And the dream died
The lights still fly

And the gods still cry

Western wind blows hard on Eastern skin

Food for the fire that burns for their sin

And I’m blowing away to the new day
Blown far and wide and low and high

From pillars of stone to the oceans in the sky

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER TWO

If I had to care about something
If I was going to be tied be down
You’d be the first one I’d be bound to
The first to keep me on the ground

If I tried I could be free

But that’s not what you want for me

What you want is best

I don’t care about the rest

You might be just thinking of yourself
You’ll share my love with everyone else

And if the truth may seem different you say

It just only seems to be that way

If I was going to be a slave

I wouldn’t want to work for anyone else

If I was going to hide in a cave

You know that I would only want your help

If I cared to own a phone

You know I’d give you the very first call
But seeing as things are different

I’m not going to care bout you at all

Things may once have happened in that way

But you know now we’re living in a different day

And you can’t be sad about the changes come
And you can’t be mad, you’re the only one not having fun

The glowing bull cannot hear the screams of the burning

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER THREE

Did somebody tell you your dreams are made of gold
Did somebody tell you to mine it in others’ souls

Did somebody make you cry when you were young

Are you still clenching your fists now, your pain unsung

Do you think you’re getting older but no wiser for your years

Is time stalking you like a shadow, fortifying all your fears

Are you reaching for a diamond in a tower too tall

And now you’re losing your ground and starting to fall

Tell me, do you know you’re living in a stolen home

Do you feel guilt yet? For things which you cannot atone

Do you feel any safer now that you’re buried in concrete

Did it make you feel more right, cuz you stood and dug in your feet

Did it make you happy, the money you made?

Did you buy lots of things with it did you get laid

Did you feel real good inside being a willing slave

Some real satisfaction in working without pay for day
How generous you are, giving your money away

Buying a good conscience with your charity

Are you closer to god now, or are you closer to grief?

Are you a righteous man doing all you can or are you just a thief?

Does it really make you weaker, in being wrong?

Well I know you’re a fool if you only hear one song

Is your love with your woman growing with the years?

Did you promise what you cannot control, what you feel

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER FOUR

I’ve thrown myself off the deep end
And I may never come back again

I’m just calling to say goodbye

No time to really tell you why

Lets just say things may never be as they were before

We may just learn to shit on what we formerly adored

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER FIVE

Forgo the dream of a brave new world
For the comfort of the present

I fear I may have chained myself to the key

That I thought would set me free

And now I’m dragging it along

And I can’t achieve lift off

And the words I speak in acknowledging
Are but another link in the chaining
And there can be no freedom had

And no liberation gained

But the willed ignorant pretending

For in knowing

That in knowing

We’re carrying out the function

Of the controlling

Those that think deep

Know what thought to have depth by those in shallow water

Can be touched with the feet



In the process of becoming

I forgot what is was I’m supposed to be

Spared no conscience to finally see
Confused the ends with the means

And now I’m everything that it seems

I’m no one that I was

I’m dancing above

Above and above of above

And I’m laughing for the war

And I’m laughing for the lies

And I’m laughing at your disguise

You don’t intend to wear
And I don’t intend to care

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER SIX

The truth will set you free
It hasn’t done that much for me

Instead it has imprisoned me

In a world of set standards and constants

Things were better when I was naïve

The truth was whatever I wanted it to be

Maybe I wasn’t so childish after all

If you seek pleasure and comfort my friend
Then I warn you the truth is not your end

The truth cannot set you free

The truth is not the prison key

You may learn the limits of your cell

And the lonely extremities of your hell

But you’ll be no closer to the clouds

You say truth is all that truth can be

But I don’t think you’re listening to me

Whose truth are you taught to see

While you settle for baseline reality

Peer through the cracks in the wall

It only goes to show

What people say and what they know

What people claim and what they do

Your lies always come back to you

The hourglass lying on its side

And all of time stands by

Suddenly gravity holds no sway

And all the time drifts away’

And yet I still seek the truth

I’m still seeking that old hag like a hound

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER SEVEN

I don’t know where I am

I don’t know where I was

I don’t know where I’m going

And I don’t care because

It feels good and that’s all that matters



A green cloud embraces my lungs

The breath before me coarse and crimson
I’ve wakened something deep inside

I’ve shed my old skin and I’ve

Let go of some shitty reality

I don’t care to bring up again



Swimming this mist before me

Hugging close to the ground

Doesn’t wanna come up

But doesn’t wanna settle down



I know where I am

I remembered where I was

I don’t care where I’m going

I don’t care because

I just wanna get the fuck outta this place

Make it to the clear

Climb out of this hole or maybe

Dig through to the other side



Desperate escape
Its do or die

Gotta get away

Spread my wings and fly



I want to chew you

Chew you down to the core

See what makes the beast

Struggle and rise and roar

I want to chew you

Savor your flavor and restore



I want you to numb me

Suck my senses dry

I want you to touch me

Before these barren nerves die

I want you to touch me

Touch my soul

Before its all over

Before I let go



I chased you away

Please come back to me

Surely without your light I will die

Shrivel and fall like flower

Become extinct in these black bowers

While you hide behind the eternal night

I chased you away

I never want you to leave again
You scared me so much my friend

Surely your absence was the end

You’re my one and only true friend

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER EIGHT

I’m tracking a feeling
I felt it just a moment ago
Brief and fleeting tingle

Wasn’t cold wasn’t hot

Nor something in-between
Did it hurt? I cannot tell!
It’s hard to die

Wasn’t seen or heard
I just can’t find the word
I don’t even know if I liked it

But I want to know more

What was that feeling for?

And I may never feel this way again
I know I’ve never felt this way before

I feel like a sad song that’s been going on for too long

And honest I don’t want to complain

It’s just I fear I may go insane
I must break open my own brain
It might just be the only way

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER NINE

You try to act like you’re okay
But your eyes betray

The true character of your soul

I see distress is in your mind

And I know you’re not the kind

To stand confidently in the midst

Of the war path of the tempest

And it’s so cold
Everywhere you go

And nothing anyone says or does

Will make you warm to the touch

And it’s so sad

Everything is bad

And nothing anyone says or does

Will make me care that much

You’re right to despise this world of ours’

But your pessimism doesn’t make it any more bearable

When we die

We’re gonna laugh thinking back

Such silly things dragged us down

Don’t be afraid to smile once and awhile

[Zaruthustra]

POEM NUMBER TEN

You think you’re meant for someone and only one?
Who put such crazy thoughts in your head?

If he gave you that opinion then maybe you should give him away

Ladies, ladies, ladies, you can love around ain’t nobody gonna hurt you
You can love everything and everyone in every goddamn town ain’t nobody gonna say a word to you

You have all the love and lust in all the world and for its sharing with the many not the few

With Aphrodite in the lead, please fulfill all of my needs and I promise I will do the same for you

With all the fury and the fire of a lifetime of desire this I will do

There’s no need to be ashamed it’s only nature woman

Be safe and clean and the fountain of pleasure won’t ever stop flowing

You may have skin

But do you have substance

You may taste good but will you fill me up

Or will I be hungry again in an hour

Candies and cookies are so sweet

Tastier than vegetables and whole wheat

Fill me up but tingle my tongue

I like em easy and I like em young

Flavor my food with ups and downs

Snakes and ladders tumbling to the ground

[Zaruthustra]

ELEVENTY BILLION

Can we only create, destroy, enjoy
And if all I can do is make you feel

Then all art is pornography

You’re taking a big risk living you know it’s true

When death comes a knocking what the fuck are you gonna do?

Won’t matter if you’re going 90 or praying or passed out on the floor

When your time is up it’s up and you won’t be doing any breathing anymore

[sylvanlightning]

But I don’t think you’re listening to me

Whose truth are you taught to see

While you settle for baseline reality

Peer through the cracks in the wall

It only goes to show

What people say and what they know

What people claim and what they do

Your lies always come back to you

The hourglass lying on its side

And all of time stands by

Suddenly gravity holds no sway

And all the time drifts away’

And yet I still seek the truth

I’m still seeking that old hag like a hound[/QUOTE]


You are being heard by the old hag that hounds seek, but do not find, for they do not know the scent. Thank you, for putting into words and visions, the experiences of 60 years. You are blessed and cursed, as I, but holy, among men for the acceptance and appreciation of this existence. Thank you my friend. Thank you for a blessed gift of your soul. Ansara