Kind of ranting, but I need advice too..argh.

[Atom bomb therapy]

OKay. Around the time I turned 18 (i'm almost 25 now ) I've thought about women and wondered if there was a possibility that I could be bisexual? ( I say bi because I know I am attracted to men) When I was young...like as young as 5,6,and 7 I would play "house" with the other girls at the baby sitters and we would kiss, and sometimes touch each other. I don't know if that was just being a curious child and exploring our bodies , or if it means anything. I've never been with a girl but I have a fascination with the female body and I do wonder about what it would be like to be with another woman. I've tried talking to my fiance about this but he just makes fun of it. Ugh...im confused

[erzebet1961]

What your going through happens a lot...and it doesnt mean your strange or even gay
it means that your just wondering..what happened when you were little is normal curiousity, maybe your boyfriend makes fun of it because he's a little threatened that you might enjoy a female more than him !!!

[Atom bomb therapy]

thats what im thinking. I told him about this dream I had about this beautiful woman with dark dark skin and big beautiful dreads. In the dream we had the best sex i've ever had and she made me feel more loved, happy, comforted, important, ect ect than anyone ever has...but it was just a dream. Anyways , he runs around saying "ask alicia about her black stallion". Argh, it hurts my feelings. Anyways, maybe ill continue to wonder.

Thanks mama.
Alicia

PS: I wish I had your hair.

[erzebet1961]

No problem.....I know what it feels like !!!