*ventures into the karma cafe and takes a beanbag* [Archive]

autumn_jewels

10-02-2006, 01:50 AM

oh sal, thats cruel, i was just about to log off and go to sleep, but i cant because the festival was so amazing i simply have to tell you about it :) if im late for work tomorrow im sending a big smelly pooball your way! http://www.hipforums.com/forums/images/smilies/tongue.gif

ahhh *happy sigh* it was fabulous. when i first got there i was horrified...well after being excited and smily, i arrived to find that we were going to be spending the 9 days sharing a field with more daddylonglegs than i have ever ever seen in my whole life. well as i had a phobia of the horrible flying spiders i wasnt happy. Everytime you walked on the grass a swarm of them would fly up at you all around your face and my little girl mode came out amidst squeals and whines and 'i want to go hoooooomeees'. However, as there tends to be a lot of grass in fields :p i realised i was just going to have to deal with it and settled in ok. My little tent i bought was a bargain at £12.50 made by Jeep and with just three poles and six pegs it was up in no time.

I played some great games - i recommend killer bunnies to anyone that hasnt played it. Fabulousness! I also played some game that involved building railways on a board from city to city chosen at random by cards. Probably aimed at children of around 10 but it kept us all amused and out of trouble for a while.

The first downpour of rain, I was happy to be all waterproofed up in jacket, wellies and a waterproof skirt I made 2 days beforehand. Sat under a gazebo by a fire, and then offered tea and chocolate cake. Once again, fabulousness!

I saw loads of people I havent seen in ages, did abit of juggling, spinning and mostly hung out in the Laid Back Cafe...where I spent most evenings listening to guitar music and singing along, chilling out, until 5.30 in the morning. I met some beautiful spirited people Id not met before, and some incredibally talented musicians and singers. Connected really well with some beautiful people

I came back completely refreshed, inspired and feeling creative and content, energised and motivatd and with a new hobby - contact juggling. I bought myself a lovely shiny acrylic ball which unfortnately and sadly, I tonight dropped in the road, practicing on the way to the shop (and all because the lady wanted pasta sauce) and its really chipped now. But, I have kept in touch with some new people, beautiful people, people who really made my festival and thats not happened before because Ive generally stuck with people I know so thats been really lovely.

Anyway if Im not in bed by 1 mister pheonix, Ill be tired and grumpy tomorrow (though im sneaking my acrylic ball into the shop to play when we're quiet to keep me happy).

If anyone wants to see pictures of this beautiful and funfilled event, theyre up on www.flickr.com/photos/daisylou (http://www.flickr.com/photos/daisylou)

much love and peace to you all and so lovely to be back

xxx autumn_ jewels xxx

autumn_jewels

10-02-2006, 01:53 AM

oh, and i also overcame my phobia of the flying spider...theyre not so bad. Infact, a friend taught me to see that they are infact much more funny than scary and its true, silly creatures. And when youve seen as many shagging daddylonglegs as I now have, you cannot possibly take them seriously :)

Peace-Phoenix

10-02-2006, 02:07 AM

What's killer bunnies :eek: And yes, daddy longlegs are rather silly creatures, unlike spiders who appear to be evil incarnate. Do you think you'll ever be able to get over your fear of them?

lithium

10-02-2006, 05:58 PM

What festival was it?

What are your best and worst festival experiences (ever)? What's your favourite festival?

autumn_jewels

10-02-2006, 09:26 PM

What's killer bunnies :eek: And yes, daddy longlegs are rather silly creatures, unlike spiders who appear to be evil incarnate. Do you think you'll ever be able to get over your fear of them? its a dice and card game where the aim of the game is to find the magic carrott, but in order to win, even if you have the magic carrot, you need to have a bunny, but everyone else will be trying to kill your bunnies and you are trying to kill and attack their bunnies. its easier to play than explain but its a great game. search it on ebay for better description :)

spiders...well there is a beast of a spider in my house somewhere but i couldnt kill it when i saw it so i dunno where it is now...ick, it was huge.

What festival was it?

What are your best and worst festival experiences (ever)? What's your favourite festival? Bristol Juggling & Circus Skills Festival. I havent done any big mainstream festies, just small ones, like big family tribe gatherings. Small up to 700/800 people maybe. I go to Dance Camp Wales in Pembs and the Bristol one, oh and I went to the workhouse festival near shrewsbury this year too. Dance camp and bristol are absolutely amazing. I dont really have any bad experiences...and far too many good to possibly recount. I think thats the best way :)

Hippie_Girl

10-02-2006, 11:06 PM

Ann Summers and skimpy underwear!

I too have seemed to over come my flaying daddy longlegs phobia too! Although my moth phobia is still around!

I think my friends went to the Juggling and Circus Skills Festival in Bristol too!! i had a look at your pics and they are marvelous! Looked really ace!

Where are you living now? Have you returned to the land of the sheep?

Love ya miss daisy!
xxx

autumn_jewels

10-02-2006, 11:22 PM

im living in north wales aye in a house owned by my folkes. its a temporary thing since march till they sell it but first its gettin new front an back doors and gas fitted. lookin to move to bristol mebbe in the new year coz north wales sucks monkey ass. who are your friends? might i know them?

Hippie_Girl

10-02-2006, 11:50 PM

autumn_jewels

10-04-2006, 10:14 PM

Oooo Bristol is a wonderful place! We are looking to move there too in the future! W00!
You might know them they follow juggling conventions around sometimes! My friends are Steve (Newby) and Lowri?

Is there a circus skill you don't know how to do that you would like to do?

xx
aw no i dont know them, not by name anyhows.

there are lots of circus skills im not very good at hehe, but at this years bristol i actually got off my arse an tried something new...hula hooping (jeez that hurts - i had pulled muscles an bruised ribs for a week after an hour) and contact juggling. found a use for gcse maths...i know the hula hoop came up to my lower ribs - ie circle diameter therefore (2 x pi x r) = circle circumferance and how much pipe i need to buy to make my own hoop lol. still tryin to learn five balls...i dont have a club round here tho, but bristol does when i get there. what would i like to do...hm, chinese silks (the red things on bbc they sometimes have when people roll down them).

Peace-Phoenix

10-04-2006, 10:20 PM

Apart from the circus, what do you like to spend your time doing?

autumn_jewels

10-04-2006, 10:52 PM

well i keep a diary which i enjoy writing, and i like sewing and making stuff and designing - crazeedaisy.co.uk

i spend too an awful lot of time bumming round the net, and am always listening to one variety of music or another.

im also signing up for ice skating classes

oh and i LOVE dancing

fountains of nay

10-04-2006, 11:55 PM

What inspired you to take ice skating lessons?

autumn_jewels

10-05-2006, 12:58 AM

well mam has always had torville and dean videos and i saw them when i was young in manchester. also, as a young child (4 ish) mam wanted me to skate coz we lived down the road from the altrincham ice rink but i was 4 and 'nooo mummy ill fall over and hurt myself'. hehe. i remember being in the front garden saying it to her. well, i do wish id skated now. i did gymnastics instead when we moved to wales. when we were doing gcse's me and my best mate skived the mock exam revision study leave and went skating every day and got white boots for our birthdays to save on skate hire and i loved it. ive always watched ice skating on tv, solo ice dance i prefer to partners. and i been meaning for ages to take skating up but its so expensive, like £5-8 for quarter of an hour private tuition, then i found an adult course at the local rink, £25 for 6 weeks of 2hr lessons so im finally getting round to signing up. its so elegant and can combine my love for the ice with my gymnastic spinny jumpy experience and my passion for dance.

autumn_jewels

10-07-2006, 01:17 AM

........*dingaling* the bell on the door tinkled as autumn walked into the serene karma kafe. she helped herself to a cup of tea and a couple of bourbon cream before slipping her shoes off and curling her feet under her on her favourite beanbag. she retrieved her diary from her satchel and rummaged through her bag for a biro before settling down to write. she lit a cigarette; the smoke dancing and swirling as it rose into the air.........

dear diary...

arghh. dammit. ive done it again. well im over the crush on georgina finally, after 11 months. i didnt think id get over her while i was still working there but ive done it, thanks to a rediscovery of strong feelings for joe, which was however short lived, and now i like someone else i cant have. not that if i did actually like someone i could have id deal with that very well either coz i still love joe in a way and that is always in the back of my mind. so either way im f*cked. hm anyway so yeah, bah.

and everyone else seems to be growing up and doin stuff like finishing uni getting jobs, being with long term partners, gettin engaged, buying houses etc.....me......im in a house i dont own, dont even pay rent on an couldnt afford to, i work in a job i dont like and have no partner, no particular job prospects, and hardly any money (why do bills all go out at once - bastards). im hoping to go to bristol to at least change one thing which is i hate living back where i grew up. at least ill have a city, with a juggling club and friends that i didnt go to bloody school with. part of me feels that i didnt even think of doin some of the stuff i wanna do now when i was a student, like when most people do all the fun stuff - travellings etc. a girl i kno worked in a circus last summer in between her uni terms. an i dont wanna miss out on it all coz im of that age where i shud have a proper job an settle, so i wanna do it now. but theres still this bit of me that always buggin me - youre not good enough, look at everyone else growing up an doing things properly and you you lazy unmotivated bum, wheres your direction.

an damn hormones...making me emotional and tearful enough to go and get upset over all this...

hm it must be bedtime

......she stubs out her cigarette and finishes her cup of tea. closing her diary she slips it back in her bag and uncurls her legs, stretching them out before slipping her shoes back on. swinging her bag onto her shoulder, she walks towards the door. *dingaling*......

autumn_jewels

10-09-2006, 01:24 AM

*deleted coz wasnt sposedta write that...promised wouldnt tell anyone part of what i wrote*

Peace-Phoenix

10-09-2006, 06:45 AM

*Hugs* Hope it works out ok :)

dapablo

10-09-2006, 12:31 PM

Sounds like the days are drawing in for you already my dear. Summers passed for another year and we all get didgy regarding our achievements over the past year. I call it our squirrel concept, paranoia about what we need to have ready to survive the coming winter gets a bit misplaced in our world of plenty. (Yeah I make it up as I go along). :)

Love will mark your soul lady, try and be thankful you did Love is perhaps the best approach, wear it with pride until it has no more relevance.

You love dance, any style in particular, or what style would you like to learn, I presume your usually freestyle. :)

lithium

10-09-2006, 06:26 PM

What is the largest animal you have killed?

autumn_jewels

10-09-2006, 10:04 PM

thanks dapablo :) erm yeah i dance freestyle. i did breakdance for a short while when u lived in birmingham. would love to do that again and also samba. i cant keep still once the samba beat starts up. im all-a-shakin lol :)

hm, biggest animal i ever killed was a big spider last night. usually i dont kill them, infact i dunno i ever have before, i usually trap them in something to put outside/or someone else to put outside but last night it was late and close to me on the floor an the poor thing suffered death by telephone directory :S theres still one somewhere in the house, we been happily livin together for few days but i dont like it when they run round the floor near stuff i might pick up an freak out

autumn_jewels

10-10-2006, 01:01 AM

ive fallen apart tonight for first time in ages...next door heard my cries and came round. how is it that in the last 4-5 years, i fell in love with a girl an dealt with that, i then dealt with fact she was seeing my friend and hadta sort out their rifts and watch them snog an cuddle, then they broke up and she told me that she was transexual and really a man, which with time i dealt with and then we got together...there were bad times and amazingly amazing times, and we broke up and got together and broke up nad got together...then in the last year i spent 11 months fancying a woman in her 50s, my old boss, whose son is older than my ex...i pulled a married (but seperated) man, two of my sisters exs from when she was younger (she was 12 and younger when she dated them) and a friend from work, was offered a threesome which i rejected and then i get over older woman..and all this time deep down still love my ex....who is also now fucked up fancying someone he cant have...which is fucking me up coz i know the feelings he's feeling coz i felt them for my older woman, only i never told him till it was passed...he told me now coz we had a very honest convo, first one since we split a year ago, an he still loves me too, cept we're completely incompatible an want completely different things, an i cant deal with him likin someone else, even tho i have spent last year in same boat...coz i love him too

dapablo

10-10-2006, 10:43 AM

Dear god lady what a crazy web you weave, I can send my compassion, a hug and a prayer for the easement of your heart but most of that blows my mind.

lithium

10-10-2006, 10:51 AM

Have you ever thought of going on Jerry Springer?
(tasteless joke, sorryhttp://www.hipforums.com/forums/images/smilies/tongue.gif)

Have you ever been on TV? Would you like to be?

Hippie_Girl

10-10-2006, 02:45 PM

Aww my little Daisy Lou!!! MWAH and HUGE HUGS you way lady!!! MWAH!!!!

xxxxxxxxx

autumn_jewels

10-10-2006, 09:51 PM

aw thanks everyone for your messages. im feelin bit better now. dealing with life again. just had a really bad one last night.

in response to lithiums question: i have been on tv a couple of times, nothing major though. ive done some tv extra work on a welsh show, 'dancing at a gig' type thing, and ive been on midlands today, spinning poi at birmingham arts fest, and i was on tele somewhere in the north west doing poi and stilts at the grand national. id like to do more tv stuff. my friend has been doing abit of tv stuff lately and can be seen tonight on E4 at 10.30 unicycling on russel brands issues programme.

Peace-Phoenix

10-11-2006, 05:59 AM

If you could be famous, would you? And if so, what for?

autumn_jewels

10-12-2006, 03:50 AM

to my dear flyology...i have just got in from a night out. i almost got the bus home but i couldnt face it and turned to alcohol. tonight i found out my mates mum who i knew coz she shopped where i work quite a bit, committed suicide in august. she talked to me for ages about her life an told me she was suicidal a few months ago. well she did it. she shot herself :( and then i had a missed call an my fone battery was dead so i borrowed someone i didnt know's fone and called my mum, and my cousin has skin cancer. and all i knew was i needed joe and i couldnt call him coz no battery and he likes someone else, even tho he still loves me :( i spent alot of tonight in a nightclub toilets :( :( gunna speak to him tomorrow tho...

re: pheonix Q - i wouldnt wanna be famous coz of pressure, an past eating troubles...would trigger them again, but as a friend of mine once said, its always nice to be well known!

Peace-Phoenix

10-12-2006, 04:43 AM

*More hugs* I can't begin to imagine how bad you must be feeling today, but I hope your cousin will be ok, and that you can be there for your friend.

autumn_jewels

11-16-2006, 01:25 AM

hi :) well amidst the utter shite happening everywhere...one piece of good news...my cousins surgery seems to have removed her cancer!! so thats great news!

also i wrote a letter into work about health & safety in my department and they were jumping to sort it out so had a really positive response to that so work isnt as awful as it was either.

also managing to get back on top of housework and life in general. house is tidy and clean and am cooking again instead of living off takeaway.

just reread through all this and realised i wrote about pulling 2 of my sisters exs and said 12 and younger...that was how old she was when she went out with them...not how old they are - god i hadnt realised how that read!!! shit! lol. hehe. i pulled one of them again on saturday. he moved to spain for the summer but bumped into him on saturday night.

currently have a cold which is crappy. have sneezed more today that in the last year i think. never had a sneezy cold before... however, feelin better for a radox bath.

Peace-Phoenix

11-16-2006, 08:14 PM

Glad your cousin is ok. Shame about the cold. When you get ill, what do you tend to do to make yourself feel better?

autumn_jewels

11-16-2006, 09:43 PM

dapablo

11-17-2006, 03:52 PM

"oooh hot baths"

salts, oils or bubbles ? and do you enjoy company there also ?

Sea Breeze

11-18-2006, 01:41 PM

well normally i eat garlic every day anyway but ive been slack last few months living off takeaway, so ive been consuming muchous garlic to boost my immune system...also hot water bottles (it goes to work with me and everything) and paracetamol...dont buy flu meds because theyre just an expensive marketing product...their base and active ingredient is just paracetamol which is much cheaper in its simple form. also been eating more veges and nuts for protein

ooh and hot baths...nice hot yummy baths
Greatessential oils for colds: Sandalwood ( a drop) massaged gently into glands on throat and niaouli, peppermint or rosemary - a couple of drops on a tissue and inhale, cupping tissue in your hands. Don't dump the tissue - use it from time to time to inhale and remember not to blow your nose on it!! Oils keep for a while and have other uses so they are an investment. Make sure you get a theraputic quality oil. Peppermint and Lavender in a bath oil dilution ratio help ease congestion and achy muscles.

Grated ginger in boiling water, leave to steep for a couple of minutes and add honey (unless you are vegan) and drink.
Hope you're feeling better soon!!

autumn_jewels

11-18-2006, 07:31 PM

aw thankyou for your advice seabreeze, thats very kind of you!

Peace-Phoenix

11-23-2006, 05:43 AM

Greatessential oils for colds: Sandalwood ( a drop) massaged gently into glands on throat and niaouli, peppermint or rosemary - a couple of drops on a tissue and inhale, cupping tissue in your hands. Don't dump the tissue - use it from time to time to inhale and remember not to blow your nose on it!! Oils keep for a while and have other uses so they are an investment. Make sure you get a theraputic quality oil. Peppermint and Lavender in a bath oil dilution ratio help ease congestion and achy muscles.

Grated ginger in boiling water, leave to steep for a couple of minutes and add honey (unless you are vegan) and drink.
Hope you're feeling better soon!!
Do vegans really not eat honey? I wouldn't have imagined keeping bees to make honey is particularly cruel?

Peace-Phoenix

11-23-2006, 05:43 AM

What's the most extreme thing you've ever done?

autumn_jewels

12-02-2006, 01:48 PM

oooo difficult question PP. Im not sure ive done anything very *extreme*. I am rather a sensible person, who plays more by caution than risk. I am also generally for an easy life so am quite happy not doing extreme things hehe. I dont think my extremes are really very extreme at all. I have never jumped from a plane, or deep sea dived. I sent a valentines card to the 50ish year old straight woman i had a crush on at work last year...but thats not exactly extreme, a little daring maybe considering the potential to be found out...which i luckily wasnt...ive walked a high tight wire...but that doesnt really count as extreme. Ive done some crazy double somersaults in gymnastics back in the day, some of which resulted in landing on my head - owch. And as far as ice skating is going im not letting my lack of knowledge of moves prevent me from just trying them, also resulting in pain, but its fun. Hm all in all I dont think Im very extreme at all, except in the emotional sense...in that when Im happy you wont keep me still, Im like a kangaroo on duracell, and if im down ill live in weeks worth of mess. Tho, to everyone I know Im extreme by personality, the one everyone expects to behave silly and do random stupid things which make them laugh.

fountains of nay

12-03-2006, 06:56 PM

If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you travel to?

autumn_jewels

02-13-2007, 01:37 AM

well the places i would love to see and the places i dare venture are highly dependant on my irrational fear of bugs. if i was fearless i would say latin america, india, australia, new zealand and thailand. but we shall hafta see where i end up if i indeed end up going at all. i have no idea what causes my fear of bugs as i feel that question about to be asked, they just terrify me. see a nice butterfly i find lovely, on a summers day, dancing about my garden, but creepy crawlies and then larger animals terrify me. i was very proud of my achievement in overcoming my complete fear of the daddylonglegs at the last bristol circus festival, though i wouldnt have survived the festival if i had remained fearful, they were out in swarms, in their thousands. oh and once, a woodlouse had baby lice all over my sunbathing mat - oh it was foul. one minute im lying in the sun barely clothed enjoying the weather when i find a stray woodlouse crawling across my tummy, so not 'too' fussed i flick it away when suddenly on my blanket out come all these little clear lice....well i showered and showered and showered and still felt disgusted. yes, bugs really are vile!

Peace-Phoenix

02-17-2007, 09:54 PM

Where is the furthest from home you've been? Did you miss home?

autumn_jewels

02-17-2007, 11:12 PM

hm...greece i would say and finland.

athens 2004 when i went away with joe and our friend to perform for the christmas festivities. and we only briefly missed home on christmas day but spent a glorious day together walking around athens in sunshine in calm.

finland was away for the day when we went to lapland just before christmas this year, myself, my sister and my nephew. again was too cool to miss home, though i was a moody bitch once i got tired and the plane didnt leave finland for about 2hrs or so after it was due to, and i was starving

autumn_jewels

02-17-2007, 11:13 PM

besides which, i never miss home ;) im usually trying to find as many ways to get away from home as possible an go other places :)

Peace-Phoenix

02-22-2007, 08:00 AM

Would you like to be a child again?

autumn_jewels

02-23-2007, 02:50 AM

sallllllllllllllll, you always throw these questions at me just when im heading for bed, you pooball you

yes i would love to be a child again; well maybe not a child, but of student age, tho it would be nice to be back in a time when your biggest problem was that you couldnt find the toy you wanted to play with.

i hate this growing up rubbish, noone told me this was part of the deal, i certainly dont like it. always working, always tired, determined to still have fun and go places so mostly skint too. looking for jobs is rubbish, applying for them is even worse, rejection letter after rejection letter. getting stuck in a rut, losing sense of direction/identity/self. crushes/love/passing fancies all headconfusing. it was nice when it was just me, learning and playing and partying, irresponsible, carefree.

yeah growing up terrifies me, especially the thought of being old.

lithium

02-23-2007, 02:57 AM

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Yay Finland! What did you think of Finland? What did you do? Did you really go to Lapland and come back in one day?:eek:

autumn_jewels

02-24-2007, 12:45 AM

yea we did :) was a long day for sure. it was cool, bizarre because of lack of daylight. time felt different because of the lack of daylight so keeping track of time was an odd experience. it was worth it though. my nephews face when he met father christmas :) you go on like a powerski pulled sledge covered in deer hides along this field, and through some woodland (christmas trees) and then come to a stop at the bottom of a little path, lit by lanterns with mini christmas trees growing and you walk up and there is an elf outside 'santas house' and an open wood fire. you go in and father christmas is there, and they radio through the childs name while youre on the sleigh so he greets the children by name and reads through their list of presents that they take with them. it was so lovely how they did it. my nephew was totally made up! and we went on a reindeer sleigh ride, went toboganning, and he and my sister went on a husky sleigh ride while i kept our place in the queue for father christmas. coming back the plane had to be de-iced and transfers didnt get people to airport with enough time to get on plane so were massively delayed getting back into manchester. worth it though!

Peace-Phoenix

03-04-2007, 10:36 PM

At what age would you think it'd be ideal to shuffle off the mortal coil? Is it better to burn out, than to fade away?

autumn_jewels

05-25-2007, 11:28 PM

not ignoring your question sal, no actually i am, for now anyway, coz i cant be bothered thinking quite what i think about it :)

however, i do want to write here today after a lovely day.

i had my first solo drive to my friends house in denbigh, when i got their my legs were bit shaky. i kept just looking at my car thinking 'i drove here!!'

when i got their my friend ellie was in, so we chatted and caught up, then her mam, my friend cate got home and ive not seen her since last august i dont think.

then we had 'our christmas' and finally exchanged presents and we all had really nice things :)

then me and cate went to school to pick the two younger children up and ellies brother has always been like 'oh noooooo, not daisylou!!!' and today for the first time ever he said 'hello daisylou!' and it made my day :)

went back to their house and it is sooo fabulous! then we took their labrador puppy for a walk down the road to a lovely path down through some woods to a small river and on through a meadow of long grasses. the little uns (six and seven yrs old) played hide and seek, lying down hidden in he grass and then afterwards, went back to their house and cates hubby was home.

he made a shopping list for dinner and ellie went with him to the supermarket and me cate and charlotte went into the next field down in the trees to collect firewood and made a log fire at the bottom of the garden.

then mark cooked us all curry and naans and we sat eating and laughing by the fire..the young uns setting fire to long sticks and running round the garden 'making big smoke' hehe and then they were setting fire to a bale of hay,and pouring water on it, then setting fire to it, and pouring water on it. was funny.

then after a lovely day, i drove home again :)

and tomorrow im driving back up after being invited to someones 50th in brecon. so may be driving to brecon and camping there tomorrow night so got the car packed up and hafta go to supermarket in morning to grab something to make my 'food contribution' for the evening.