myself
09-27-2006, 10:59 AM
My mind becomes a blank
I feel but I can’t name my feelings
I cannot put what I feel into words
Wondering whether I truly exist or not
Not feeling distinct but only a blur
Not enough contoured
Not enough coloured
A voice getting weaker and weaker
A personality becoming more and more insecure
My energy fading away
My thoughts losing themselves
And mixing up in my mind
Thinking yet failing to grasp out any one of my thoughts
Sometimes too tired to think at all
Bumping into the heavy words written on the page
My mind falling asleep while reading
Not able enough to concentrate
My mind fleeing to some distant realms
Wishing I could sleep and rest
And stop thinking
Wishing to stop time and to pause
Life for a while
Yet living still
Just going for a little sleep
Only to feel more refreshed
To think clearly again
To be able to name my feelings
I feel but I can’t name my feelings
I cannot put what I feel into words
Wondering whether I truly exist or not
Not feeling distinct but only a blur
Not enough contoured
Not enough coloured
A voice getting weaker and weaker
A personality becoming more and more insecure
My energy fading away
My thoughts losing themselves
And mixing up in my mind
Thinking yet failing to grasp out any one of my thoughts
Sometimes too tired to think at all
Bumping into the heavy words written on the page
My mind falling asleep while reading
Not able enough to concentrate
My mind fleeing to some distant realms
Wishing I could sleep and rest
And stop thinking
Wishing to stop time and to pause
Life for a while
Yet living still
Just going for a little sleep
Only to feel more refreshed
To think clearly again
To be able to name my feelings