Introduce yourself!

[Samhain]

what brings you here?
peace
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[CrucifiedDreams]

*Introduces self* Gender is something I have always been very much so interested in. So that is why I am here, just to hear others stories, and educate myself more.
Good on ya for making this forum too. :) I hope it's helpful for people who are transexual
or Transgender to have a place where they can be comfortable and have acceptance and to help those who are curious or don't understand it become more educated.

[Samhain]

*Introduces self* Gender is something I have always been very much so interested in. So that is why I am here, just to hear others stories, and educate myself more.
Good on ya for making this forum too. :) I hope it's helpful for people who are transexual
or Transgender to have a place where they can be comefortable and have acceptance and to help those who are curious or don't understand it become more educated.
welcome, you seem to be becoming a friend of mine on here, which makes me glad!
do feel free to make new threads and add to the ones we have already got!
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[CrucifiedDreams]

Thanks. :)

[Samhain]

Hi I am Samhain
I co-moderate this forum with my friend erzebet1961, I am a gay man however I do consider myself to be on the transgender continuum (see this thread for definations http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?t=188579) in that I consider my gender to be more female than male, although I am happy with the male body I have and wouldn't want to change it, the clothes I wear tend to be very feminine as is the way my personnality works, I can only really have a relationship with a man that is attracted to both men and women (in a long term relationship with a bisexual) because most gay men see that there is so much to me that isn't just feminine but very female.
my pic if anyones interested
http://www.hipgallery.com/photopost2/data/1837/Peter-hippy.jpg

I started this forum as I am mod of the gay site, and while transexual people are as welcome to post in there as anyone else I did think that there was a gap, where transexual and transgender people and anyone else who is interested can have a safe place to be and discuss.
so now we have one and what we make of it is entirley up to us!
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[Kimmu]

Hello!
I just registered here because I was looking through the net for some international gay forums.
I live in Sweden, and I'm a 19 years old transgender person.
Since November last year I have called myself transgender, but I haven't really found the right words for the "exact" transgender definition on me yet.

But to make things short, I just read Samhain's post right over me here, and I found THAT is what I am, but opposite.
I was born female but tend to feel more male, and I dress mostly unisex... I consider myself homosexual, because I like boys, but to me, if I'm gonna have a relationship with them, they should be bisexual, so that they can like both sides of me.

I have no intention of getting surgery or anything like that, all the changes I would possibly make on my body and mind I want to be natural, like training in all the ways, and dressing, hairstyle, and such.

In Sweden, where I live, there are a couple of open good forums for transgender people, but I want to make contact with other TG in other countries, to hear stories and get a view on how TG people live in different parts of the world. Gender issues have startet to interest me a lot, and this autumn I'm gonna read a 5 week long course in university taking up a lot of gender perspectives in human nature and such...

Hope to find some friends here and have a nice time with ye all..

Love and peace
Kimmu

[Samhain]

Hello!
I just registered here because I was looking through the net for some international gay forums.
I live in Sweden, and I'm a 19 years old transgender person.
Since November last year I have called myself transgender, but I haven't really found the right words for the "exact" transgender definition on me yet.

But to make things short, I just read Samhain's post right over me here, and I found THAT is what I am, but opposite.
I was born female but tend to feel more male, and I dress mostly unisex... I consider myself homosexual, because I like boys, but to me, if I'm gonna have a relationship with them, they should be bisexual, so that they can like both sides of me.

I have no intention of getting surgery or anything like that, all the changes I would possibly make on my body and mind I want to be natural, like training in all the ways, and dressing, hairstyle, and such.

In Sweden, where I live, there are a couple of open good forums for transgender people, but I want to make contact with other TG in other countries, to hear stories and get a view on how TG people live in different parts of the world. Gender issues have startet to interest me a lot, and this autumn I'm gonna read a 5 week long course in university taking up a lot of gender perspectives in human nature and such...

Hope to find some friends here and have a nice time with ye all..

Love and peace
Kimmu
your very welcome here, please feel free to post and start new threads!
also maybe you would like to read my defination thread in here, for more imformation
again welcome
S

[erzebet1961]

Greetings, I am erzebet,co- moderator with Samhain, I am a Bi- sexual female and mother to 4 grown children , the youngest , a son, is also bi- sexual , so,I pretty much see all sides of the gay issue, from my own point of view and that of a parent .
I will do my best to keep the hate mongers out, and allow you all a safe place to talk.

peace

[honeyhannah]

I am not transgender or transexual, just a supporter. One of my best friends as a teenager, was I suppose describing himself in the way that Samhain has. However we were in high school in GA and there were things to be hidden. I think he was very brave with what he did show, he would wear make up and talk openly about the things he was interested in, he did not hide that, but he was developing and careful because he was picked on. He did not live with his parents, but a cousin and moved a lot b/c of lack of family support. He was very fun and caring, but also tortured inside, one day he moved and I never heard from him again and I was always worried about him. I always imagined if I saw him again, I might not recognize him because he would look a lot more like a woman than he did when I knew him.

He was a great friend, and I miss him and hope he's okay. I definately didn't let people pick on him when I was around, but I know it was very difficult for him. I just want more people to understand and be supportive.

[Samhain]

I am not transgender or transexual, just a supporter. One of my best friends as a teenager, was I suppose describing himself in the way that Samhain has. However we were in high school in GA and there were things to be hidden. I think he was very brave with what he did show, he would wear make up and talk openly about the things he was interested in, he did not hide that, but he was developing and careful because he was picked on. He did not live with his parents, but a cousin and moved a lot b/c of lack of family support. He was very fun and caring, but also tortured inside, one day he moved and I never heard from him again and I was always worried about him. I always imagined if I saw him again, I might not recognize him because he would look a lot more like a woman than he did when I knew him.

He was a great friend, and I miss him and hope he's okay. I definately didn't let people pick on him when I was around, but I know it was very difficult for him. I just want more people to understand and be supportive.
I think so far about 99% of people posting are are not transexual and I think thats great, because if this forum does nothing else it will be a good resource for people to learn more about (this still misunderstood) topic and how we can provide support for people we know who are transexual and transgendered.
anyway welcome here honeyhannah, I look forward to reading your posts!
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[hippychickmommy]

I'm not transgender/transexual, but I am supportive of those whom are. Just stopping by to wish Sam blessings for his new forum! Good luck, and much love!

{{{Hugs}}}

[Samhain]

I'm not transgender/transexual, but I am supportive of those whom are. Just stopping by to wish Sam blessings for his new forum! Good luck, and much love!

{{{Hugs}}}
thanks and this is also run by a very nice lady erzebet1961, you two have loads in common, I think you'd get on great!
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[hippychickmommy]

Oh, sorry for missing props to you as well erzebet1961!

Hi! I hope to get to know more of you in the future! http://www.hipforums.com/forums/images/smilies/smile.gif

{{{Hugs}}}

[Adamness]

Hey, I'm Adam. I'm a 19 year old transguy from Maryland, living in Brooklyn, NY now. Pre-everything, but I came out and transitioned to living completely as a guy when I was 15 or so. Some people at work know, as do some of my friends, but I'm not out to everybody- not because I'd expect bad reactions, but because it's not something that needs to come up. I'm sorta an activisty type, but I havent been as into queer rights lately as I used to be.

[Samhain]

Hey, I'm Adam. I'm a 19 year old transguy from Maryland, living in Brooklyn, NY now. Pre-everything, but I came out and transitioned to living completely as a guy when I was 15 or so. Some people at work know, as do some of my friends, but I'm not out to everybody- not because I'd expect bad reactions, but because it's not something that needs to come up. I'm sorta an activisty type, but I havent been as into queer rights lately as I used to be.
welcome and I'd love you to share your experinces on here Adam if you would like too
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[Bunbury]

Greetings.

I'm an F to M (ie. birth sex female, birth gender male). My explanation has always been that on the day I was created, the angels spilt coffee on the computer. :p

Good idea, opening this forum. Nice one you two. :)

Peace,

Bunbury.

[erzebet1961]

Hi Hippymommy, I have admired your posts from the first time I came on the forums..you have such a sweet heart and a human kindness that I admire and I am verry happy to see you on here ...we can use your insight !!!

love ya

erzebet

[Samhain]

Greetings.

I'm an F to M (ie. birth sex female, birth gender male). My explanation has always been that on the day I was created, the angels spilt coffee on the computer. :p

Good idea, opening this forum. Nice one you two. :)

Peace,

Bunbury.
welcome!
S

[PatchWorkKid]

I like dressing like a tomboy, and occasionally have thoughts of being a guy, but i am not a trensgender. I am hear to listen.

[Samhain]

I like dressing like a tomboy, and occasionally have thoughts of being a guy, but i am not a trensgender. I am hear to listen.
and maybe a few wise words too when the mood takes you?
welcome!
S

[mynameiskc]

hey all. i'm mostly just a long smear on the sexuality scale. i pretty much dig everyone and love the love. i'm not so much about who, more about why and how. the feelings, the souls, the respect and giving of love. i'm not at all conflicted, though. i just am who i am. i wouldn't really call that anything, though. i dress female, identify more male, with frequent feelings of betrayal by my body.

[Samhain]

hey all. i'm mostly just a long smear on the sexuality scale.
LoL I love it!!!
S

[mynameiskc]

my husband likes to say that he was lucky enough to marry a man with female equipment. though about once a month i get really infuriated at my body. i don't mind the bleeding so much as the complete loss of my ability to reason without emotion kicking my ass. i'm like an outside observer in my own body.

[Samhain]

my husband likes to say that he was lucky enough to marry a man with female equipment. though about once a month i get really infuriated at my body. i don't mind the bleeding so much as the complete loss of my ability to reason without emotion kicking my ass. i'm like an outside observer in my own body.
is hubby a bit bi, or is it more like he feels is has a male friend
S
P.S I'm thinking now of doing another thread on here watch this space! from your last post

[mynameiskc]

more like a male friend, a buddy. he feels no stirrings over he male form, though he's pretty comfortable with the whole thing. his aunt is gay, and his mother is bi, and like chris rock says, everyone has at least a gay cousin.

[Snowdancer]

Hi;
I'm a transgendered person. That is, I was born male but came to realize that I am really female. Swamhain asked me to join this fine forum I suspect because zi knew this.

I'm here to do what I usually do. Read other's opinions, give a few of my own. Maybe help someone thats dealing with an issue. It's part of my nurturing nature to try to help, sorry folks. :)

In November I will have been living female for two years. I have been on HRT for I belive 5 months now & my body is finally starting to catch up with my spirits. I believe as my native ancestors did that t-people have two spirits.
My yin is very dormant now.

My name was legally changed 15 August it to now matches.
I'm bi & have 3 kids. one of my soms has married a bi lady. They have 2 lovely daughters. Their son went to he nexty life SIDS.
My daughter is 7 & lives with me half time.

[Samhain]

Hi;
I'm a transgendered person. That is, I was born male but came to realize that I am really female. Swamhain asked me to join this fine forum I suspect because zi knew this.

I'm here to do what I usually do. Read other's opinions, give a few of my own. Maybe help someone thats dealing with an issue. It's part of my nurturing nature to try to help, sorry folks. :)

In November I will have been living female for two years. I have been on HRT for I belive 5 months now & my body is finally starting to catch up with my spirits. I believe as my native ancestors did that t-people have two spirits.
My yin is very dormant now.

My name was legally changed 15 August it to now matches.
I'm bi & have 3 kids. one of my soms has married a bi lady. They have 2 lovely daughters. Their son went to he nexty life SIDS.
My daughter is 7 & lives with me half time.
you are welcome here!
I have a friend who lives in the UK who has gone through, is going through something evry similar to you, if you get the time or the inclination, perhaps you would like to start a thread about your story, I think it could really help others
blessings
S

[erzebet1961]

Welcome, all of you wonderful souls..I hope you will feel at home here !!

[kolyexbeatdown]

http://i11.tinypic.com/2u977s3.jpg

hello my name is kolye i am 18 years old and i am finally the woman ive

always wanted to be. im looking for other transexual friends and possibly one

or more sexual partners.
hope to hear from you soon ;]
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(edited by Samhain, myspace link taken out)

[Samhain]

http://i11.tinypic.com/2u977s3.jpg

hello my name is kolye i am 18 years old and i am finally the woman ive

always wanted to be. im looking for other transexual friends and possibly one

or more sexual partners.
hope to hear from you soon ;]
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(edited by Samhain, myspace link taken out)
hi congrats on finally becoming the woman you've always wanted to be, unfortuantly this is a discussion forum, not a dating forum, so outside links on posts like emails or myspace are taken out, if they are just a tool to try and get in touch with more people.
that being said you can always tell us a bit more about yourself and your life journey, if anyones interested in getting to know you further they can Pm you and you can swap details by doing that
S

[Karissa_SC]

Hi Folks!

My name is Karissa and I'm a 52yo MTF preop TS. I'm a writer, photographer, musician and teacher and I live in the boonies in South Carolina.

I look forward to getting to know you and having a chance to discuss not only gender issues but all the other fun stuff dealt with here.

[Samhain]

Hi Folks!

My name is Karissa and I'm a 52yo MTF preop TS. I'm a writer, photographer, musician and teacher and I live in the boonies in South Carolina.

I look forward to getting to know you and having a chance to discuss not only gender issues but all the other fun stuff dealt with here.
oh welcome, do jump right in and start posting its been a it queit here of late!
S

[Bunbury]

Welcome, Karissa! :D

Samhain's right, it has been quiet. Must do something about that.

[Samhain]

Welcome, Karissa! :D

Samhain's right, it has been quiet. Must do something about that.
I've been resisting PMing you asking you to pop in, didn't want you to think me bossy, but actually you probably thought that a long time ago eh??
S

[Karissa_SC]

Silence has an odd way of disappearing wherever I go.


LOL.

[Bunbury]

Silence has an odd way of disappearing wherever I go.
Heehee, I think you'll fit in very well here. :D

[Sarah G]

hey everyone i am a transvestite and im new here just thought id say hey, if you wanna say hey or are ever in the philly area and are looking for some fun,
thanks

http://a697.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/68/l_a9ff45c32098650779aef5179d57b0c8.jpg

[Samhain]

hey everyone i am a transvestite and im new here just thought id say hey, if you wanna say hey or are ever in the philly area and are looking for some fun,

thanks

http://a697.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/68/l_a9ff45c32098650779aef5179d57b0c8.jpg
hi Sarah
sorry no email addys on threads, when you get too 100 posts you can post a thread in the personnals forum in here and that can include your email.
enjoy the forums
S

[hardD]

hii

[ava_elise]

Hi, my name is Ava and i'm a 17 year old MTF preop. from Oklahoma. I love photography, and music and art. I've just recently started coming out with my real gender, and so far everyone has been really supportive.
I just thought I'd join here for advice, and general conversation.

[Samhain]

Hi, my name is Ava and i'm a 17 year old MTF preop. from Oklahoma. I love photography, and music and art. I've just recently started coming out with my real gender, and so far everyone has been really supportive.
I just thought I'd join here for advice, and general conversation.
Hi and welcome!
S

[JAMESiE_PiE]

I'm James, and I live in Michigan. I'm fifteen years old, and I've always felt that I was more of a guy then anything else...that's to say, I didn't really fit in with the girls. Sortive like I was on the outside looking in on them. I'm not really sure what to call myself yet. I don't really like the idea of calling myself "transexual" or "transgendered", because in my mind, I'm already a guy. My body just isn't following suit...
Um, some random stuff about me...
I have an androgynous-ish girlfriend that I met on a glbt forum.
My favorite color is purple.
I'm a vegan.
I'm an atheist.
I love playing the violin and piano.
I'm in the advanced choir at my highschool.
I have asthma.
My favorite movie is Jurassic Park.
And I'm very excited to meet people who feel the same as I do about their gender!

[NorthernLytes]

just wondering if there are any transpeople in south jersey? Sometimes i feel like im the only one. PM is u wanna talk.

[jol1601]

Hi.... This is the first kind of forum where you hasnt be 18 years to go on it...
lets introduce myself.. i am Jolien,17 years transgender badly enough ..; i'm now taking my androcure and in the mont of februari i possibly have my hormones...
Myself cant accept it entirely, but i made the choice to go on with it.. couse i have to..
otherwise i end dead.
I still have 1 year to go to school as a boy and after that i can leave my past behind.
I hate transvestites and shemales.... nothing personal but.. they made everyone on scvhool think i'm gay or a transvestite that acts like a shemale of a sexsite...
Ihope this is a good forum and not for sex things... :s
I hope that i will make many friends here and have help on things that confuse me..
and that i will survive school couse i wil have to destroy my male character that i use as a defend shield... That i used for years..; i'm a little affraid of it , couse by my hormones i get, i will get me real me, out of my walled prison i made for being safe..
and that people dont going to bullying me again...
as i said, i still are scared for wats going to happen to me... but i have no choice, its that or falling into a depression... i wish i was never born.. , but i will try and go trough it... after all its for a period tuff but after, i can be myself without a "thing" ;... i can finally be happy than...:)
ps: i live in belgium lol dont look fr it on the map couse you wont find it:p its too small.
and also like others.. i think 'im the only transgende that is in belgium , makes me feel bad...
also.. like james i dont like the word transsexual or transgender.... with thesame reason, those words sounds like a curse, a desease for me..

xxx a shy girl :$

[Wombat Boi]

New to this forum. Thought I'd say hello.

I'm a FTM transsexual guy. I identify completely 100 percent as male. I also happen to be gay.

I don't know a great deal of other trans people my age (I'll be 17 on the 30th of this month). Figured this would be a great way to connect with some people.

[Samhain]

New to this forum. Thought I'd say hello.

I'm a FTM transsexual guy. I identify completely 100 percent as male. I also happen to be gay.

I don't know a great deal of other trans people my age (I'll be 17 on the 30th of this month). Figured this would be a great way to connect with some people.
welcome!

[Invisible Soul]

I don't really like the idea of calling myself "transexual" or "transgendered", because in my mind, I'm already a guy. My body just isn't following suit...I feel just the same. I will not refer to myself as either of those terms. "Trans" means to change. How can you become something you feel you already are?

Those labels are really just there for people who have trouble identifying people with gender dysphoria with the gender they see themselves as. (Which is most people)

[Envy]

I feel the same way... I don't want to be a trans anything... I'm a girl, and that's that!

[Invisible Soul]

I'm a girl, and that's that!
.

[Cinmaya]

Hey all. I haven't read through this entire thread yet, and I am compelled to post after reading Snowdancer's response here:



Hi;

I'm a transgendered person. That is, I was born male but came to realize that I am really female. Swamhain asked me to join this fine forum I suspect because zi knew this.

I'm here to do what I usually do. Read other's opinions, give a few of my own. Maybe help someone thats dealing with an issue. It's part of my nurturing nature to try to help, sorry folks. :)

In November I will have been living female for two years. I have been on HRT for I belive 5 months now & my body is finally starting to catch up with my spirits. I believe as my native ancestors did that t-people have two spirits.

For me, this is all very new in a way, yet also... the pieces fall into place more and more, y'know? An early memory that haunts me is being at the beach with several elementary school friends and their older brothers. A yelling match broke out between two of the brothers, and it was very uncomfortable for me: the sudden tension in the air seemed to drive me to action, so I stepped in, verbally, and tried to moderate the situation. This was met by a very harsh rebuff from the older brother, someone about three to five years older than I was at the time, if I remember correctly. I think I was probably 7 or 8. Anyhow, I was effectively silenced by this kid, who told me, in way too many decibels, "You know what your problem is?? You are always sticking your nose in where it doesn't belong!!" Very hateful and hurtful. No, I didn't know that was my problem. NO, I wasn't aware that that was a bothersome thing for him or anyone, and I didn't realize that I did it frequently (I'm not sure even now that I did). Anyhow, the result of this confrontation and other powerfully negative, silencing reactions from people led me to shut down that part of me that longed to nurture and communicate, to question and break down barriers and hostilities--except the questioning never really got shut down. Instead, I turned it inward into a pathological, nattering, self-criticism; too much hyper-critical introspection and self-analysis, for too many years. This led to more silence, more isolation, and eventually a recurring clinical depression. A suicide attempt. A recovery, then back down the slippery slope, looking for any foot- and handholds I could find.

But I am not looking for pity. I am looking for insight and support into who I am. Male, female, transgender? Does it matter? I am in a serious, committed relationship with a woman who now knows of my current 'gender struggles' (more on those struggles in a bit, or in another post, perhaps). Sometimes when I read about transsexuals who have completely transitioned, I think about that and how it would be. HRT is a big question mark in my mind.

I am glad that Samhain started this thread, and that ze is here. I think ze and I have some things in common: born in a male body, inclined to present as female. Recently I have been trying on my partner's clothes at home. I love skirts! They are sooooo comfortable and give this amazing freedom of movement feeling. I toy with mascara and lip gloss. I've always been attracted and fascinated by gentle-looking, natural (little make-up), hippie-ish women; I am beginning to wonder if that is (partly?) because that is ME, that is how I would like to present. Yes, I think maybe so.

Lately I have been getting these incredible emotional waves of well-being. First they started as pulses, then grew to waves, now when they come they are often standing pools of contentment and rightness that I am able to swim in. Really it feels like a letting go and a return to a more Original Mind, back to an innocence and naturalness I knew as a child, which was stunted, stifled, beaten, and repressed by society for years, years, decades, decades.

It makes me sad... has made me sad; now I am beginning to abide in Joy.

Yet I value the male in me, too. Testosterone is my ally, allows me to stand up in outrage at all the bullshit that has been silently perpetrated against me for years, years, years. Silently, stealthily, subtly--it is not any person's fault, but I am very angry with the programming of a society that stifles individualism and has tried to cut the heart right out of my nurturing personality. I am and have been and will continue to be very angry at this same society which opresses people because of skin color, gender, sexual orientation, religious creed. It's all BULLSHIT, and I am here, on this planet, not to stand against it, but to stand for Creativity and Love. To stand against something is to acknowledge and reinforce its strength. The small-minded, petty oppression of 'civilization' will not continue to sap me or get the satisfaction of using me as a dead tool to reinforce its own fucking pathologies. Pardon my language. I am here to root Consciousness in Love. I will stand as I am, beautiful and shining, compassionate, a rainbow.

Thanks all for being here, and now I, the drama queen, leave the stage for the next actress or commentator.

Peace,
Cinmaya

[NoX!]

Heya!
Im Amy.
Well...to introduce myself.
Im 15, and a girl at the moment but totally hating it. Ive wanted to be a boy since I could talk. Luckily I have a really supportive family which makes things loads easier but things are still pretty tough. I have lived as a boy since I was about 4, which was when I finally persuaded my Mum to chop all my hair off :). Happy day!!
Being so young yet so keen to have surgery is pretty annoying. Nobody professionally is really prepared to listen so things are going to have to wait. Ive been to psychologists and stuff to get things started but I think thats as far as its going to go until Im at the very least 16.
Well, enough about me. I know Im young but I have lived a long time as a lad. If anyone wants to chat or anyone to talk to im here. Probbly best to email me tho, I check that really regularly.
Its so good to know there is a place to chat to other people kinda in the same boat.
Hope to speak to you soon
Amy xx

[Lime_green.Crisc-0]

I'm FtM and I have been for about all of my life just about. It became more dominate during puberty, terrible time. not a lot of people really understood me fully, I guess because I'm not all completely masculine. I don't fit the general stereotype that the south wants me to be, so that makes me an outcast. Im just too energetic for my own good, and rather flamboyant at times. My friends have always been there for me, and accept me for what and who I am, but most of all, my boyfriend accepts me the most. He's always thought of me as a guy, which makes us gay. And we are perfectly fine with that. I'm the twink in the relationship though X3
I'm really glad I have him, because my life would have been a whole lot harder than it has been already. He's just so sweet to me. Ever since he first met me, he thought I was a boy, so when I told him, he didn't seem fazed. In fact, it made our relationship stronger.

[oilymoily]

I'm Michael, 17 yo FTM. Only just put a name to it a few months ago. I've been struggling for years to figure myself out, went through all the terms, tried on lesbian and bi and all of that. Definitely didn't fit. Mostly I'm sexually attracted to men-- eventually I can call myself a gay man. Gay transman. It is a tremendous relief to know what I can call myself, and even more to know I'm not the only one.
Anyway, came out to my mum just a week before I left home (on an exchange programme for a year) She took it really well, told me she loves me and will always support me. It's more important that I be her child than her daughter. We went to a trans-friendly psychotherapist twice in one week, she was incredibly helpful, just let me talk, which helped me straighten things out for myself. My mum did tell my dad though, and I'd hoped she would rather than me having to do that... but it was definitely the wrong time. My dad reacted so badly, I've never seen him more angry. He told me first thing: "you will always be my child, but you will never be my son." From there he went on to tell me I've talked myself into something absurd, I've allowed myself to be influenced by television and internet... disregarding that every bit of research I did was from medical and psychology books. He said "you have no idea what it is to be a man", a totally chauvenistic phrase on top of being false. Anyway, that was two months ago. When I talk to my dad on the phone or by email it never comes up. He has always done this to me, taken something I do or am that he dislikes extremely personally, reacting explosively, and then pretending it never happened. My mum is still totally supportive, is also trying to get me something more comfortable and safe for binding.
I find this community very helpful, although getting replies is rather slow because there are relatively few here. I wish all of you peace and success on your journeys, whatever steps you decide to make.

Love, Mickey

[SorchaA]

Hi Im a MtF transgender from Australia, i've being thinking all of my life that i have being a little crazy but other than knowing that i had depression i had no idea what was going on.

great site.

[CoconutBank]

I am a FtM transgender person. I just started going to therapy and I'm on my way to getting hormones very soon. I've felt this way my whole life (which I'm sure everyone else has as well). I bind my chest down to keep people from knowing it's there. I've tried to convince myself that I'm a lesbian and that worked for a while, but now, it just doesn't seem like it's enough. Everyone who's met me (away from family here), met me as a man and it will continue to be that way.

Thankfully, my family is very accepting (the ones who matter, at least).

My parents have both said they knew my whole life and my mother actually tried to get me to go to therapy once, but I didn't open up.

It feels good to know that this has happened to other people beside myself and it feels great to know I'm on my way to looking the way I feel.

[Rigby]

I'm a human who is supportive of trans people and interested in learning more about the things that affect their lives. I have a friend who is a M2F trans and she is a great person and so fun to talk to.

[Aria]

Hi! I found a link here from a webpage I visit for trans-related issues, and it seems like a nice forum so I thought I'd stop by. :) I'm a 30-something female, post transition (mostly). I started hormones in June of 2005, and had the lower surgery in 2006. Coming up on, umm, about 2 years since I got all fixed up down there :)

I think it's great that people are getting this taken care of early, like some of the men here whose posts I've been reading. It's my personal view that from the little bit of research that has been done so far (not nearly enough!) that this is some kind of condition caused by variant hormone levels in the womb... and there is no way to really address that except by fixing the body to match. And the younger you take care of it, the better.

It would be great if people could get the proper hormones at puberty so growth and all that other stuff would be more in-line with your real 'gender'. (I put that in quotes because it is such a loaded term, but you know what I mean right? hehe) But even if you aren't that lucky, there is a lot to be said for doing it in the 18-early 20's. I think the men have a little bit more leeway there due to the nature of the way testosterone works and all that- don't let time cause you angst, there is plenty of it to get everything sorted if you need to settle some things before making decisions.

It's nice to meet on an open forum like this! Too often everything is all exclusionary and specific to one 'group' or another. I always felt like there was an information gap without being able to talk to the guys about this stuff hehe. Hope I can offer a little insight based on my personal experience to anyone that is curious, and learn something new from others! :)

[shysodapop]

hi, i am new here. actually, i had this username many years ago, but have just rediscovered this site. i am a 23 year old transman from florida, 2 years on testosterone and post-op. i'm happy to share my experience and offer any advice i can.

[CoconutBank]

hi, i am new here. actually, i had this username many years ago, but have just rediscovered this site. i am a 23 year old transman from florida, 2 years on testosterone and post-op. i'm happy to share my experience and offer any advice i can.I may be moving to Florida later on in the year. when I do, I'll have to find a new doctor for T. who do you work with?

[shysodapop]

hi, i am in jacksonville, but use a doctor based out of gainesville. he is no longer taking new patients, though. i can give you the name of someone in orlando and can also probably help you find a doc in south florida or the tampa area also if that is where you'll be.

where are you moving to? how long are you on t?

[CoconutBank]

I've been on T for about a month and we aren't moving until later in the year, but I'd like to know who does what and where before we even get there. it'll be a lot easier to research once we're down there if I know most of the stuff now.
I'm pretty sure we're gonna live in the Apopka/Orlando area, but I'd like to move to Tampa. we're still talking about that.

for me, it doesn't really matter where the doc is, because I don't mind a drive. especially in fl, since I'm from mi, people are a little nicer down there than up here.

anyway, any information you have would be fantastic.

[shellygurl]

I am brand new to this site. I also am brand new to this sort of life. I am a 40 year old (male) who has tried to live a life that is not me.:( I am looking for answers and someone that I can talk to about my situation. I am at the point in my life that something has to be done I do not think that I can take much more. :(

[shellygurl]

Hi;
I'm a transgendered person. That is, I was born male but came to realize that I am really female. Swamhain asked me to join this fine forum I suspect because zi knew this.

I'm here to do what I usually do. Read other's opinions, give a few of my own. Maybe help someone thats dealing with an issue. It's part of my nurturing nature to try to help, sorry folks. :)

In November I will have been living female for two years. I have been on HRT for I belive 5 months now & my body is finally starting to catch up with my spirits. I believe as my native ancestors did that t-people have two spirits.
My yin is very dormant now.

My name was legally changed 15 August it to now matches.
I'm bi & have 3 kids. one of my soms has married a bi lady. They have 2 lovely daughters. Their son went to he nexty life SIDS.
My daughter is 7 & lives with me half time.

Girl, I am glad to see your story. I just turned 40 years old and am looking for help. I have been living a lie my entire life. I am pretty screwed up right now and do not know where to begin. I have kids,a wife, job but I am not a man. I have been contemplating suicide much lately. I do not mention that to gain your sympathy but only to let you know that I have arrived at the point that I realize that I cannot suppress my true identity any longer. I am not living yet as a female, am not on hormones and no one knows. I don't know where to go. Any advice you can give would be much appreciated. Thanks for listening.

Hugs and Kisses

Shelly

[shellygurl]

Hi Folks!

My name is Karissa and I'm a 52yo MTF preop TS. I'm a writer, photographer, musician and teacher and I live in the boonies in South Carolina.

I look forward to getting to know you and having a chance to discuss not only gender issues but all the other fun stuff dealt with here.

Hey Karissa, I am Shelly. I just turned 40 years old and am looking for help. I have been living a lie my entire life. I am pretty screwed up right now and do not know where to begin. I have kids,a wife, job but I am not a man. I have been contemplating suicide much lately. I do not mention that to gain your sympathy but only to let you know that I have arrived at the point that I realize that I cannot suppress my true identity any longer. I am not living yet as a female, am not on hormones and no one knows. I don't know where to go. Any advice you can give would be much appreciated. Thanks for listening.

Hugs and Kisses

Shelly

[shellygurl]

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hello my name is kolye i am 18 years old and i am finally the woman ive

always wanted to be. im looking for other transexual friends and possibly one

or more sexual partners.
hope to hear from you soon ;]
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You are very pretty. Congratulations on your accomplishment. I am so jealous I have just reached the point that I am going to quit denying and begin my long journey now. I hope some day I can b beautiful also. Best wishes.

Hugs and Kisses

Shelly

[shellygurl]

Hi, my name is Ava and i'm a 17 year old MTF preop. from Oklahoma. I love photography, and music and art. I've just recently started coming out with my real gender, and so far everyone has been really supportive.
I just thought I'd join here for advice, and general conversation.

Hey Girl this is Shelly I am a MTF just beginning the process of becoming the "real thing". Just wanted to say hey. I was born and raised in Western Oklahoma.:) Live in Texas :(now but family is still there. Well good luck on your journey hope to hear more from you.

Hugs and Kisses

Shelly

[shellygurl]

I feel just the same. I will not refer to myself as either of those terms. "Trans" means to change. How can you become something you feel you already are?

Those labels are really just there for people who have trouble identifying people with gender dysphoria with the gender they see themselves as. (Which is most people)

I hear someone talking but I see no one. OH you are Invisible. lol:smilielol5: Just tryin to put some cheer in this so called life that I am trapped in. I agree with you also. I have I think put off accepting what I am due to some of those terms. I don't see myself as homosexual, or transgender, or anything else therefore I have tried to hide it. I was born a male but I cannot change the fact that I am female. Hope you took no offense at my poor excuse of a try at being a comedienne.

Hugs and Kisses

Shelly