Cleansing Grief & Anger

[kitty fabulous]

There has been a lot of loss in my life in the past year, and I am currently stuck in a very negative situation which I cannot change right away. I've had a very long struggle with anger, the current wave of grief is intensifying it. I am crying and shouting too much.

My understanding of past experiences with grief and anger is that stifling them will only cause them to errupt uncontrolably later. However, right now I have a need to maintain calm (which is very difficult at times), keep functioning and moving foreward on my business and personal development.

Punching a pillow isn't enough anymore.

Crying in the shower isn't enough anymore.

My current living situation is very tense and volatile and is going to erupt sooner or later.

How can I process the grief and the anger, without stifling it, or letting it take over the rest of my life? Everytime I think I've moved beyond it, I find that more is rising to the surface with the older stuff out of the way. Some days I'm afraid I'm going to crack like an egg.

[lynsey]

you get away from it and change it. You develop a plan so you can do it sooner rather than later. I am assuming this is guy trouble? If you are married you leave because you will be fine as you still have access to the bank accounts and such until the divorce is finalized and then you can get alimony. If you are not married then you need to become self-sufficient fast. Being dependent on somone you are not married to is a self-detremental accident waiting to happen. I am assuming this is what you are talking about from reading your other posts.

[kitty fabulous]

No, it isn't guy trouble. I'm uninvolved at the moment and content to keep it that way for now. I'm living with relatives, a very stressful situation in a negative environment, and often it feels like I have few options.

I'm considering taking drastic steps like I did when I left Rochester, namely, homelessness again. I feel very trapped here. Something needs to change, now.