Weird symptoms--please help

[ArtistofPeace]

Hey everyone. I posted something about this in the woman's section of the forums, but figured I'd try again and write something up here and see if I get any feedback.

Basically, off and on, my body and mind go sort of numb. It's very difficult to explain. I can be perfectly fine, and then I feel this numbness creeping in and then it stays for about 1 to 2 weeks (this time it's been even longer than that). What happens is that I get very frustrated, I can't concentrate, I have extreme paranoia about everything, I feel like I can hear things and feel things that don't exist. I almost feel like I can make things happen with my mind, because if I'm looking for something I feel like there's no way I'll be able to find it and then when I actually do, I feel like I made it appear. I know this sounds absolutely insane, but that's what this does to me. I feel psychotic.

Coupled with the mental part of this, I physically lose feeling in my body. It's not your typical pins and needles feeling. It's kind of like...if I'm touching my head, I'm not sure that I really am touching my head. I know I am touching something, but it's registering wrong somewhere. I am constantly doubting everything I'm doing. Even typing this up, I feel like I'm writing the wrong words. When I drive my car, I get so paranoid that I feel I'm going to constantly be pulled over. I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body. It seems even the smallest tasks, like taking a shower, requires more energy and concentration than I'm able to give. I need help. I've got a doctor's appointment scheduled for June to see a gyno because maybe it's got something to do with hormones...I don't know.

It freaks me out because I've never heard of anyone else getting this and I'm afraid if I don't fix myself soon, I'll be in this constant numb state for the rest of my life. If anyone has any similiar symptoms or knows anyone who has, I'd really appreciate any feedback. I'm desperate. Thanks for reading this.

[Xac]

Hey everyone. I posted something about this in the woman's section of the forums, but figured I'd try again and write something up here and see if I get any feedback.

Basically, off and on, my body and mind go sort of numb. It's very difficult to explain. I can be perfectly fine, and then I feel this numbness creeping in and then it stays for about 1 to 2 weeks (this time it's been even longer than that). What happens is that I get very frustrated, I can't concentrate, I have extreme paranoia about everything, I feel like I can hear things and feel things that don't exist. I almost feel like I can make things happen with my mind, because if I'm looking for something I feel like there's no way I'll be able to find it and then when I actually do, I feel like I made it appear. I know this sounds absolutely insane, but that's what this does to me. I feel psychotic.

Coupled with the mental part of this, I physically lose feeling in my body. It's not your typical pins and needles feeling. It's kind of like...if I'm touching my head, I'm not sure that I really am touching my head. I know I am touching something, but it's registering wrong somewhere. I am constantly doubting everything I'm doing. Even typing this up, I feel like I'm writing the wrong words. When I drive my car, I get so paranoid that I feel I'm going to constantly be pulled over. I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body. It seems even the smallest tasks, like taking a shower, requires more energy and concentration than I'm able to give. I need help. I've got a doctor's appointment scheduled for June to see a gyno because maybe it's got something to do with hormones...I don't know.

It freaks me out because I've never heard of anyone else getting this and I'm afraid if I don't fix myself soon, I'll be in this constant numb state for the rest of my life. If anyone has any similiar symptoms or knows anyone who has, I'd really appreciate any feedback. I'm desperate. Thanks for reading this.
This is kind of scary, you pretty much described my problems but assuming that you are like me, it will get better im starting to feel really good but i know its hard.

I get the numbness (physical) in my hands and feet, and often when playing poker i will know what the other person has and i will feel phsycic. Everything was hard even waking up, making a cup of coffee even drinking it.

It's like all i wanted to do was rest but even resting was painfully difficult... i feel/felt like i am always suffering and always afraid.

And i can definatley relate to being paranoid about being pulled over, despite the fact im sober and driving legaly etc.

[Xac]

I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body.
I think this part got to me the most, it's like you know your supposed to be someone else, some one stronger and even just different but your arent who you are suppose to be...

[crummyrummy]

its new to you, they will name it Artistofpeace syndrom, but you will never see a dollar of the money made in your name....as soon as you go public everyone will have what you have and in the end, rich people will get ritcher.


feel free to stalk and kill me for mocking your need to have a disorder.
I dont deal well with life maybe I should ask you to diagnose me?
Hey everyone. I posted something about this in the woman's section of the forums, but figured I'd try again and write something up here and see if I get any feedback.

Basically, off and on, my body and mind go sort of numb. It's very difficult to explain. I can be perfectly fine, and then I feel this numbness creeping in and then it stays for about 1 to 2 weeks (this time it's been even longer than that). What happens is that I get very frustrated, I can't concentrate, I have extreme paranoia about everything, I feel like I can hear things and feel things that don't exist. I almost feel like I can make things happen with my mind, because if I'm looking for something I feel like there's no way I'll be able to find it and then when I actually do, I feel like I made it appear. I know this sounds absolutely insane, but that's what this does to me. I feel psychotic.

Coupled with the mental part of this, I physically lose feeling in my body. It's not your typical pins and needles feeling. It's kind of like...if I'm touching my head, I'm not sure that I really am touching my head. I know I am touching something, but it's registering wrong somewhere. I am constantly doubting everything I'm doing. Even typing this up, I feel like I'm writing the wrong words. When I drive my car, I get so paranoid that I feel I'm going to constantly be pulled over. I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body. It seems even the smallest tasks, like taking a shower, requires more energy and concentration than I'm able to give. I need help. I've got a doctor's appointment scheduled for June to see a gyno because maybe it's got something to do with hormones...I don't know.

It freaks me out because I've never heard of anyone else getting this and I'm afraid if I don't fix myself soon, I'll be in this constant numb state for the rest of my life. If anyone has any similiar symptoms or knows anyone who has, I'd really appreciate any feedback. I'm desperate. Thanks for reading this.

[Xac]

feel free to stalk and kill me for mocking your need to have a disorder.
I dont deal well with life maybe I should ask you to diagnose me?
Thats alot of bullshit there crummy, poor mental health is one of the hardest things to overcome and sometimes hard to specifically diagnose. So this girl is feel weird and she doesnt know whats happening to her and you think she is what? taking an easy way out? crying wolf?

Anyway keep your mind shut and your heart spiteful, hope it works out for you.

[crummyrummy]

eh, I know mental problems exist, however I dont personally know anyone that claims it that aint faking.

call me jaded.

[Xac]

eh, I know mental problems exist, however I dont personally know anyone that claims it that aint faking.

call me jaded.
Well i always say you cant blame a man for a pre-disposition if his previous experiances account for that disposition.

I dont think artistofpeace is lying, i would imagine a 'faker' would have described a more concrete condition after researhing it, rather artistofpeace is just trying to work out what is going on in her head which doesnt really relate to any specific disorder that i know of.

[crummyrummy]

ok I will shut up, you kids enjoy being sick.

[lalalamort]

fuck off crummy rummy

[crummyrummy]

I am off fucking.






I wish I was off fucking, but being an asshole, no woman wants me, go figure.

[ArtistofPeace]

its new to you, they will name it Artistofpeace syndrom, but you will never see a dollar of the money made in your name....as soon as you go public everyone will have what you have and in the end, rich people will get ritcher.


feel free to stalk and kill me for mocking your need to have a disorder.
I dont deal well with life maybe I should ask you to diagnose me?I actually thought what you said first was pretty funny...haha. I don't feel a need to stalk or kill you (don't flatter yourself, I've got better things to do with my life), but I don't really get why you were mocking me. I don't think I came off as a drama queen, sympathy-seeker in my post. I'm honestly feeling the way I described and just wanted to see if there was anyone who felt like I was. Believe me, I don't want a fucking disorder. I just want to feel good. And I wasn't asking anyone to diagnose me. Normally, I don't ask for help with this type of shit, but decided, hey why not see what others have to say, since no one I know personally has any idea what's going on.

[ArtistofPeace]

Thanks for the response insanejester. I appreciate you taking the time, even if what you said scares me a little...

[Dalamar]

Hey everyone. I posted something about this in the woman's section of the forums, but figured I'd try again and write something up here and see if I get any feedback.

Basically, off and on, my body and mind go sort of numb. It's very difficult to explain. I can be perfectly fine, and then I feel this numbness creeping in and then it stays for about 1 to 2 weeks (this time it's been even longer than that). What happens is that I get very frustrated, I can't concentrate, I have extreme paranoia about everything, I feel like I can hear things and feel things that don't exist. I almost feel like I can make things happen with my mind, because if I'm looking for something I feel like there's no way I'll be able to find it and then when I actually do, I feel like I made it appear. I know this sounds absolutely insane, but that's what this does to me. I feel psychotic.

Coupled with the mental part of this, I physically lose feeling in my body. It's not your typical pins and needles feeling. It's kind of like...if I'm touching my head, I'm not sure that I really am touching my head. I know I am touching something, but it's registering wrong somewhere. I am constantly doubting everything I'm doing. Even typing this up, I feel like I'm writing the wrong words. When I drive my car, I get so paranoid that I feel I'm going to constantly be pulled over. I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body. It seems even the smallest tasks, like taking a shower, requires more energy and concentration than I'm able to give. I need help. I've got a doctor's appointment scheduled for June to see a gyno because maybe it's got something to do with hormones...I don't know.

It freaks me out because I've never heard of anyone else getting this and I'm afraid if I don't fix myself soon, I'll be in this constant numb state for the rest of my life. If anyone has any similiar symptoms or knows anyone who has, I'd really appreciate any feedback. I'm desperate. Thanks for reading this.

At first glance it sounds a lot like a disassociative episode.

It would be impossible to say for sure without knowing more about you because there are a million things it could be. However, I doubt that it is an onset of schizophrenia, but like I said I can not say for certain.

Your instincts to see a medical doctor are probably good. Let us know what he/she says.

I would also suggest getting a complete physical, including full blood work. Make sure they also test for thyroid function and lymes disease. These are often over looked and cause a miss-diagnosis of a psychiatric condition when the problem is a physical condition. These may not be the cause, but it is good to rule them out before some doctor starts shoving psycatropics down your throat.

[ArtistofPeace]

Hey, thanks Dalamar. I appreciate the response. Someone told me it could be a disassociative episode before, and I tried seeing what causes it every time it happens, but it doesn't seem like anything majorly traumatic initiates it, so I don't know. It just sort of creeps up on me, but when it leaves again, it's like a black cloud being lifted. It's so strange...

Yeah, I'll definitely have the whole blood work and all that done. I really prefer it be a physical problem because then at least I can see myself get physically better rather than downing meds to maybe cure any mental issues. Mental problems are scarier than physical to me since they're such a crapshoot in diagnosing and curing and all that...

Anyway, thanks again, and thanks to all those who've taken the time to respond.

[robineatsdogfood]

personaly it sounds like borderline personality disorder, why cant you get straight answers off anyone in here?

[spooner]

some of these diagnoses are so bad i want laugh.

ha. ha. ha.

[spooner]

i sent a pm, saying the same thing you did: it sounds like emerging schizophrenia, go see a psychologist/psychiatrist.

but these people are just throwing out random disorders. bpd? this is fucking nothing like bpd. disassociative disorder? nothing like that.

dunno, when help is free, you get what you pay for.

[spooner]

the guy suggesting it is a personality disorder is the most hilarious tho.

[fulmah]

the guy suggesting it is a personality disorder is the most hilarious tho.pray tell why? do you know her personally? it could be schizophrenia, sure. it could also be bpd, or dissociative, or even the most likely of all: bipolar. granted, I'm only going on this one thread... and the most likely choice on what's been described here is the simplest.

regardless, the only absolutely fantastic advice given in this thread so far is to go see a therapist about it. short of that, everything else is conjecture.

[spooner]

because personality disorders don't develop suddenly.

and no, no bipolar. does anything she said even sound manic at all.

fucking useless.

[fulmah]

because personality disorders don't develop suddenly.

and no, no bipolar. does anything she said even sound manic at all.You're right, personality disorders don't develop suddenly. I didn't read anywhere that these symptoms developed suddenly either. That aside, the realization that there's something going on, that what's being experienced is abnormal, can be a somewhat sudden realization. Neither you, I, the original poster, or an expert in personality disorders would be able to tell from the symptoms described whether they represent a personality disorder. That doesn't mean that the possibility exists that it's there.

Regarding bipolar disorder without mania... first of all, "mania" doesn't mean what you probably think it does, nor does it have to be present for one to be diagnosed as bipolar. There's such a thing as a mixed episode. Second of all, anxiety, irratability, and thinking one can make something happen by merely thinking it, is a great way of describing delusion of grandeur; ie: mania.

I think you actually have a decent head on your shoulders, spooner, but I'm not going to waste my time to try and find out. If you care to back up your hostility with something meaningful, feel free.

[wandering_okie]

Hey everyone. I posted something about this in the woman's section of the forums, but figured I'd try again and write something up here and see if I get any feedback.

Basically, off and on, my body and mind go sort of numb. It's very difficult to explain. I can be perfectly fine, and then I feel this numbness creeping in and then it stays for about 1 to 2 weeks (this time it's been even longer than that). What happens is that I get very frustrated, I can't concentrate, I have extreme paranoia about everything, I feel like I can hear things and feel things that don't exist. I almost feel like I can make things happen with my mind, because if I'm looking for something I feel like there's no way I'll be able to find it and then when I actually do, I feel like I made it appear. I know this sounds absolutely insane, but that's what this does to me. I feel psychotic.

Coupled with the mental part of this, I physically lose feeling in my body. It's not your typical pins and needles feeling. It's kind of like...if I'm touching my head, I'm not sure that I really am touching my head. I know I am touching something, but it's registering wrong somewhere. I am constantly doubting everything I'm doing. Even typing this up, I feel like I'm writing the wrong words. When I drive my car, I get so paranoid that I feel I'm going to constantly be pulled over. I can't concentrate. It's driving me literally mad and into this huge depression because I feel like I'm not myself. It's like being drugged and not being able to get out of it. I'm anxious and nervous all the time and not connecting with my mind or body. It seems even the smallest tasks, like taking a shower, requires more energy and concentration than I'm able to give. I need help. I've got a doctor's appointment scheduled for June to see a gyno because maybe it's got something to do with hormones...I don't know.

It freaks me out because I've never heard of anyone else getting this and I'm afraid if I don't fix myself soon, I'll be in this constant numb state for the rest of my life. If anyone has any similiar symptoms or knows anyone who has, I'd really appreciate any feedback. I'm desperate. Thanks for reading this.I'm not trying to be sarcastic when I ask this. As serious as this sounds, why are you trying to get help here? There are a lot of smart well meaning people on these forums, but you need to see a professional..IN PERSON. SOON! I hope things go well for you.

[Jennasia]

stay away from drugs they can exacerbate your problem. i am only saying this cuz it seems like this forum is flooded with drug abusers so i have to assume you use drugs from time to time. best of luck to you.

[Dalamar]

Hey, thanks Dalamar. I appreciate the response. Someone told me it could be a disassociative episode before, and I tried seeing what causes it every time it happens, but it doesn't seem like anything majorly traumatic initiates it, so I don't know. It just sort of creeps up on me, but when it leaves again, it's like a black cloud being lifted. It's so strange...
Sorry I have not had a chance to reply until now. Feel free to pm me if you like.


Yes, some of the things you said were classic terms some people have used to describe a disassociative episode. Don’t be frightened by the various diagnoses and terms that have been floating around this thread. Nothing you have said so far hits any panic buttons with me to where you should go to a hospital ASAP or any thing. Like you said, you have an appointment with a medical doctor and that person would be best suited to give advice. He or she will be able to see you and talk to you in more depth about what you are going through.

Yeah, I'll definitely have the whole blood work and all that done. I really prefer it be a physical problem because then at least I can see myself get physically better rather than downing meds to maybe cure any mental issues. Mental problems are scarier than physical to me since they're such a crapshoot in diagnosing and curing and all that...
It does not matter if it is a physical issue or if you are experiencing psychiatric symptoms. They are both medical conditions to which there are a variety of both traditional and alternative treatments. The important thing is that no matter what the doctor thinks you have, look into it for yourself. Become knowledgeable about it so that you can make the choices you think are right for you. Even if it is a "mental illness" that does not define who and what you are. There is hope and recovery from mental illness.


Best wishes

[ArtistofPeace]

I'm not trying to be sarcastic when I ask this. As serious as this sounds, why are you trying to get help here? There are a lot of smart well meaning people on these forums, but you need to see a professional..IN PERSON. SOON! I hope things go well for you.
Hi wandering_okie. I'm not trying to have anyone professionally diagnose me or anything. I know I need to see a professional, and I do have a doctor's appointment coming up. I was just basically seeking some outside knowledge from anyone who has similar symptoms or knows anything on the subject. I won't take anything anyone says as a concrete diagnosis. This is just a way of getting different opinions from people who might know something about something. But thanks for the post and for the good wishes.

[ArtistofPeace]

stay away from drugs they can exacerbate your problem. i am only saying this cuz it seems like this forum is flooded with drug abusers so i have to assume you use drugs from time to time. best of luck to you.I don't do drugs, but thanks for the post.

And as for everyone else who's posted, thanks so much for taking the time. I won't take anything anyone says as concrete, so there's no use arguing over different suggestions people have made. I will see a doctor soon and see if there's anything I can do about all this. It's true that I can't show you all who I am through a few measley posts on a forum, so it's hard to say for sure what someone might have when you don't know them personally. There's always more to a story. But from the details I gave, I appreciate all the responses, the concern, and the suggestions. I am taking them all into account and will bring certain things up with my doctor once I get this appointment over with. Thanks again, everyone.

[spooner]

not to sound insensitive, but you should post any professional diagnosis's here... start a pot. make odds.

actually, i probably do sound really insensitive. my bad. sorry.

[Suncatch22]

Hey, thank you for posting what has happened in your mind!

It happened in mine too, and was scary as HELL.

I have never been diagnosed with anything other than a mild autism-spectrum disorder and slight clinical depression, but people have conjectured a lot about me too. To be honest, I (like you) frankly don't care what my "problems" are called ... I just want to learn to deal with them!

(I only sought diagnosis of my ASD because one of its symptoms is math-processing disorder, and I wanted help with college-level math curriculum. But since college is run by The Man, I needed to have certification of an actual "disorder" in order to receive any forgiveness.)

My poet-friend says it best: "In a perfect world, we would all be allowed to be weird people floating around with our own sets of quirks ... no one would have to have anything wrong."

I have chosen to walk the road without counseling, and sometimes I think that is a stupid idea ... but I am still walking, albeit some days taller than others.

So I hope that whatever you choose to do, you find some peace!

Keep us posted -- we care. :)

[ArtistofPeace]

not to sound insensitive, but you should post any professional diagnosis's here... start a pot. make odds.

actually, i probably do sound really insensitive. my bad. sorry.You don't sound insensitive...haha. I'll take bets and when I get back from the doctor, we'll see who wins. :p

Suncatch22...thanks.

[Suncatch22]

You are very much welcome.

Thinking that you are the only one who feels a certain way, is exceptionally isolating. Sometimes it is helpful just to know that you are not walking the road alone ... I know it helps me a great deal!

I like your idea about taking bets! Humor is essential for dealing with trouble ... I think you have a good head on your shoulders and will probably come through just fine. Hang in there! :D

[lalalamort]

Definitaly go to a psychiatrist and ge them to properly diagnose you. Untill then, just relax, and listen to Simon and Garfunkel

[ArtistofPeace]

^^^Haha, good advice. Thanks.