This is my night

[lalalamort]

This is my night........I find out around a week ago that theres this party......and i decide to confront my severe anxiety and go to it....

Basically i ahve this vision of me being trapped in the house adn not being able to ecape.....like being in the second story adn not beinga ble to find the stairs.....whic his rediculous cos its not a second story house.......so i have told myself like 10000000000 times that its impossible to become trapped in a suburban house and that I will be in this reality and that i will know where everything is and be able to manuver properly and be in control.

My brain is like on overdrive. Its so ridiculous but at least I can tell triggers for my mood. Like having tons of work to do, plus a monologue for english i have to do, plus i havnt done anything all day so i know my mood will be low....

I feel a bit better now, Its easier to vent my frustration on the net than to my family and friends

[alex714]

Good for you, it takes balls to confront your fears. I hope you're ready though, if you're anxiety is that bad, having the courage to face your fear might not be enough to overcome it. You need coping mechanisms to move past the anxiety.

[spooner]

have fun get bombed.

[NovaStarwind]

I hope it goes/went well. I know how you feel about parties. If anything, alcohol really is a good way to stop feeling anxious. Not the best solution at ALL, but if you need it, it really helps.


~Nova

[lalalamort]

yeah im always fine when I get there......im not a social phobic i just get crazy thoughts when i can vidualise something........whenver i have to go somewhere i havnt been before i kinda freak out

[lalalamort]

If you're stupid enough to double post i dont give a fuck whether you think im a pussy..........not that I care anyway, lol

[lalalamort]

yes.......i'm a female sex organ engaging in intercourse