Their are so many times [Archive]

Jennifer19

04-30-2006, 05:47 PM

That I have listened to my mother cry her eyes out saying she wishes she was dead. Then when I start crying like today, she doses not want to hear it. I still feel like crying. I have to get it together cause I have a wedding to go to in an hour. I took 6 pills to try and calm me down... I feel so freaken terrible..

hippychickmommy

04-30-2006, 08:54 PM

Geez Jennifer, your mom sounds just like mine was when I lived with her. I remember the one time when I was 15, she told me that she was going to go into the garage, close the door and run the car, breathe in the exhaust until she was dead. I ended up not going to school that day because I was so afraid to leave her alone. I drove her to her doctor's office because I didn't know how to handle her, I was terrified she was going to kill herself.

She used to say she wanted to be dead quite often. Mainly after she and my father divorced. It was horrible hearing something like that, thinking geez, aren't my sister and I enough to keep you going?

My dad threatend to kill himself to me before. It was when he found out that my mother had filed for divorce. He stood there screaming and looked right at me full of rage and said he was going to kill himself and that it would be my fault, that the divorce was my doing. He didn't, thankfully, he was just enraged at the time, but it was still traumatizing to hear that.

But I feel for you. It's so hard hearing a parent talk like that. It's almost like, you have to take on the role of the parent and take care of them. If you ever need to talk sweetie, I'm here for you. You poor thing, you have been going through so much.

{{{Hugs}}}