Please Get Help!

[cynical_otter]

Ok, so I finally feel a bit comfortable discussing what happened to me. I just recently returned back to the forums after a long hiatus; an absense that apparently was noticed(thanks to all who welcomed me back).

As many know, I have been going through a rather ugly divorce. I also had started a new job inwhich the company decided to place their last-chancer manager in my store. A fairly vile young man who decided to target me because I was a single mother and the newest Asst.manager. So, between him and my asshat ex, I was already under extreme stress.

I went from having a miserable marriage, to a bad year, to a horrible week, to an even worse night inwhich said manager threaten my job in the lowliest fashion. I don't personally remember much of what happened. I have fluttery memories of paramedics, nurses, and then I came back to full consciousness when my stomach was being pumped. What had happened was that my brain went into nuclear meltdown and I downed 64 sleeping pills.

I nearly died, my muscles atrophied from the relaxents in the drugs and my heart got a murmur. I was hooked up to two IVs and an oxygen machine along with all the monitors. They said that by all logic, I should have died. I then did a nice stint at a psych hospital and finally recieved the help I so badly needed. Turns out, I ignored the signs of depression for 5 years until my mind could no longer handle the stress. I am now on medication and I see both a psychiatrist and a therapist twice a month. I also go to monthly Emotions Anonymous meetings.

If you ever feel hopeless, sad, lost, can't sleep, get chronic ulcers, anxiety, high stress, mood swings...please do not hesitate to get help. Do not ignore your body's signs, they could save your life.

And also, just remember, there are people who know exactly how you feel and we are always there for love and support!

[nimh]

sounds like you've been thru the wringer. glad things are turning around for you now though. take care of yourself.

[ihmurria]

I'm glad that you've recognized this, and are working towards being mentally healthy again
good luck hun

[fulmah]

It definitely sounds like you've had a rough little while there. Oftentimes it takes hitting rock bottom before we're finally able to accept that there's a problem we need to address. I've talked to a few people who've had their stomach pumped... they all put that experience among the worst in their lives, but they also credit it with being a giant wake up call. It's sad that it comes to that, but it's so much better than the other options.

I do have a quick question... does Emotions Anonymous provide online meetings and/or forums with group chat for support? I know that AA, Alanon, and some other more specialized boards do (the one I was going to for my own personal hell was for people in relationships with someone who had a personality disorder), and nothing helped more than that. It wasn't that they had anything better to say than my psychologist, per se. It was that they were there to listen and give feedback 24/7. Plus, sometimes it's easier to help others than it is to help ourselves, and when you give someone advice who's going through almost the exact same thing that you are... well, it's kind of hard not to see the obvious.

I'm really glad you posted this, and that you're turning things around for yourself! :)

[whereami]

Although I don't know you,I'm glad to hear somone in your position has gotten the help that you needed & that you're in the process of gettng better. :)