Not the right time?

[xthevalkyriex]

OK..here's a synopsis. I've been battling with major anxiety and depression for about 6 months now. I've been going to therapy and am on medication, but it just doesn't seem to give me the boost I need. I used to be very into spirituality and magic, but lost touch with it.

I really feel that I need to get in touch with my spirituality again. I also have lost touch with my spirit guide and feel the need to find them again. So today, I was planning on meditating and trying to reconnect with my spirit guide. As I was setting up and preparing for meditation, gathering candles, etc, a huge wave of nausea overcame me. I haven't left my house all weekend and only had my normal breakfast of cereal and coffee this morning, so it's not a bug or food poisoning.

So please...is this my spirit guide's way of reaching out to me? Telling me that now is not the right time to reconnect? I feel so utterly lost and want desperately to have spirituality in my life again, but if I'm going to get nauseous every time I try to make contact, I may just lose all my faith. Please help me, if you can.

[drewbee]

Hi :)

Well it could be your spirit guide telling you it is not time. I myself believe I am at a plateu because they do not want me to learn more right now. No matter what I do everything seems as forward as it was the day before. Hows the mental stress in your life doing?

I have a question and please feel more then obliged not to answer it if you do not want too.
Why are you depressed?


It seems like alot is going on in your life. College, boys. you know, the usual :) You should be happy and excited, school will be out, you can go get yourself a good job, make some money party it up! What are your thoughts?

Free your mind of all that is around you, your spirit guide will come back :)

The feelings may be of "starting something that has been laying around for a few years" thing. Although I never heard of this, who knows.

I know when I try to connect to the beyond, and I havn't tried for a month or so, I get a really bad headache dead center in my head when using my 3rd eye.

Good Luck :)

[xthevalkyriex]

I think my depression and anxiety is mostly biological in origin. I was on medication for a long time, then decided to go off of it (with my doc's agreement and supervision) last September. I was fine for a few months, then everything came crashing down. I've been back on medication for 4 months, and it helps a little, but not as much as it did back then.


I feel like I've exhausted all other possibilities, and that maybe reconnecting with my spirit will help me follow the right path again. But just the feeling I got today was so overwhelming, almost like "you're not ready for this". I just can't take feeling like I've been feeling anymore. You're right in that I'm at the age where I should be having as much fun as I can, and pondering the possibilities that life has in store. I just.. DON'T. The only thing I feel I have right now, and I know I'm lucky I do, is the love and support of my family and friends. Without them, I don't know where I'd be right be.

So, I suppose, as hard as its going to be, I just need to give it more time.
Thank you for your insights, they were very helpful :)

[Zan]

hi Valkyrie

Well - depression and anxiety are also common symptoms of repressed psychic energy.

Check out the following:

Living With Your Psychic Gifts
http://www.brandijasmine.com/web/living/index.html

The Playful Psychic
http://www.psipog.net/activepsy/contents.html

1-On an emotional level - nausea=fear. I'll leave it to you to think about what fears you may have about connecting with higher powers again.

2-On an energetic level - nausea is also a symptom of unbalanced energies. Make sure you (a) protect yourself psychically, and (b) balance and ground any energies you're drawing in (the "playful psychic" link has detailed exercises for this).

3-On the physical. Sometimes your body just needs to get rid of stuff (esp the residue of blocked energies) before you can go on to a higher level, and a brief bout of vomiting and/or diarrhoea may help clear this. It might not be pleasant at the time but afterwards you can really make progress once you've rid yourself of all your old shit.

Another thing worth knowing is that once you are operating on a higher level your body has less tolerance for stimulants (eg caffeine) and other drugs. Try cutting down on any coffee/drugs and sticking to a simple diet for a while or even have a juice fast for a few days. (But as you probably know - don't stop antidepressants suddenly - only come off these under the supervision of a medical practitioner).

Hang in there - I do believe there is progress for you to make at this time

love and light

Zan

[xthevalkyriex]

Thank you for the links zen. I've always felt connected to the spirit realm, I just don't quite know how to reconnect. I'll be sure to look at those links. :)