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Dibary
04-22-2006, 02:41 PM
Hi all, I'm a new member here, was hoping I could get some advice, I'll get straight to the point

My 23yo partner has a unclear affliction towards sex. She sends out multiple mixed messages and I feel stuck in the middle unsure of what to do. She is the only one who says whether or not we have sex. She's asked me to not pressure her into having sex, so she can have the time all to herself to work out what she wants and needs.

I'm pretty open minded, but I'm just totally losing all perspective on the situation now. She'll quite happily go and masturbate but I am forbidden to go near her private parts in a sexual manner. I've told her I'd quite happily eat her out for hours any time she wants, but it's all wasted effort it seems. She just doesn't want the type of sexual contact I can provide, which is leading me to a great deal of sexual frustration.

After all I'm 22, and I've got what I like to think of as moderately high sexual drive and desire. I'm a great believer in mutual pleasure, to the satisfaction of both partners. I just don't get the opportunity to put this into practice.

Recently she demanded that I were to be more mean in the bedroom, unfortunately she's also conditioned me against being mean to her in general as she was raped when she was 16, I can't appear to get that mixed message out of my head, it's pretty much making me want to avoid sex all together.

Whats worrying me is that our relationship is following a pattern similar to her previous relationship. She's come off the pill, our sex is becoming less and less frequent(once fortnightly, but at present not for the past 3 weeks). The times she does want sex are normally mornings when theres a heavy time constraint on getting ready for the day, almost ensuring that our intimacy is brief.

This happened with her previous relationship to, and she described the sitaution as 'coudln't bear him touching me'. Well I often give her cuddles and the like, just a general level of passion that a relationship should have, but this isn't equally reciprocal, it scares me to think that this is potentially what she is thinking of me.

I mentioned that I'm open minded, and this gives her the confidence to tells me things, perhaps that she shouldn't. We were out with one of my friends the other day, later at home she revealed that she could of ripped his clothes off and had mad animal sex with him. My response to that was she takes me for granted. She also has a fiery temper but I'm very difficult to get wound up, I don't understand the anger she some times portrays.

So like I say, I'm losing perspective and fast, it seems like she's becoming increasingly distant. She has suffered depression in the past, and she's said recently that she is starting to feel depressed again. I feel like this could all be the brick wall which crumbles our relationship apart, yet we are devoted to each other and in deeply in love, we can't imagine being apart, as we do have alot of fun together.

I just can't help but think we're bothing missing out big time, over nothing.

Is this a sexual dysfunction issue? Has anybody that has been in a similar situation care to share their experiences, and resolutions? Obviously everyones different, but having a clear idea of what resolutions have overcome similar issues for other people would help greatly.

Thanks

mamaboogie
04-22-2006, 05:23 PM
back off, and follow her lead. I could tell she had been raped before you ever mentioned it. Whatever else you do, do not force the issue, do not "be mean" to her in any way. Show her nothing but kindness and respect. It wouldn't hurt to get her in counselling, either alone or the both of you together. Talk to her openly and honestly about how you feel, and give her the chance to talk openly and honestly to you about how she feels. Once she starts talking, don't interrupt, don't agree or disagree with her, don't offer advice, just listen.

Dibary
04-27-2006, 01:17 PM
Hi, thanks for your response.

I do treat her with the highest regard and respect, and with a kindness which she herself has complimented, unlike anybody else she has ever been with.

I actively avoid these subjects due to her temper surrounding these subjects, but do mention them occassionally to guage her thoughts on the matter (in an open and understanding way, explaining how I feel also), to evaluate her thoughts.

She always has the lead, soley when it comes to sex, I know of none of her turn ons or anything, I've asked her innumerable times to describe some of her fantasies or the like, but alas she just doesn't know- or won't tell me.

When we do talk it is without pressure and totally open, the frequency of our communication is moderate to poor, I always feel I have to pass the temper threshold first which is always nigh on impossible to guage, because if a conversation arises and she's in a shitty mood then she's pretty unreceptive to remaining in a calm state.

We are talking about counselling and/or therapy, her mother has mentioned it may not be the most suitable option as it could be digging up alot of buried truths from her past, perhaps dropping her in another spell of depression. Interestingly she was taking the anti-depressent Seroxat (now banned) before she was 18 years old, which could have a scarring psychological impact that I have yet to research. She was on this medication as a consequence of her being raped.

Perhaps we are just incompatible- ironic considering that we do function so well together, except where our passion and intimacy are concerned. I understand that sex isn't the be all and end all of a relationship, but it sure would be nice.

She did mention that sex as part of a relationship is most troublesome for her, perhaps why she desires intimacy outside of ours, for it was her boyfriend of the time that raped her- he was young and foolish, he was horny and she wasn't; that wasn't good enough for him. Occassionaly my anger towards this individual struggles to be rationally surpressed, but through her public facing facade of nicety, she wishes for no trouble to be bestowed upon him. He's served a prison or young offenders institute term for a similar offence, but from what I gather, she has relatively little closure on this very particular matter.

Interestingly, aggressive tendancies are occuring in me more frequently for the past several monthes, possibly the result of sexual frustration/tension, but I never act on them as I have an overriding rationality for the situation. Alas though I have yet to achieve the banishment of these thoughts from my mind.

I have mentioned to her of the opportunity for explaining the anguish she endures using online forums where she is provided suitable anonymity, for others to provide insight or bring to light possible therapeutic avenues, although she has yet to take advantage of this possibility.

Alas I have resorted to this method, as my best friend and confidant appears to be the target of her sexual affection, when discussing relationship matters with him I must carefully skirt around this issue, which in itself does not totally relieve my burden.

Sorry for the rambling! This is a subject that my mind frequents daily unfortunately.

SithInHeels
04-27-2006, 02:38 PM
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Dibary
05-01-2006, 05:30 PM
Thanks for your response, it has been most insightful.

We're going to set the ball rolling for therapy tomorrow.

Through our love for each other, I'm positive that it will suceed.

Thanks!!