worried and sad and very tired

[scar tissue]

hmm, i dont know were to start. i know, the problem everyone has, "my girlfriend left me". kinda not the point, well yea its the point i guess, idk. Well she left me, not the first time, but this is for good. We were dating for 3 years, idk the first girl ive ever had real feelings about. I thought we were really going to make it. Honostly, at first it was sort of a relief, i dont mean that in a bad way, like i was kind of free it seemed. Of course i was happy with her, but sometimes i just wanted to crawl away and hide. sometimes i get really mixed up, and she dosnt understand, and she didnt like to deal with me. but its been about 2 weeks, since she left, and i thought i would be ok, you know, i thought ok well maybe she wasnt the right one, i should move on, get over it. not as easy as it sounds. recently it has been troubling me and i can already feel the sadness, i really dont want this to depress me, im tired of going through that crap, ive been doing good with my medicine and trying to be happy, and normal for the past 2 years. well when i get depressed or whatever it comes down hard, and i really dont want to go through this. i havnt sleep much at all, partly because im worried about being depressed, and partly because im starting to get depressed. i guess im just asking for advice, maybe theres away around it, and if not, maybe some non medicated tips on dealing with it and getting over it. i would really like to move on, i dont want this to linger around. man i probely sound horrible, its hard to explain, the other times she left me were for another person, which she ended up not going to anyway, well she already found someone else within the same week she left me, thats why id rather forget it and move on to a better life. I probely sound really stupid, im just really mixed up and really friggin tired, and starting to feel this stupid depression, and i have alot of other crap i already have to worry about. so if anybody has any advice it would be wonderful

and im sorry i wrote so much, but god it feels good to finally get it out, i cant really talk to someone in person about this stuff, well anyway, thank you

[scar tissue]

that makes sense, ill try and get some sleep, thank you

[spooner]

Chicks are all the same and there are always more.

Give it time - I know it sounds cliche, but you'll feel better in a couple days. Just get through it

[scar tissue]

god i know its only been a day since i posted this, but god it has been a horrible fucking day, i want to get over this and its destroying me, i feel like breaking down and just giving up, or breaking something or someones fucking face, maybe i need to get out of the house, idk, i wish i could just move away from this fucking town, these fucking people, this stupid state, and this god forsaken country. sorry i know im just complaining, im trying to get this out, maybe itd help, idk

[Cornball1]

When I'm feeling really shitty I just run(no I don't mean run away) I mean run until I think I'm going to hurl, think my lungs are caving in, then I run some more and while I do that I think. By the time I'm done I'm so exausted I don't care about my origional problem (plus the endorphins have given me one hell of a high!). Then I figure life is just a roller coaster, just like in String Cheese's song. "Roller coaster's gotta roll to the bottem before it can climb to the top again."

[lalalamort]

yeah man scar, i know how your feeling. Cornball gives good advice. Make sure you eat healthyly and keep vitamin levls up especially B group vitamins. Get out and do stuff. This will pass. Don't beat yourself up for complaining, human communication is good thing.

[scar tissue]

alright, thank you