Denial
03-03-2006, 01:10 PM
I just feel like talking about my experiences somewhere...I don't know if anyone will read this, but I'll just post it anyway.
Ok the first time I did Dramamine, it was the first mind-altering drug I'd ever done. I might have gotten drunk once prior to that, I'm not even sure. I was really desperate for something so I was trying to find drugs that would be easy to obtain, since I had no connections (still don't...somebody help.). So I went to the pharmacy section in the grocery store and got a box of the chewable kind of Dramamine (8 in a box) and I didn't that would be enough so I also got a box of 12 non-chewable store-brand pills with the same ingredient.
When I got home, I took the 8 chewables and waited like 15 minutes but I was really impatient so I took 2 of the other pills and tried to wait again...I didn't want to risk having wasted it by not taking enough so I ended up taking all 20 of them...this was probably not a good idea, especially since it was my first time, but oh well, I lucked out.
After about 40 minutes, my body started to feel really heavy. It took a lot of energy to move my limbs. I laid down for a few minutes and hoped it would get better. Then I started to internally panic because I knew I had probably taken too much, and I thought I was going to die. I went downstairs and my dad was on the computer, so I laid down on the couch and waited for him to get off. My dad said something to me at this point, but I don't remember what. I said, "ok" and this was the first time I had spoken since taking the pills and I noticed that it was hard to speak and felt like I had lost my voice. He sort of gave me a weird look, like he was concerned, but then just walked away. I hoped maybe he just figured I was tired or something.
When my dad left the room, I went on the computer and instant messaged my friend and told her what I had done and that I think I'm dying. I noticed that while sitting on the chair, I became 'locked in position' a lot, and would have to shake myself out of it in order to move. I became transfixed in the television, where they were giving Who's Line Is It Anyway? and there was a video in the background with Richard Simmons. I found this extremely puzzling for some reason, and I was staring at the TV wondering if I was just hallucinating what I was seeing. I focused my attention back to the computer, where I had conversations opened with several people. I found myself hallucinating long conversations with people, and then I'd look back at the screen and see that most of the conversation was no longer there. I typed irrelevent responses to questions they never asked, and I would be really confused and ask them if they just said something and they wouldn't know what I was talking about. I found some of the random things I would come up with humorous, but my laughter wouldn't even come out properly so I just sort of made an odd wheezing sound when I tried to laugh. My friend that I had been talking to earlier was no longer online, but I kept thinking that she was and that I was still talking to her. Sometimes I would zone out and imagine scenarios where I was actually talking to people in my house. Once, I had imagined someone breaking into my house, and I instant messaged someone and said, "Who the hell was that just in my house???" and of course they were clueless.
The rest of the night continued on like that. I would zone out and become locked into a position, go into vivid daydreams, and have imaginary conversations with people. I was really confused and amused by all of this, since I had never experienced anything like it. I became transfixed in the TV again when they were giving, I believe Inuyasha or some kind of anime series consisting of a flying tiger. I remember thinking, "What if I was the tiger?", and I would percieve myself as the flying tiger in the TV. Oh, I would also forget what I was typing in the middle of typing it and then start typing something else, which would lead to very bizarre statements. (ex: "You can become anything but fish.", and You better checkity check yourself before you were married.") I also saw large clear spiders forming and walking around the area by my monitor, and little red dots moving around on plain surfaces.
Another experience I had with Dramamine, I was with a friend of mine. She had only taken about 12 pills and I had taken about 20. She had planned to stay over that night so she wouldn't have to go home on anything. She had a different reaction to the Dramamine at first; she started shaking and her heartbeat was racing. I was very worried and felt extremely guilty for getting her into this. I noticed my own heartbeat was going pretty fast, but I was more worried about my friend. We both lied down and tried to remain calm. After a while, my friend suddenly stopped shaking and explained that she had just imagined being in a factory and a machine shut off, at the same exact time she had stopped shaking.
We were afraid of dehydrating, so I went downstairs to get some water. Who would have thought getting water could be such a complicated process! There was an endless cycle of me daydreaming about going downstairs and getting water, then realizing that I hadn't gone at all, so I'd have to do it over again. Then, once I had gotten the water, I would think that I hadn't gotten it yet, and then go back to get it, then realize I had already gotten it. When I finally managed to bring the water upstairs, one of us would knock it over, and I'd have to start the process all over again. This cycle continued throughout the night. Also, I kept trying to pick up a glass of water where there was none, and my hand would go through air.
We didn't move around or interact too much; mostly we were sitting on the floor, each zoning out and not paying attention to the other. Sometimes I would look at her face and I'd tell her that she had little hairs moving around and laugh. At one point, I recall her saying, "Your lips are bright red, you're about to puke blood!" I panicked and moved towards the garbage can, then quickly zoned out again and forget about it. I never puked blood or puked at all for that matter, so I imagine she had hallucinated my lips being red. I mentioned this to her later, and she doesn't even remember saying it.
At one point, we both saw clear spiders coming towards us at the same time. We somehow reasoned that they couldn't get to us if we were on the bed, so we moved onto the bed and sat there. We continued zoning out, and she would start enthusiastically telling me about something that she had just imagined, then I would zone out again and when I came back she would still be talking and I'd say "I have no idea what you just said" and we'd both laugh. We also both kept thinking that our other friends were there. Once I heard her saying something directed to our other friend and I reminded her that she wasn't there and we both started laughing again. Periodically, when I would be zoned out, she would hit me and tell me that my eyes were rolling into the back of my skull, and I would be annoyed and say "I don't care". Also, she would frequently get up and start putting her jacket on and getting her bag and when I asked what she was doing she'd say "I have to go" and I'd remind her that she was sleeping over then she'd say "Oh yeah!" and come sit back down on the bed, only to repeat the same cycle again five minutes later.
Eventually we both went to sleep, and she woke me the next morning to tell me she was leaving. The next day I was really tired and slept through basically the whole day, then the day after that I felt like the first day was a blurry dream and the day after didn't happen at all. I spoke to my friend and she said that she had been really out of it the next day. All in all it left us feeling really confused and a bit dumber, not too much recreational value. I wouldn't recommend this drug, but I've done it a few more times after that mostly because I've been desperate and this was before I discovered DXM.
Other experiences I had with Dramamine and Benadryl (pretty much the same thing) were similar. The worst part about these drugs is that I have no way of knowing what's real and what isn't. I could think I have full control, but I don't at all. A couple of times I had to talk to my mom while on one of these drugs, and I kept just answering questions she never asked and saying things that were completely irrelevent. She thought I was just delirious from no sleep. She'd ask if I had gotten any sleep, and I'd say, "What? My sister has a BMW?" and I'd ask her if dad was bringing home dinner soon or if she was cooking and she'd say, "It's 6 in the morning". At one point I told her, "I like that commercial", and she asked what commercial, and I replied, "The one in the sink". I have also vomited sometimes from taking too much Benadryl or Dramamine. One time I hallucinated bugs in the toilet that looked so real, and I tried to convince my mom that they were there and I would never use that toilet again and she told me that it was just stains and nothing was there. I was convinced that there were bugs until the next day, when I saw that there was nothing.
That's pretty much it for this drug, I probably wouldn't do it again unless I was really desperate or maybe mixed with DXM. It's not the most enjoyable, but it definately makes for interesting stories.
Oh, another thing I forgot to mention is the disgusting taste that is hard to avoid when you swallow the pills (unless it's the chewable kind) and you still taste it the next day. I kept eating sweet tarts to try to get rid of the taste, but it was still there and it's horrible!
Ok the first time I did Dramamine, it was the first mind-altering drug I'd ever done. I might have gotten drunk once prior to that, I'm not even sure. I was really desperate for something so I was trying to find drugs that would be easy to obtain, since I had no connections (still don't...somebody help.). So I went to the pharmacy section in the grocery store and got a box of the chewable kind of Dramamine (8 in a box) and I didn't that would be enough so I also got a box of 12 non-chewable store-brand pills with the same ingredient.
When I got home, I took the 8 chewables and waited like 15 minutes but I was really impatient so I took 2 of the other pills and tried to wait again...I didn't want to risk having wasted it by not taking enough so I ended up taking all 20 of them...this was probably not a good idea, especially since it was my first time, but oh well, I lucked out.
After about 40 minutes, my body started to feel really heavy. It took a lot of energy to move my limbs. I laid down for a few minutes and hoped it would get better. Then I started to internally panic because I knew I had probably taken too much, and I thought I was going to die. I went downstairs and my dad was on the computer, so I laid down on the couch and waited for him to get off. My dad said something to me at this point, but I don't remember what. I said, "ok" and this was the first time I had spoken since taking the pills and I noticed that it was hard to speak and felt like I had lost my voice. He sort of gave me a weird look, like he was concerned, but then just walked away. I hoped maybe he just figured I was tired or something.
When my dad left the room, I went on the computer and instant messaged my friend and told her what I had done and that I think I'm dying. I noticed that while sitting on the chair, I became 'locked in position' a lot, and would have to shake myself out of it in order to move. I became transfixed in the television, where they were giving Who's Line Is It Anyway? and there was a video in the background with Richard Simmons. I found this extremely puzzling for some reason, and I was staring at the TV wondering if I was just hallucinating what I was seeing. I focused my attention back to the computer, where I had conversations opened with several people. I found myself hallucinating long conversations with people, and then I'd look back at the screen and see that most of the conversation was no longer there. I typed irrelevent responses to questions they never asked, and I would be really confused and ask them if they just said something and they wouldn't know what I was talking about. I found some of the random things I would come up with humorous, but my laughter wouldn't even come out properly so I just sort of made an odd wheezing sound when I tried to laugh. My friend that I had been talking to earlier was no longer online, but I kept thinking that she was and that I was still talking to her. Sometimes I would zone out and imagine scenarios where I was actually talking to people in my house. Once, I had imagined someone breaking into my house, and I instant messaged someone and said, "Who the hell was that just in my house???" and of course they were clueless.
The rest of the night continued on like that. I would zone out and become locked into a position, go into vivid daydreams, and have imaginary conversations with people. I was really confused and amused by all of this, since I had never experienced anything like it. I became transfixed in the TV again when they were giving, I believe Inuyasha or some kind of anime series consisting of a flying tiger. I remember thinking, "What if I was the tiger?", and I would percieve myself as the flying tiger in the TV. Oh, I would also forget what I was typing in the middle of typing it and then start typing something else, which would lead to very bizarre statements. (ex: "You can become anything but fish.", and You better checkity check yourself before you were married.") I also saw large clear spiders forming and walking around the area by my monitor, and little red dots moving around on plain surfaces.
Another experience I had with Dramamine, I was with a friend of mine. She had only taken about 12 pills and I had taken about 20. She had planned to stay over that night so she wouldn't have to go home on anything. She had a different reaction to the Dramamine at first; she started shaking and her heartbeat was racing. I was very worried and felt extremely guilty for getting her into this. I noticed my own heartbeat was going pretty fast, but I was more worried about my friend. We both lied down and tried to remain calm. After a while, my friend suddenly stopped shaking and explained that she had just imagined being in a factory and a machine shut off, at the same exact time she had stopped shaking.
We were afraid of dehydrating, so I went downstairs to get some water. Who would have thought getting water could be such a complicated process! There was an endless cycle of me daydreaming about going downstairs and getting water, then realizing that I hadn't gone at all, so I'd have to do it over again. Then, once I had gotten the water, I would think that I hadn't gotten it yet, and then go back to get it, then realize I had already gotten it. When I finally managed to bring the water upstairs, one of us would knock it over, and I'd have to start the process all over again. This cycle continued throughout the night. Also, I kept trying to pick up a glass of water where there was none, and my hand would go through air.
We didn't move around or interact too much; mostly we were sitting on the floor, each zoning out and not paying attention to the other. Sometimes I would look at her face and I'd tell her that she had little hairs moving around and laugh. At one point, I recall her saying, "Your lips are bright red, you're about to puke blood!" I panicked and moved towards the garbage can, then quickly zoned out again and forget about it. I never puked blood or puked at all for that matter, so I imagine she had hallucinated my lips being red. I mentioned this to her later, and she doesn't even remember saying it.
At one point, we both saw clear spiders coming towards us at the same time. We somehow reasoned that they couldn't get to us if we were on the bed, so we moved onto the bed and sat there. We continued zoning out, and she would start enthusiastically telling me about something that she had just imagined, then I would zone out again and when I came back she would still be talking and I'd say "I have no idea what you just said" and we'd both laugh. We also both kept thinking that our other friends were there. Once I heard her saying something directed to our other friend and I reminded her that she wasn't there and we both started laughing again. Periodically, when I would be zoned out, she would hit me and tell me that my eyes were rolling into the back of my skull, and I would be annoyed and say "I don't care". Also, she would frequently get up and start putting her jacket on and getting her bag and when I asked what she was doing she'd say "I have to go" and I'd remind her that she was sleeping over then she'd say "Oh yeah!" and come sit back down on the bed, only to repeat the same cycle again five minutes later.
Eventually we both went to sleep, and she woke me the next morning to tell me she was leaving. The next day I was really tired and slept through basically the whole day, then the day after that I felt like the first day was a blurry dream and the day after didn't happen at all. I spoke to my friend and she said that she had been really out of it the next day. All in all it left us feeling really confused and a bit dumber, not too much recreational value. I wouldn't recommend this drug, but I've done it a few more times after that mostly because I've been desperate and this was before I discovered DXM.
Other experiences I had with Dramamine and Benadryl (pretty much the same thing) were similar. The worst part about these drugs is that I have no way of knowing what's real and what isn't. I could think I have full control, but I don't at all. A couple of times I had to talk to my mom while on one of these drugs, and I kept just answering questions she never asked and saying things that were completely irrelevent. She thought I was just delirious from no sleep. She'd ask if I had gotten any sleep, and I'd say, "What? My sister has a BMW?" and I'd ask her if dad was bringing home dinner soon or if she was cooking and she'd say, "It's 6 in the morning". At one point I told her, "I like that commercial", and she asked what commercial, and I replied, "The one in the sink". I have also vomited sometimes from taking too much Benadryl or Dramamine. One time I hallucinated bugs in the toilet that looked so real, and I tried to convince my mom that they were there and I would never use that toilet again and she told me that it was just stains and nothing was there. I was convinced that there were bugs until the next day, when I saw that there was nothing.
That's pretty much it for this drug, I probably wouldn't do it again unless I was really desperate or maybe mixed with DXM. It's not the most enjoyable, but it definately makes for interesting stories.
Oh, another thing I forgot to mention is the disgusting taste that is hard to avoid when you swallow the pills (unless it's the chewable kind) and you still taste it the next day. I kept eating sweet tarts to try to get rid of the taste, but it was still there and it's horrible!