SamuraiSeahorse
07-04-2004, 10:01 PM
After part one I swore not to do mushrooms again. But a week later when the memories had faded adn I was remembering the fun bits more I decided to try again.
We were having a gathering at Chris' house.last night...just four of us and we all bought some Thai and Indian shrooms from a Hippy shop in leicester called the Very Bazaar.
Before hand, Dan had told me...cos I asked him of what it actually is that the drug physically does to your brain to make these freaky things happen.....which helped me as it put the effects into perspective.
This trip was better but still scary. Heres the tale.
After about an hour we were seeing the swirly patterns and breathing curtains and stuff. We all felt really weird. I couldnt stop moving and vibrating my limbs...by joints felt really weird...like they didnt want just stretching...they needed dislocating! And I had this weird urge to gnaw on my hands........we were giggly and it was fun.........
Eventually we were getting deeper into it. Everyone was enjoying it but I was beginning then to realise that perhaps this was too soon after last time.
As I began to feel feelings that happened last time it began worrying me.....Dan kept randomly talking to himself, and waving his hands about and saying things in a tone of voice that remeinded me of last time.
The Zow was returning and I kept drifting into Avebury and the whole setting of last time.........
I was getting worried....but I was still in control...reminding myself its wasnt real..we were all safe. It was COOL.
Then the walls and Dave got seriously distorted and suddenly like a big wave Zow grabbed my mind from my head! Tool was on the stero and it was some weird distorted phasing vocal going on which just helped to lead me deeper into it.
I felt this urge to go down...dooooooooooown dooooown dooown into the Zooooooooooow. zooooow zoow...I felt like things were grabbing my head and pulling me and I could intense images of random scary shit.....I wasnt in the room anymore...couldnt even see the room......Oh no. I was back in Zow again. It was just like when I lost my connection to reality by the St Johns Ambulance happening all over again.
I drifted back to reality and everyone was standing up and going "Oh God, Oh God, get an ambulance...Jesus Christ..."
I opened my eyes and moved. The world slowly swam back into focus and I was shaking like a leaf.
I had that sick chunks feeling in my throat and the acid of sick in my nose and burning my throat. But again. I hadn't thrown up.
Dan was panicking and Chris and Dave were a mixture of panic and relief.
I was lying there saying "I'm fine....its cool......its all good."
But I was in a state of shock and I lay with Dan on the settee. I needed him holding me and cuddling me to keep my in reality check.....and I was constantly fighting...a really hard fight with my mind to stay in my own world and to not go back into Zow.
Then they put on some crap Arnold Schwarzennegger film. And that actually really helped as it gave me a focus point of reality to concentrate on
It took me a full hour before I could allow myself to think and ask about what the fuck happened without danger of relapse.
I scared the shit out of everyone.....Apparently my eyes rolled up into the back of my head....I was choking and gasping on air and I slid to the ground completely limp and lifeless apart from the choking....I couldnt breath properly and they really were gonna get an ambulance....Chris was crying and they all thought I was going to die.......then I just came to and acted like nothing ever happened.
Scary thing is...all I know about is what happened in the Zow....in my head...I have absolutely no concept or idea about what was happening to my physical body.....
After that I lay there all night...completely drained and scared and randomly shaking.
Now all day I've felt paranoid and kind of depressed and just all weird. I think I fried my brain.
Does anyone have any idea of what happened to me there?????
Now I've learnt my lesson. I will NEVER take a full dose again. I'll stick with the half dose like I did the very first time. And I'll wait a LOOOONG time before I do. I liked the first time...when things were all weird looking but I was still in reality. Before I ever knew the terror of the Zow......
We were having a gathering at Chris' house.last night...just four of us and we all bought some Thai and Indian shrooms from a Hippy shop in leicester called the Very Bazaar.
Before hand, Dan had told me...cos I asked him of what it actually is that the drug physically does to your brain to make these freaky things happen.....which helped me as it put the effects into perspective.
This trip was better but still scary. Heres the tale.
After about an hour we were seeing the swirly patterns and breathing curtains and stuff. We all felt really weird. I couldnt stop moving and vibrating my limbs...by joints felt really weird...like they didnt want just stretching...they needed dislocating! And I had this weird urge to gnaw on my hands........we were giggly and it was fun.........
Eventually we were getting deeper into it. Everyone was enjoying it but I was beginning then to realise that perhaps this was too soon after last time.
As I began to feel feelings that happened last time it began worrying me.....Dan kept randomly talking to himself, and waving his hands about and saying things in a tone of voice that remeinded me of last time.
The Zow was returning and I kept drifting into Avebury and the whole setting of last time.........
I was getting worried....but I was still in control...reminding myself its wasnt real..we were all safe. It was COOL.
Then the walls and Dave got seriously distorted and suddenly like a big wave Zow grabbed my mind from my head! Tool was on the stero and it was some weird distorted phasing vocal going on which just helped to lead me deeper into it.
I felt this urge to go down...dooooooooooown dooooown dooown into the Zooooooooooow. zooooow zoow...I felt like things were grabbing my head and pulling me and I could intense images of random scary shit.....I wasnt in the room anymore...couldnt even see the room......Oh no. I was back in Zow again. It was just like when I lost my connection to reality by the St Johns Ambulance happening all over again.
I drifted back to reality and everyone was standing up and going "Oh God, Oh God, get an ambulance...Jesus Christ..."
I opened my eyes and moved. The world slowly swam back into focus and I was shaking like a leaf.
I had that sick chunks feeling in my throat and the acid of sick in my nose and burning my throat. But again. I hadn't thrown up.
Dan was panicking and Chris and Dave were a mixture of panic and relief.
I was lying there saying "I'm fine....its cool......its all good."
But I was in a state of shock and I lay with Dan on the settee. I needed him holding me and cuddling me to keep my in reality check.....and I was constantly fighting...a really hard fight with my mind to stay in my own world and to not go back into Zow.
Then they put on some crap Arnold Schwarzennegger film. And that actually really helped as it gave me a focus point of reality to concentrate on
It took me a full hour before I could allow myself to think and ask about what the fuck happened without danger of relapse.
I scared the shit out of everyone.....Apparently my eyes rolled up into the back of my head....I was choking and gasping on air and I slid to the ground completely limp and lifeless apart from the choking....I couldnt breath properly and they really were gonna get an ambulance....Chris was crying and they all thought I was going to die.......then I just came to and acted like nothing ever happened.
Scary thing is...all I know about is what happened in the Zow....in my head...I have absolutely no concept or idea about what was happening to my physical body.....
After that I lay there all night...completely drained and scared and randomly shaking.
Now all day I've felt paranoid and kind of depressed and just all weird. I think I fried my brain.
Does anyone have any idea of what happened to me there?????
Now I've learnt my lesson. I will NEVER take a full dose again. I'll stick with the half dose like I did the very first time. And I'll wait a LOOOONG time before I do. I liked the first time...when things were all weird looking but I was still in reality. Before I ever knew the terror of the Zow......