Is he my Soulmate/Soul Love?

[livingwater]

I have a weird/soul love situation I desire to share;

I have a lover who is not really in my life anymore. We have connected in alot of ways,had beautiful,cosmic type conversations where I could feel energy flyu between us. We have almost the same music taste,have similar religious back-ground that were attempted to be forced on us in childhoods-etc..., I have not seen him since 8/03 and we are 1 state apart. When I lost total contact w/ him and his family in early 11/03 I tried to forget him...His spirit seemed unaccessable and far wary in many ways...I lost his pictures, special reminders/things I had of him....I even put him out of mind...After sev. months passed- I had a dream- that put him back in my mind- I tried calling but I had the feeling he and his Uncle had moved and had a dream of it(this later turned out to be real true)...
I continued having powerful dreams of him- even though in my dream -we were not really face to face to often -I had more contact w/ his family. I had misplaced his pictures somehow and mementos and wished to find them-but could not...I had more dreams -I meditated-spoke w/ several psychic people-and even followed my intuition while one psychic said "the person U love is not as far as u think..,"-(see I thought they were actually many states farther than they were)However, one day while after seemingly being guided by a spirit-mine/my lover's or another I do not know- I picked up a book on my bookcase-and out his 7 pictures fell!!!I was happy because I felt closer linked to my still long lost lover friend.
I had the number of his grandmother and on Easter called her to find out how he was doing.I missed him so much- and I was nervous about calling but proceeded nonetheless.She told me that he was only 1state from me and living back with his immediate family.I was relieved that he was doing well and happy that he was closer than I expected.She gave me his number and a few weeks later I decided to give him a ring.We talked for a while but we still were distant towards each other...but I could tell he really missed me.
I got back in touch with his family too and -we have spoken a couple of times since then about plans together -hanging out...
Even though he's far away and I have not seen him or talk to him often o the phone I feel our spirits are trully connected. I do not know how or why but I sense it.He's a Scorpio and I am a Pisces...and I know I get along with Scorpios very well. My question is to anyone, what do u think of the situation? Do u think we have a spiritual bond that transcends time,Space?Can he sense me when I am not around? Are we Soulmates? Am
I in love? I am not sure- like I said I tried to put him out of my mind-and I am not the "hold on-to-a-guy-type"I welcome anyone's comments on this
Thank you so much for reading this long story-

[Cloudminerva]

Stay in touch with him. it seems to me that there is a great link between you two. Revitalize your relationship with him. Stick to old favorite acivities with him and discover some new ones. Yoo two may very well be meant for each other. stick it out and see what becomes of it :)

Ben.

[livingwater]

Yeah,

I am trying to... I heard from one of his family members that he is possibly thinking serious baout moving back or at least hanging out a while in N.C.- he had has it where he lives...work is keeping him there 4 now...if it's meant to be- It will be- I can not imagine being w/ anyone else like I've been w/ him

[Cloudminerva]

If you feel that way about him, then it seems to me that everything should come together in time. You are doing the right thing since you feel that way. I hope the best for you! Take care.

Ben.

[agarzenry]

i can only give you advice from my experiences and the lessons i have learned from these. i had a similar situation to you, but i made a mistake because i moved away and i didn't tell him anything about what i felt for him even though the previous year he had declared his love for me. i always felt connected to him and i really loved him, but because i was scared and didn't believe enough i didn't get in touch with him. a similarly stupid thing i did was not give him anyway to keep in touch with me. he wouldn't have anyways because i allowed my own insecurities to take control over my trust in him. i found out this year he has moved to canada and like you just when i thought i'd gitten over it he visits me through my dreams. this to me indicatees that the situation is unresolved and it is my biggest regret. it might not have worked but i never gave it any chance whatsoever.
so my advice is... go for it, believe enough in him and yourself. you lose nothing by trying. sometimes you have to lay it on the line... i wish i had of.

good luck...if it is meant to be it will be...but a little nudge doesn't hurt.
peace and love
Zenry

[livingwater]

Thank you everybody so much for listening to this true saga of mine...I appreciate your support,advice and listening ear.

It just sometimes seems like a mystery- but I do agree with when someone-esp. a lover that is distant and still remembered appears in a dream -there are unfinished issues. Do u feel that he too, has had my spirit in his dreams? I do not think it is just me.., and sometimes I feel like I sense him...I know this may sound ridiculous but...I get that feeling.I do not know how real it all is but -I do not think I am imagining it or hoping to much...
I did alot of holding back, when he was in my life fully.., that is some of the guilt I have...I know he knew I cared about him and that we had something special.., and that we were godd lovers.., but I do not know if he felt the true depth of my love...I even think that since we have physically been absent from one another- my love has grown deeper or at least more realized...I do not know if there is another soul love who could care more for him than I - if there is he definitley deserves to find that person.
We have an age difference thing but that never really made much dif..he & I found that a turn on- he's now 35 (he looks 26 and even says that he is sometimes) and I, 21. the only thing is he is not as spiritual as I am...and I do not know if that is him being secretive/mysterious(he's a scorpio) or he really is that way.., he may have even grown more into his spirituality since our last seeing eahc other-and if he is dreaming,sensing and missing me like I am him.., I would think that he has become more spiritual. Well, I apologize for writing so very much- it just keeps pouring out...Thank you for reading
Livingwater

[barefoot_boy]

It seems there is a real love there.You should probably pursue it.Though
I wouldn't bother with physchics.I don't think they are real.The "magic"
you are feeling is from the love.
Peace

[livingwater]

Thanx Barefoot Boy,

I think it is Love too.., sometimes I can not be so sure- My lover is moving back to N.C. inthe next two weeks hopefully- that is what his fam tells me..I do not know what the next 2weeks holds for me and him but- I trust that things will work out the way they do.. I just get so hesitant and shy and reluctant sometimes...(The hush -up bug likes to bite me.)

[DandelionPrincess]

what a sweet story...i'm glad to hear you get to see him again! good luck to the both of you! :)

[cerridwen]

Try hooking up and see what happens. Try to meet each other and spend a few days together, see if it's worth persuing a relationship. You both have to be on the same page about it, but it does seem as if you two were ment to be together....