I want my parents to die. This is not teen angst.

[Rigamarole]

My parents came to visit me a few weeks ago.

A moment came when I realized their life's journey is soon to be over. They have fulfilled their purpose, they are suffering (emotionally, they always have), and there is no reason for it to continue. They will never change because they do not desire it. I saw this in them, and lately I have been getting many strange and unexplained feelings, including a sickness that lasted a few days.

I have no qualms with my parents, though I had a rough childhood and adolesence I have made my peace with them. I feel ready to take my place as a man in the world and I know that I won't be able to fully do that until at least my father is dead.

I have no unresolved conflicts or guilt associated with them, as I have felt the grip they had over me dissolve over the years since I have left their house. It pervaded my conciousness until well after I left them, but I have finally broken free of it.

I am ready for the cycle of life to continue. Though of course I do not know exactly when it will happen, I know that it will be soon. I have no regrets. I embrace what awaits me. All of it, the joy and the pain. They come together after all, you can't get a hot dog without the bun!

[Xac]

You can get a hot dog with out the bun, they call it a sausage further more if you have "no qualms" with you parents then why did you want to murder them? it sounds like you want to end their "suffering" but dont you think it should be them that decide when they are ready for such a thing to happen? don't you think they should be allowed to have a purpose in life, even if you dont believe in it?

[Rigamarole]

Whoa, hold on. I don't want to murder them. I just want them to die.

I didn't say that I want to end their suffering. I simply observed that this is the case and it will soon happen. Frankly, it doesn't bother me either way but it interests me to see the story of their lives coming full circle.

[Xac]

Whoa, hold on. I don't want to murder them. I just want them to die.

I didn't say that I want to end their suffering. I simply observed that this is the case and it will soon happen. Frankly, it doesn't bother me either way but it interests me to see the story of their lives coming full circle.Sorry for taking what you said out of context, there are a few extrememe people on this board.

Not that i understand why you want them to die either.

[Gentle]

I love this site, it is full of nutters like you, I mean get over it man, l mean whats with the ' they have fullfilled their purpose' business, you sound like f*cking Darth Vader. Wanting people to die isnt healthy. In fact I find it quite amusing to read your posting in the voice of James Earl Jones, or that rich guy in The Big Lebowski . HA !
do you mean the other Jeffrey Lebowski who had the wife that was resposible for Woo peeing on the Dudes rugs? They come and pee on his fucking rug! Thats right dude they peed on your fucking rug.

[Gentle]

It did tie the room together too!

[RxHEAD]

Huh, not sure what this is all about. I was just thinking to myself "am I the only one who skipped meds today?" Think I had better take my meds cause either I'm undermedicated or this is really whacked out hard to follow delusion of my mind.

[soulrebel51]

who are you to decide what their purpose in life is, let alone be the one who says they've fulfilled it and need to die??

you are one sick motherfucker.

[mystical_shroom]

May I suggest that you need a good swift kick in the ass.. I couldnt even finish reading your post cause it was so ridiculous...

[daisymae]

I'm glad you are not my kid. If you don't even live with them, they are not bothering you and if you don't like what they have to say, you can just go home....

They have fulfilled their purpose
How...by having you? Get over yourself, you are not that great a feat.

Wishing death on the people who raised you and took care of you is stupid and (I hate using this word) immature. I didn't always get along with my parents, but you know what? I am a grownup now, and I didn't get here on my own. This is exactly "teenage angst"....either that or you are a nutjob who thinks killing them would be helpful....

[mystical_shroom]

I sense Menendez brothers all over again...

[Oz!]

I feel ready to take my place as a man in the world and I know that I won't be able to fully do that until at least my father is dead.
how odd, i'm a different person to my father.....I don't have the feeling that he has/can take away from my own feeling of place in the world....

Do you think you have to become your father? fill his boots when he's gone?

[come_do_drawrings]

Whoa, hold on. I don't want to murder them. I just want them to die.

I didn't say that I want to end their suffering. I simply observed that this is the case and it will soon happen. Frankly, it doesn't bother me either way but it interests me to see the story of their lives coming full circle.
i thought i understood some of what you were saying in your first post but this seems to be way more understandable...
i think in this kind of setting (forums) it is hard for other people to understand unless they have had time to get use to your way of typing and explaining things...
so yea some of what you said was well lets say a bit confusing....


but anyway back to what i think you were tryingto get at ....hmmm
was it that you realized that your parents are getting older and there for are getting closer to death and you see this as the end to thier journey?
and if thats the case no worries man...i think that thought goes thru alot of peoples minds
its good to hear that even tho you had a rough childhood & adolesence that you can forgive them and move on but i am curious as to why you think you can only take your place as a man when your father dies...

"I feel ready to take my place as a man in the world and I know that I won't be able to fully do that until at least my father is dead."<--- see this kind of makes you look abit cRazY

[daisymae]

Sorry, but you are not a prince, and your father dying will not make you a king.

If you really think his life is holding yours back, you will be in for a big surprise when he does die....you will still be exactly the way you are now.

Are your parents rich or something? Are you waiting for the money?

[YellowBellyHippy]

This is sad.... I hope that my children never feel this way about me. I love them so much and to think they could ever feel this way about me makes me want to cry. I pour my heart and soul into them.

I don't think anyone has the right to say when they think someone should die. Our reality is much bigger then what we see at the moment. Your parents life has much value. You are not the only person in their life.

I say you need some help, counseling, or maybe a deep look within.

[come_do_drawrings]

yellowbellyhippy you are so right...
i was trying to point out the most positive side i could but i would most definetly be heartbroken if any of my children were to think something like that...
what i ment was i myself have had thoughts that my parents are getting older and that means at some point (hopefully later rather then sooner) they will be done with thier "journey" thats all i was able to connect with
but my goodness the whole bit about taking his place as a man and only being able to do that when his father dies...well thats just weird

side note.. i love my mom & dad
not sure why but i just wanted to say that :p

[mystical_shroom]

its not like his parents are dying a slow miserable painful death and wants to put them out of their misery...

[Hikaru Zero]

Well ...

Honestly, I understand where the original poster is coming from.

Right now, I wish my parents would die as well. Except, it's not because I'm at peace with them, I truly hate them right now (or at least my father), and I have for a few years.

I completely understand the view that they have "fulfilled their purpose," because my parents also have, I just haven't come to peace with them (nor do I really plan on it). Like the original poster, my parents just ... they don't want to change. They KNOW that they are doing a bad job of just ... everything in general, and they are so ridiculously ignorant and arrogant, and they have this web of control that they are exercizing over me that I literally just can't get out of, and it's sick because it makes them feel even more powerful.

Anyway, enough about my parents. I guess I'm just defending the original poster because I completely sympathize with him. Perhaps one day I'll come to peace with it all, but ... he makes a lot of sense, don't bash him just because of his view on his parents.

Peace out.

[mystical_shroom]

My parents are beyond crazy and treat me like absolute shit, but I in no way shape or form want them to die..

this thread is really a good example of why not to have kids....

[Bikshu]

I hope to one day make affordable psychiatric care available to all. Those of you who hate your parents are still letting them control your thoughts more than you realize. You need to learn to self actualize and be constructive about the problem.

[jonsworld]

man your right...they should die but i say they should have died before you were born . you self rightious prick. who the hell are you to decide such things.....oh i remember who you are ...your the self rightious prick!

[YellowBellyHippy]

My parents are beyond crazy and treat me like absolute shit, but I in no way shape or form want them to die..

this thread is really a good example of why not to have kids....No, its not a good example.... Being a parent is a wonderful and loving thing and I deeply enjoy it.
I think this thread is a perfect example of human ignorance.

Every life has a purpose. That purpose is to Live. Maybe the posters mother (or father) has internal growth left to do. Things that the poster knows nothing about.

I think this post is also a perfect example on realizing that your parents aren't perfect, they are human. Once you are an adult why not act like one and take on the responsibility of one and become an asset to society instead of being cruel and cold.

Why not be an inspiration for your parents?

Why wish death upon anyone? Why not wish a continued life full of love and peace untill they grow old and are ready?

I think you should really do some soul searching and realize that now you are an adult you can spread your wings and fly and become even better. Every day you can choose to be better. No-one needs to die for you to make that choice. I think you should go get some flowers for your mother and a card for your father and thank them for giving you the beautiful gift of life.

I think you need to look into the beauty of life and understand that life is for living.

I really do hope that you can find an inner happiness and calm and realize that your parents are very much a gift to you. They love you and I hope that before its too late you accept them as an asset to your life and our beautful planet.

Edited to add~ I hope that my parents can live as long as possible so they can see every acheivement I make. Im 28 and still seek to make them proud. It makes me very happy to see my children love them with every drop.
I was raised by a single father so when I say parents I mean my dad and his wife. But Im very close to be dad.
When my dad becomes very old and needs care, I will be there to take care of him to the very end because he nurtured and cared for me.

This entire OP is so sad :(

[mystical_shroom]

No, its not a good example.... Being a parent is a wonderful and loving thing and I deeply enjoy it.
I think this thread is a perfect example of human ignorance.

I dont think you understood my comment at all....

[YellowBellyHippy]

I dont think you understood my comment at all....
If I did I do apologize, But I took it as you ment people shouldn't have kids because the result is the OP'er

[mystical_shroom]

If I did I do apologize, But I took it as you ment people shouldn't have kids because the result is the OP'er
well dont apologize hon.. I meant it as a joke, cause I think its horrible to say how you want your parents to die, or to even fascinate about your parents death, thats just horrible imo...and was being sarcastic with my comment "this is another reason why not to have kids" I didnt mean it, just being sarcastic cause I could never imagine myself wanting my parents to die, ya know...

[come_do_drawrings]

Edited to add~ I hope that my parents can live as long as possible so they can see every acheivement I make. Im 28 and still seek to make them proud. It makes me very happy to see my children love them with every drop.
I was raised by a single father so when I say parents I mean my dad and his wife. But Im very close to be dad.
When my dad becomes very old and needs care, I will be there to take care of him to the very end because he nurtured and cared for me.

This entire OP is so sad :(i think you are a very sweet person
but i don't think shroom ment any harm by what she said...

anyway...yea um wishing people were dead is not my thing ...
one more time just to clarify, I only ment that I understand thinking that my parents are getting closer to thier end but i most certainly would not wish for it to be any sooner then it will be...
darn it this thread is putting a bad taste in my mouth :$


edit~ i took a rather long time in replying and now i feel silly :&

[YellowBellyHippy]

well dont apologize hon.. I meant it as a joke, cause I think its horrible to say how you want your parents to die, or to even fascinate about your parents death, thats just horrible imo...and was being sarcastic with my comment "this is another reason why not to have kids" I didnt mean it, just being sarcastic cause I could never imagine myself wanting my parents to die, ya know...
:) Its hard to understand tone on the internet....I know what you mean, its just so sad.... I wish people would value life more.

[Apples+Oranjes]

I just want to say:
Be careful what you wish for.

I'm not going to lash out on anyone, it's not my style-- but, poster: please, do be careful of what you wish for.

I used to wish that my parents would get divorced while I was going through my teen angst period--- and now they are, and I feel horrible, and I wish I never would have thought that way.

I was so digusted by my parents in every way up until a year or two ago when they decided to call it quits... It was a KICK in the face, and made me realize how MUCH I loved both of them.

Now I honestly can't get enough of talking to my parents; I regret every moment I spent angry with them, and every moment that I had wished they would end it.

I'd also like to point out--that my mother used to wish things like this about her father, and then he killed himself [when I was 3]--- and now she regrets the way she was with him everyday... and has been in and out of therapy for depression over the issue.

[RxHEAD]

Numbly pondering the death of my father. Looking back two decades and a few years I can not help at times at many times wonder, if the man who abandoned my mother and my siblings, never paid child support, left us with now income. Hes been 'dead' for years. I could say I would have had a much more decent emotionally stable childhood, had the biological father who lived just 4 blocks away from us, never making effort to even see his children, no effort to even care. No emotional, finacual, help to his family our family would have greatly benifited from his death back then.

As a child having a dead father would have been closure instead of knowing he was down the street and cared not enough to see his children, get a job, yet managed to make it to his daily drunk. Had he have just up and died the grieving for the stranger made to his children over twenty years ago would be of an excusable nature. Not that of simple stranger he remains today. My family could have lived off his Social Security and had a better life back then.

My father is walking around alive yet dead to his own children. He is really such a stranger even though I seen him a month ago. He is dead in some ways. The abandoment will follow me till he dies, which will not matter now, as it is not easy to grieve over the death of a total stranger. His death when his liver fails or what ever will simply be that of final closure in a long messed up book.

His total abandonment had it been the caused by death, would have been much easier to process, to understand, to be excusable, not blackout I love you's and drunken forgotten promises made over and over. His death would do not benifit for me now, unless I would be able to have the trust fund he lives upon, become the next generation passed down trust fund to me to live off of his son. Either way the damage is done and irreversable so if he lives or dies either way no one wins. lol makes me wonder if he comes here to this site and read this post and says "is that my son?" he would never really know. Like I dont know him.

[Gentle]

Bad Oedipud! bad! go to your room now!!!!!

[rubytuesday]

It's Oedipus, not Oedipud.
Oedipus didn't know he was killing his father when he killed him. Also, he fucked his mother, but he didn't know it was her either, when they did the deed. When he found out who he'd actually been killing/fucking, he blinded himself.