Nostalgia

[Weatherman]

Nostalgia is creeping up my spine
Makes me want to kill myself so I can stay in this moment for the rest of time
I knew it then someway, somehow
That ten years later this won't be here and now
It's funny how it all passes by so fast
How comfort is so fleeting and nothing really lasts
I'm so afraid of the future and that looking back
I'll regret this life I've lived and my current past
I don't want to feel like I missed out on anything
That I didn't love enough or love for real
That I wasn't worth the experience
That I didn't approach life with zeal
I passed out on a mirror
I blacked out and I fear
When I wake up
It's gonna freak me out
And oh fuck
Then I'll see things clear
No pretension
I just want an extension
On these moments that make up the days that make up a wasted life
Do you got a knife?
I want to cut my head open wide
Take a look inside
Dig around like a scavenger
Chew on what's left of sanity
And try to build a castle of order in a sandbox of chaos