I'm a bar baby...

[Midnighttoker]

Well, I can't sleep without them and I get really depressed if I can't take one before bed. I had to take a drug test for a job and I quite for 3 days and I got really depressed, nausous, and felt like doing absolutly nothing. How addictive are bars? I think I like them so much because I am a shy person, and I feel really outgoing and like I can be myself immediatly instead of being shy at first and nervous. Or maybe it's just all in my head and I have an addictive personality. But I really don't because I socially smoke ciggeretts and I don't ever get addicted to those, and they're supposedly soooo addictive. I just don't know.
One question. I'm getting my wisdom teeth surgicly removed, and I will freak out about it unless I take a bar before I go, is that safe since I'm intravainessly being put to sleep. If I don't take a bar I will freak out, I've never had surgery before.
Also I am responsible I never drive on bars because I learned my lesson when I drove into a ditch, but I take them when I have some place to crash or whenever I get home to sleep, then the next day I feel happy and refreshed and confident. I think I have social anxiety disorder or some kind of brain chemical disorder. Is it bad for my body to take bars this often? I mean it is a prescription drug, though I do buy it black market, but I buy weed like that too. So, anyways share your thoughts people:

[Midnighttoker]

P.S. hydrocodone/apap 7.5/750 has no effect on me and makes me itch and angry what can I ask for that's stronger when I go to the oral surgeon tommorow?????

[LaceCurtains]

If by "bars" you are referring to the xanax bars, be careful if you just suddenly stop taking them. Taper. Benzo's, when stopped abruptly after having taken them on a very regular basis can be dangerous. You can actually have seizures.

As for the hydro, if the 7.5's cause you itching, I would think that the 10's would as well. Perhaps try some Benadryl along with the hydro? Of course, I would recommend checking out any interractions between the two, but I can tell you that I personally have combined Benadryl OTC with hydro with no ill effects.

[madboy139]

if you dont like hydro i dont know what other opiates you would like. just tell your doc that you didnt like how they made you feel when you took em last and if there was something else he could prescribe you.

[DarkLunacy]

-coughadictioncough- If your getting depressed about not taking a drug then that should be a big fucking red flag with a huge fucking skull emblazened on it with a big fucking audio attachment screaming "WEEN OFF THIS DRUG!"
Xanax is fucking bad news.

[Antimatter235]

Not only they're fucking addictive for anxious people but withdrawals are a real bitch. They're not physically damaging though.

[Midnighttoker]

I'm still on the bars, I don't have the courage to stop. Why does it it have to be a problem if it's it;s not physically harmful? My dr. prescribed me darvocets by the way, they suck.

[oblivion]

Excuse my ignorance here but,what are 'bars'?

[Codone Consumer]

Xanax bars, "bars" reffering to the shape of the pill, they look like a ladder or a bar, usally white. Alprazolam is the drug name. Alprazolam is a benzodiazepine anxiolytic used in the treatment of anxiety disorders. It is marketed as Xanax by Pharmacia/Upjohn. It is considered to be one of the short-half life benzodiazepines with a half-life around 12 hours
I love bars, I ordered 30 online, and they went very fast, next thing i know my moms askin me why im fallin asleep in my dinner and am I on drugs.

[oblivion]

lol! Thanks, i looked it (alprazolam) up in my BNf(British National Formulary), its marketed under xanax here too, im rather surprised ive not heard of them. I'll ask around, see if i can get me mitts on some.

[DarkLunacy]

I'm still on the bars, I don't have the courage to stop. Why does it it have to be a problem if it's it;s not physically harmful? My dr. prescribed me darvocets by the way, they suck.Because they reduce your IQ to that of about an actual metal bar =D

[Midnighttoker]

Well, I've finally quit. It's been a week since thursday. I'm totally freaking out, I'm really depressed and tired all the time. I hate talking to people, and usually alchohol loosens me up but even that doesn't. I feel like really anxious around people. I've just been at home chilln by myself lately. I can't find any bars. My main dealer went to jail for selling cocaine to an undercover cop. I feel really stupid too like I fried my brain, I didn't really though right? It's just withdrawals that will eventually go away right?

[surffl21]

OMG you need to seriously lay off that shit.. Just reading your post is freaking me out about snorting vicoden once in a wile. By the way can u order vicoden or percocet online with out a perscription

[StonyTheStoner]

Happy to hear that you quit... Just don't start again and you should be ok.

Yeah the depression and anxiety will go away after a while Its just a part of withdrawal, and no you didn't fry your brain, but if you start popping Xanax again you could eventually.

[Midnighttoker]

Ok, I did not quit. I tried and I did for 2 weeks, It was terrible I finally started feeling "normal" and realized I'm not normal. I'm really shy and I get really nervous around people I don't know. I take it as like a medicine to keep me from feeling so nervous, like I'll get twitchy and weird. I don't like get barred out and take it with alcohol. I don't know, but the come down lasted a week and I just can't do it again. I don't want to have to tell people I'm a drug addict so I can go to rehab or something. I can stop and I would like to, but I don't like myself pretty much.

[Midnighttoker]

Why is snorting vicodin so freaky? I did it once to see what it would do when I was prescribed to it for my wisdom teeth removal. And then you ask where you can some, that's gay. The scary thing to me is I can't get off xanax I don't have problems in any other department of drugs or whatever.

[PhotoGra1]

Why is snorting vicodin so freaky? I did it once to see what it would do when I was prescribed to it for my wisdom teeth removal. And then you ask where you can some, that's gay. The scary thing to me is I can't get off xanax I don't have problems in any other department of drugs or whatever.

Vicodin is homosexual?

Alprazolam is a highly addictive benzodiazepine. I have had people jump over my pharmacy counter trying to get it. You have a serious problem. Besides being a bigot, you are addicted to the drug and you have social phobia or generalized anxiety disorder. You need to be on maintanence meds, such as Paxil or Lexapro. You will probably never be able to take a benzo correctly now, which is a shame. It would probably help you if used correctly. You should also start reading Ms Manners.

[Midnighttoker]

I never said Vicoden was gay, I said it was gay the person knocked me for snorting it when he wanted to find some himself and I used it in the sense of stupidity, or slang. What the fuck is Ms Manners anyways? But, anyway should I go see a dr about getting something prescribed to me for my social anxiety or whatever, I know something's wrong with my brain chemistry. What are these drugs do that your suggesting? I don't want to go to the dr and get sent to rehab because I tell them I'm abusing xanax, but they can't right since I'm 19? Also, I was wondering what kind of disorders do people have to get prescribed to xanax, someone told me Schizophrenia, is that true? I saw this lady on Oprah who was addicted to them and she was prescribed to them for migranes. Thay don't seem to kill pain for me because I'm on onw right now and I have a sinus headache, but that's allergies. She like took 5 a day. I take 1 or 1/2 if If I've had alchohol before I go to bed to help me sleep and then the next day I feel calm and not nervous around people and at my job. Like I always get fired and I always suck at job interviews. But if I take a little bit of a bar I can be myself without being shy first and eventually opening up if ever and I actually get jobs and shit and don't get fired. People like say I'm inverted, anti social and shit. Well, I don't know. I need professional advice.

[PhotoGra1]

But, anyway should I go see a dr about getting something prescribed to me for my social anxiety or whatever, I know something's wrong with my brain chemistry. People like say I'm inverted, anti social and shit. Well, I don't know. I need professional advice.

In a word, YES...!

[PhotoGra1]

I never said Vicoden was gay, I said it was gay the person knocked me for snorting it when he wanted to find some himself and I used it in the sense of stupidity, or slang. What the fuck is Ms Manners anyways?

Whether you realize it or not, this promotes hatred! It is very inappropriate. Maybe you would be better off socially if you didn't go around publicly offending groups of people.

What does this mean? Gay = stupidity? You don't see the problem with that? The more you try to explain it, the worse it gets.

And then you ask me a question ?!? You ask for my help? The words IGNORANT and BIGOT come to mind, in the sense of stupidity & slang of course...

Good luck to you, Midnight. I really hope things work out for you, but as a gay=stupid man, I can't help you.
:mad:

[theman]

It sounds like you're pretty dependent on them. I only read the thread starting post and the post below it so it maybe be way off topic now. But as someone else said, don't quit cold turkey if you're going to. The withdrawls can cause seizures and can even kill you if you're really, chronicly abusing them. And I would go to the doctor, psychiatrist, or psychologist(whatever one deals with that social anxiety thing) and see if you do have it, then you can get your shit legally and you won't have to worry about the supplier running out, then you end up going through withdrawls and shit. But the anxiety might just be because you're used to being really chilled on the Xanax, and when you're not on them you don't have that, you feel really anxious and uncomfortable. If its that it would go away after a while.

[deathschmelda]

i had a bud who went to rehab for "bars" they actually got them perscribed and the script was carefully monitored so they would ween off. i strongly suggest this if you have the means and the willpower. i had an addiction to hillbilly heroin (oxycodone) but i decided it was killing my testosterone levels so i kicked it. you really should quit.

[Midnighttoker]

I had to stop for a day while I was trying to find more bars. I was totally quaking. I want some professional help, but what about my job? Will they find out? I have bills to pay, I can't get fired.
I'm going to MN to visit my dad for Christmas (for 7 days), taking bars on a plane isn't the greatest idea in case I'm caught with them, but I don't want to stop cold turkey and freak out my family by being a twitchy, brain fucked, withdrawal psycho.
Oddly my Mom chose today to tell me she's getting a boob job at age 40, I almost had a panic attack, well I did. I was shaking and I had to go to my room, I can't handle avg life even without them. It's really scary, I wish I'd never had anyone offer me a bar, I wish I'd never done drugs, I wish I could re live my life and do things differently. I feel like a total loser, I'm a stupid drug addict. This is what I amount to. I hate myself.

[PhotoGra1]

http://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/facilitylocatordoc.htm http://www.drugabuse.gov/

Good luck to you...

[DarkAbyss]

I can sympathize with you having a social anxiety disorder myself. Maybe not to the degree you described. For me I'm always anxious in anticipation of a social event or meeting new people but once I'm actually at the event or meeting the person it's easier for me. But still I know what it's like to have to fear being in public or meeting someone new. It's incredibly frustrating when you know there's just no good reason for feeling the way you do but you just can't help it.

I've taken Xanax a couple times and they do make it so much easier to go out in public and interact. But I recognized quickly it was gonna become a crutch and stopped completely and haven't touched the things in 3yrs. Yeah, it still sucks having to fear new people and settings but I just grit and bare it. No matter how uncomfortable it is I force myself to just get up and deal with it. That's all you can do.

You sound like you're already addicted so I can only reccomend biting the bullet and seeking professional help. Yeah, it will definitely suck and probably be the hardest thing you've ever been through. But a year or two of unpleasentness is far better than a lifetime of addiction. Most employers should be understanding if you're willingly seeking treatment and your performance at work isn't suffering. You also have the advantage of having a Xanax addiction. Due in part to things like that Oprah episode, addiction to prescrips isn't frowned upon nearly as much as something like cocaine or heroin. I would expect your employer to have some compassion unless the company has a zero tolerance policy or something.

Also I don't have a prescription for it but my mom has been letting me take some of her Lexapro and they work wonders. Once she runs out I'll be paying a visit to the doctor to get my own.

You're only 19. You've still got a lot of time to get clean and turn your life around. Way too many people wait until it becomes an overwhelming problem and even then if they do manage to get clean their life is still in shambles from the years of abuse. Don't let it happen to you. You seem like an intelligent person and the fact that you realize you have a problem at this stage gives you a good headstart on beating this thing. Good luck. PM me if you ever wanna talk about your illness.

[Midnighttoker]

tommorow's my day off, and I'm going to find a dr and go. Like today I was seriously thinking about killing myself because I simply hate life, and I'd rather die young than be old with problems. My step dad has like loaded guns in two corners of our house because all these animals always come in our yard we live in the country. I told him they made me uncomfortable and I don't like them around. I don't think I would actually do it, I'd be too scared but I've never thought about it so seriously, I think I'm getting really depressed because of all this. I just want to be normal again.

[PhotoGra1]

please see a doctor, or call one of the numbers on the links I provided. Life can be good...

I was hooked on Valium and painkillers. My mother has been addicted to everything, up to and including crack. My sister was a junkie. All of us are basically clean now. you can and will get over this, I promise. Feel free to email me.

Good luck to you.

[Maggie Sugar]

tommorow's my day off, and I'm going to find a dr and go. Like today I was seriously thinking about killing myself because I simply hate life, and I'd rather die young than be old with problems.
Midnight, please, can someone drive you to the Emergency Room? Can you call an ambulance? I am serious, I am MORE concerned about your pain and anxiety than the drugs themselves. You are in this fix NOT because you are an addict, but because you have an anxiety disorder. This CAN be helped, but you need immediate help. If you are already looking at ways to hurt yourself, some inpatient time might be helpful, it isn't something to be afraid of. You will be in a safe place where people will HELP you. Please call your doctor or the ER NOW. Someone will talk to you and help you.

None of us here know where you are, or who you are, so you need to talk to someone near you who can help. Please either call your doctor and talk to him NOW or go to the emergency room.

Please get some help for the anxeity.

[Midnighttoker]

yo I'm not going to the emergency room. I think I'm going through a depression that is drug induced. Right now I'm trying to ween myself of the bars, if that's possible. I seem to be getting less depressed, but it's probably drug induced. I don't don't know if I can go to the doctor, I looked up a family medical Dr but theyre closed fri-sun, so I have a number to call and make an appt. I don't think I could actually hurt myself, I'm scared of a paper cut. It's just I get so depressed I have disturbing thoughts.

[Maggie Sugar]

Sorry, I was just trying to help. Where there is smoke, there is fire. I take suicide threats seriously. Like today I was seriously thinking about killing myself because I simply hate life, and I'd rather die young than be old with problems. My step dad has like loaded guns in two corners of our house

Sorry if I took that seriously.

Is there only ONE doctor in your area? Call someone else, call the hospital. You need a doctor who specializes in anxiety, not some Internist who won't be able to treat your problem. People abuse drugs because of a NEED, yours seems to be anxiety related. "Family doctors" and Internists are notorious for not getting psychiatric diagnoses wrong, as well as having no idea how to treat them.

Call the hospital, they can give you a referal to a doctor who can really help.