No escape

[marquis_de_odde]

My heart is a lead balloon
Feeling it's all stopped too soon
I just need to feel okay
Clawing through another day
Sometimes I wake up in a sweat
Full of quick draw life regret

I love you now,of this I'm sure
But would I try to find a cure
If on hand was a tiny fix
To block out all my hard luck ticks
I can't say I endorse denial
Though would embrace an unforced smile

Should I go to find the man
With powdered sunshine from Japan
Knowing full well of the cost
Return to hell once vibe is lost
The flesh is weak in standing shock
Morality just looms to mock

A tiny pouch holds my fate
I take it back and it's too late
Electric current starts me up
The cycle turns to full corrupt
It's beautiful again in short
But morning comes and as we snort
The crystals turn from numb to ache
Was this all a big mistake?
Once the bottom line is reached
I realize just what I've breached
If I only I had some refrain
One can never kill the pain
Just put it in a little jar
Throw it out a speeding car
But when you get back to your door
You'll find it there with plenty more