How many of you are cutters?

[Bloody_Kisses]

confess here: do you cut yourself on a regular basis? have you ever done it? or have you never done it?

[Grunge Lord]

I cut myself. Not nessicarily on a regualr basis, I guess I go on cutting sprees.

[Bloody_Kisses]

i do the same thing!

[riptiderevolucion]

I used to occasionally slash my arm with a pair of scissors or a knife.

[Grunge Lord]

Whats the best way to cover it up? Its summer and I don't like wearing long sleeve shirts, now its too hot.

[Bloody_Kisses]

use makeup, wristbands or bracelets, or just make up a story to go along with it. i used to have problems hiding it so now whenever i feel the need to cut i just do it on my upper leg where it isnt clearly visible. also you can put neosprin on the cuts to help them heal and not be as visible.

[flying_spoo420]

I , on occasion, burn myself. It's like cutting, I guess. I could never really cut myself, but I've got cigarrette burns on my wrists since I was like 8 years old.

[cousinit]

be carfull wiht thoes cigartett burns. i know guy who burnt and severed a tendon in his wrist by doing that. he was in physicle therapy for couple years after the operation to repair it.

[Bloody_Kisses]

yeah my friend brittany put out two cigarettes on her arm and now she has these huge disgusting boils on her arm. they were like third degree burns and the scars are disgusting. i still love her though =)

[Patch]

i cut myself of a pretty regular basis...and i do have that summertime problem...when you get tan the scars show up even more...eek...so i moved to cutting the tops of my legs and my lower abdomen area...places the public doesn't really see...it works out pretty well

[show_girl]

i stopped cutting myself for a while but i recently got so angered that i now have a huge one up my calf. it's horrible and a bad habit of mine.

[inbloom]

instead of switching spots to cover it up, how about just stopping? did that ever occur to anyone? :confused:

[flying_spoo420]

thats not so easy, inbloom. I mean, I personally havent dealt with the pressures, but my best friend has been trying to quit cutting for years now. She is just so stress and confused and unable to take care of herself that she breaks down and goes straight for the razor. I love her to death, but I know I cant stop her, the cutter need sto want to stop, you cant force it. It's like nicotine for most people.

[Bloody_Kisses]

instead of switching spots to cover it up, how about just stopping? did that ever occur to anyone? :confused:
its occured to me. i have pretty much stopped, but once in awhile i will just break down and go for it. its really hard not to, i know it sounds pathetic. and im pretty sure most people grow out of it.

[RaZoRblAdEKiSsEs]

i used to cut and it is a very bad habit and anyone who does it, needs to stop because it can lead to dire consequences, i was put in counseling and am on meds. and i got a light sentence. so it's nothing to brag about.

love.
chelsea

[cynicalromance]

I used to be a cutter but I quit about a year ago, haven't since. I usually covered it up with cheap plastic bracelets, they usually did the job pretty well, although they chafed my cuts something awful. I also would wear long sleeved, but thin cotton button up shirts to cover up the scars if there were more than one.

I also ended up cutting on my hips and legs where no one would see.

[Earthy Mama]

I'm deciding to not share something painful and secretive with you because you seem to think its bragging so I'm deleting my thread. Thanks alot of the understanding.

[RaZoRblAdEKiSsEs]

if you are bragging about cutting yourself then...i think it's utter ignorance. because honestly it's nothing to brag about, it's a serious thing, that can lead to worse situations.

love.
chelsea

[Bloody_Kisses]

if you are bragging about cutting yourself then...i think it's utter ignorance. because honestly it's nothing to brag about, it's a serious thing, that can lead to worse situations.

love.
chelsea
totally agree. well said :)

[inbloom]

i just cant even fathom ever hurting myself, like that. i've accidently cut myself before, slicing vegetables and shit. and fuck man, it just hurts. and then it feels all numb and shit. and i hate that. i hate when i don't have feeling in a certain part of my body. doesn't feel right.

i know it's probably not as easy to quit as it seems. nothing ever is. but i mean, it's hurting you. i just think that alone should be enough to stop people from doing it. but, then again, i've never been in that state of mind.

[DarkLunacy]

I used to go off on my arm... But its always a long time between cutting sprees. Last time was real bad. I had at least a dozen slashes up my arm. It just felt a strange kinda good

[Earthy Mama]

if you are bragging about cutting yourself then...i think it's utter ignorance. because honestly it's nothing to brag about, it's a serious thing, that can lead to worse situations.

love.
chelsea

who??? me? If you feel that way I don't care, it wasn't meant that way. Since you were all sharing what has happened what you did, I did too. I can't see where you get bragging from? Bragging that I got help? Actually I came back on here to delete what I wrote because its something painful that I've been thinking about all day now and I don't want others to see and you validated why that was for me now. Yea, even though your just some other kid on the internet its the same slap on the face as someone in real life laughing at me, hence the not telling many people who are close to me. I don't know why I decided to share with you, seemed like everyone was nice and understood here.

[Tamee]

I've never done it, nor had the urge to.

Though, when I was 12, a few friends and I tried cutting ourselves on wrists, ankles, just to see what it was like. I tried, but I couldn't ever put enough pressure to draw blood or anything. Afterwards, I was just left with a few scrape marks. And that was the end of that.

[LullabySam]

I used to cut myself all the time cause i got stressed cause people wouldnt stop nagging me or slagging me of, but since i've met Daron(PeopleAreStrange)my boyfriend i havent cut myself at all cause now when people say anything to me i ignore them and just think about Daron he's stopped me from cutting myself i dont know how but now i just dont seem to want to when im stressed.

Sam
xxx

[maryfairy]

i did in december for a few weeks. but i never went deep because i didn't want my parents to find out. and then i told my best friend and he almost started crying so i stopped. i've never seen him cry before. and so i just think of that whenever i want to.

[Patch]

i don't know why on earth anyone would brag about such a thing...i mean i only said what i said because i was offering help...now that i think about it...it wasn't really helpful...the right decision is to stop...but i know how hard that is

[RaZoRblAdEKiSsEs]

who??? me? If you feel that way I don't care, it wasn't meant that way. Since you were all sharing what has happened what you did, I did too. I can't see where you get bragging from? Bragging that I got help? Actually I came back on here to delete what I wrote because its something painful that I've been thinking about all day now and I don't want others to see and you validated why that was for me now. Yea, even though your just some other kid on the internet its the same slap on the face as someone in real life laughing at me, hence the not telling many people who are close to me. I don't know why I decided to share with you, seemed like everyone was nice and understood here.
This wasn't directed towards you at all, I'm sorry if it came across that way. I know what it's like to deal with it. I was simply stating that because I know some kids who do brag about cutting themselves when they don't know the consequences of their actions, I was simply saying that in case anyone was, it wasn't directed at anyone in particular. I was just sharing a thought, I'm sorry if it came across as that. Have a good day.

love.
chelsea

[interval_illusion]

i cut myself pretty bad a few times when i was 17 but then i stopped and realize how stupid it is.

[Grunge Lord]

I'd like to know how to stop.....

[SweeperOfDreams13]

Aye, cutting is a part of my daily routine. I bring my knife everywhere with me in case I feel the need.
I loves me some pain. mmmm, delicious.
Watching the blood seep out is wonderful.
It is hard to cover up though, and I'm running out of room on my arm.
At this rate I'll be wearing long sleeves for the whole summer. No shorts either.
Meh, small price to pay..

[NKat]

it's a realization that has to come over you.. suddenly, you don't need to cut anymore. but it's a lot like smoking - you can quit, and it's ok for a while, and then something happens, and suddenly you have these horrible "cravings". as with any method of escaping problems, it can be really addictive. people tend to not understand that inflicting pain upon oneself is just as helpful to some people as meditating is to others because ultimately, it can be dangerous.

i've always burned - it's much more painful than cutting, and if you only burn yourself mildly, the mark only lasts for a couple of days, so you don't have to worry about scars. if you burn too deep, the scar is pretty bad though, so be careful.

[lucyinthesky]

Whats the best way to cover it up? Its summer and I don't like wearing long sleeve shirts, now its too hot.
here's an idea, don't cut yourself!! :eek:

i used to cut my arms in highschool, and it was fucking gay. go get a piercing or something safer. I'm so glad i don't do that anymore.

[peaceful420]

I used to have a real problem with it, and no one understood. I was addicted to it, and I never dealt with my emotions, I just bled the pain out or burned myself (I have a huge scar on my arm). It was really hard to stop. Don't get yourself into that. I never had coping skills, so that's why I did. I've been getting really strong urges to start cutting again. Just don't get yourself into a whole mess. It's dangerous as hell. Quite relieving, but still dangerous.

VERY IMPORTANT:

Since so many people don't understand it and have so many problems with it, I'm writing a book. Not for cutters, but for the people who love/know them and want to understand it. Please send me your stories and things like why you did it, when you started, why you kept doing it, people's reactions, blah blah blah. Thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart.

[lucyinthesky]

here's an idea, don't cut yourself!! :eek:

i used to cut my arms in highschool, and it was fucking gay. go get a piercing or something safer. I'm so glad i don't do that anymore.
someone put in my rep, in response to this post, that "ignorance hurts". I in fact am not ignoring anything, I USED TO DO IT. Cutting yourself isnt safe and i don't support it. People should deal with their emotions without having to block it with physical pain. It all catches up to you at some point or another.

[inbloom]

^^^^^^^^^^ same here!!! i was just about to comment on it!!!! :eek:

where at all in my replies was i ignorant!?!?!?! nowhere, i was just stating that i didn't understand it. that's all!!! fuck!!! :rolleyes:

[metro]

someone put in my rep, in response to this post, that "ignorance hurts". I in fact am not ignoring anything, I USED TO DO IT. Cutting yourself isnt safe and i don't support it. People should deal with their emotions without having to block it with physical pain. It all catches up to you at some point or another.
well, I didn't give you the rep, but what you said is like telling a drug addict to just stop taking drugs, not too helpful. They know it's not safe, but it's addicting. I've never done it, but know some who have. All you guys who are doing this should get professional help, I'm sure there are people trained to deal with this.

[lucyinthesky]

well, I didn't give you the rep, but what you said is like telling a drug addict to just stop taking drugs, not too helpful. They know it's not safe, but it's addicting. I've never done it, but know some who have. All you guys who are doing this should get professional help, I'm sure there are people trained to deal with this.
i agree with that completely, in another thread somewhere around here i posted that exactly, these people need help. And i know it's addicting, i said it once, i'll say it again, i used to do it. And i got help. I'm thankful as hell that i don't do it anymore. It's a disgusting habit that surpresses your emotions; it's exactly like an unatural drug.

[beatlerific]

instead of switching spots to cover it up, how about just stopping? did that ever occur to anyone? :confused:
thank you inbloom. you took the words right out of my mouth.

[Cosmic Butterfly]

I used to have a real bad self injury habit....From stress mainly my psycho mother.

I was really embarrassed. I finally quit. You have to knock yourself out of that mindset, and find the root of it, and destroy it. Whatever situation, or feelings make you do it. Why? There are THOUSANDS of over positive outlets than making your blood flow.

[KermodeBear]

I used to cut myself when I was in high school.

Under times of severe stress, I would undergo bouts of dissociation (http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=dissociation). It's interesting when this happens; I felt as if I was watching myself in the third person, and there would be this constant ranting going on inside of my head as I pulled the razor down my arm.

"Why are you doing this? You know it's crazy. Do you know what will happen when people see it? They'll think that you're some kind of freak. Well, you are, but it will give them even more reason to think so. And what will happen if the teachers at the school see it? They'll tell the counselors, who will tell your parents, and then you'll really be in trouble. What the hell is the matter with you anyways? You're overreacting. Grow up."

And then, of course, there was the 'other me', who would interject comments back, trying to justify the action.

I felt like poor Gollum.

It's a terrible thing to do. Everyone has different reasons on the surface for doing it; A relationship breaking down, nasty parents, severe loneliness, other things... But, from my experience, it all comes down to having very strong emotions and not having a way to express them in a normal way, so they end up manifesting themselves in something concrete and physical. In the end though, disrespect for the self, self loathing, is what it ultimately boils down to.

Once I finally came to and was 'myself' again, looking down at the cuts, I would feel very embaressed. They stung in the shower every morning, a clear reminded of earlier self abuse. Of course I would have to hide them, or make excuses. The most common was that I had to chase my dog through the woods and I ran into some briars.

It never worked though. People knew. I never was a good liar anyways, especially to myself, no matter how hard I tried.

And try I did, even though it only made things worse. This went on for well over a year, usually in bouts of a week at a time, then a month or so with no activity while the wounds healed. Well, the physical wounds, at least. The other wounds never really leave.

But, one day (night?), I was at it again, and something inside of me had finally had enough. I never really wanted to do what I did, but I never had the strength to say no because, well, I had no real reason to. I found a reason though, it was a re-learning of an old rule of Wicca.

I'm not a big fan of that Ye Olde English that everyone else uses, so I use something more vernacular; "Do whatever you want as long as you don't hurt anybody." What I had forgotten, or perhaps more accurately ignored in my self-pity was that I was included in that 'anybody'.

"What the hell are you doing? You bozo, put that razor down and promise not to do it again."

So, I did. I made a promise to my Goddess not to do it again. So far, that promise remains unbroken.

Now, religion isn't for everyone. Some might argue (Even I make this argument sometimes, it depends on how philosophical I feel at the moment) that I was really making a promise to myself. But, some don't have the help of religion or the self confidence to make a promise to either, and so my saga continues:

My very first human lady-friend (That wording, using for a reason, may be the subject of another, much longer and involved post), whom I am still with, had a problem with cutting herself too. Needless to say, this was a problem that I had experience with, and I was more than glad to talk to her about it.

That it was lovers do, by the way. They don't wuss out and leave when things get diffcult. They do what they can to help and support the ones they love, even though it may be hard.

Her problems were similar to mine, and simply being able to talk to someone she could trust helped her immensely. It's very difficult to pull yourself out of this on your own. Regardless, like any problem, having a confidant to talk to always helps.

She couldn't make a promise to herself to stop, nor is she strongly religious. Making a vow to a diety would be near meaningless to her. In the end, I asked her to make a promise to me that she would not do it again. She has come close several times, but she tells me that she always reminds herself of the promise and she stops herself. Helping her with this mutual problem has only served to bring us closer together.

The chain continued; One of her friends turned out to have the cutting problem, and with my lady-friend all the stronger and able to help, her friend has had but one incident in the past year.

Some people grow out of it; It just fades away, they stop one day and never think about it again. They are the lucky ones. Others turn to help such as God (Jesus, Yahweh, Kernunnos, Braman, take your pick, there's thousands), friends, family, or lovers. Regardless, it is not worth your time or the pain to go through it again. If you are having a problem with cutting yourself, or any other kind of self humiliation or mutilation, I urge you to talk to somebody - even if it is just a rock on the road.

[Fizzyliftingdrink]

I used to cut when I was 10, but I got counselling. Then I started when I was depressed in highschool, again, had counselling. I stopped for quite sometime. But I confided in a boyfriend that I used to do it and he got SO mad. "I hate people who do that, I never wanted a girlfriend who does that". It made me feel horrible, but I said that I would never do it again. I was over it. Well, the boyfriend became meaner and meaner and abusive, and I was trapped in that relationship. I was so depressed. I started cutting, I was so good at hiding it from him, because I was so depressed I would never even make out with him. I would sit in the bathroom and cut, and it would be a release. I think that everyone has some sort of crutch, whether it's alcohol, or drugs or T.V. or church or cutting. I cut. I haven't cut since I broke up with him and got counselling again. I've been feeling pretty depressed lately and been having the urge, but I've been very good at fighting it. It's like a drug. You know how good it feels, and when you want to escape you get the urge to do it, but it doesn't fix anything. It's just a band-aid

[KozmicBlue]

You people are crazy. :confused:

[KermodeBear]

And people who are nasty and rude don't help. For the sake of helping others with this problem, if you're not going to say something constructive please go elsewhere.

[Merenwenelanesse]

It really is a constant battle...I used to cut myself when I was in highschool. I stopped whe I was about 18. But even now when I get really depressed, I get the urge, and sometimes its REALLY hard to make that urge go away. So far though I have been able to. I know you all have the strength too, just just need to find it inside. I know its hard...but it can be overcome.
Much love,
Sasha

[Willy_Wonka_27]

my best friend used to do it

and alot of other people i know do it

i understand it ... but i dont think it is a good idea

my friend got councling and his councler anoyed him so much he just wanted to do it more...but he just stuck by his friends and finily quit

i dont have to wory about ever doing it because i never get mad or upset ...because i have mild schizophrenia and it makes me always think happy

[ThrftShopSweater]

my best friend does it, and my sister does too... i wish i could help them, it hurts me to see them hurt themselves....

[cherryiceangel]

I tried it once because I knew a bunch of kids that did it...didn't do much for me though.

[TheStoon]

Yeah, i've a friend who does it (well, a few actually) - one time i got pissed off and made them sit down whilst i cut my arm from my elbow to my wrist right in front of them, the whole time they were telling me "stop, don't do it, its stupid, what if you injure yourself!!" - i don't think they realised just how stupid they sounded.

The bottom line is if you are needing to do this then you need help. Now, for some people the only time they get that help is when they go too far and seriously injure themselves, some other people aren't that lucky - imagine coming home and finding a blood soaked bed, with a dead teenager on it, doesn't matter a fuck to whoever finds you if you weren't actually meaning to kill yourself, and these accidents do happen, no matter how careful you are. And of course some people do just grow out of it... but, there is always that risk.

Although I do understand it, i find it one of the most selfish things a person can do.

[cherryiceangel]

Although I do understand it, i find it one of the most selfish things a person can do.
*cringes* Selfish...I don't get why people say that...I think the person who tells them to "stop because I care" is more selfish...

[Hippy_Smurf]

I do think it is somewhat selfish to do, but when you're a cutter and you're hooked on whatever it is that makes you feel better when you do it, your judgement is clouded and it doesn't matter who it's hurting, yourself or other people. Even if you love the people to pieces, you can't stop cutting yourself for them because it's something you can be too attached to to give up.

When you come out of that stage in your life (some people do, some don't I guess) you realise that there are better ways of dealing with your emotions than expressing them physically, in ways that don't hurt other people so much.

I can only speak for myself, but that's how it felt to me. Oddly, I don't regret what I did because I've learnt a hell of a lot about myself and the way people look at me as a cutter/ex cutter/'normal' person.

[Moose]

I kinda cutted myself, but then my best friend started doing it and like I spent most of my time trying to get herself not to cut that I guess it just felt pointless. Oh and my friend is getting meds and seeing a physcartrist.

[dirtygirl_4u2004]

confess here: do you cut yourself on a regular basis? have you ever done it? or have you never done it? No am not a cutter but i know someone who is and i think there is other ways to deal with your anger or whatever you are going though please get help that is not good

[LuciferSam]

A guy on my dorm floor over the past year was a cutter, he later got taken away to a psychiatric ward cuz he was becoming suicidal (he's better now).

I don't mean to be insensitive at all, but I really can't understand why people cut themselves. I mean, there are thousands of less painful ways to sublimate tumultuous emotions. But I guess it's relative.

[lucyinthesky]

*cringes* Selfish...I don't get why people say that...I think the person who tells them to "stop because I care" is more selfish...
people who call it selfish don't understand. People cut to relieve emotional troubles...people also cry, throw fits, yell, scream it's like saying all of those are selfish. Although i think cutting is a horrible way to do it, it's not fair to call it selfish.

[TheStoon]

people who call it selfish don't understand. People cut to relieve emotional troubles...people also cry, throw fits, yell, scream it's like saying all of those are selfish. Although i think cutting is a horrible way to do it, it's not fair to call it selfish.
Of course it's selfish - doing something that is entirely for yourself, the only way it effects other people is detrimental, be that through worry, or god forbid, having to deal with someone who has gone too far - tell me how that isn't selfish....

When you do an act that is purely for yourself without taking into account the feelings of others then that is being selfish.


*cringes* Selfish...I don't get why people say that...I think the person who tells them to "stop because I care" is more selfish...
Ya, cos worrying about someone is selfish, i forgot that.

Anyway, I don't tell people to stop for because i care about them, i ask them to stop because of the effect it has on others.

All you people who cut yourselves just think how your parents would feel if they knew, or your grandparents, or just anyone you care about - cos doing that and not thinking of the potential consequences for them is selfish - imagine them finding out by coming home and finding you in a blood filled bath, white as a sheet.

Most people who cut are in denial about the potential dangers, "its harmless" is often heard from cutters, "it doesn't hurt anyone" is another one, "its not doing any real damage" is another. Well, go and cut yourself all you want, cos one day you'll go to far and you won't be able to cut yourself again.

[jimmyairplane]

I don't cut myself. Although I used to when I was about 10. Then I stopped. But now it's just been like a constant battle between beating the shit out of myself and trying to rip off my flesh. It's hard when dealing wtih bi-polar. It feels good, then it doesn't.

I remember one time earlier this year I was having an attack and punched myself about 5 times in the side of my face where my temple is. I heard you can kill yourself that way, but I didn't succeed I guess. But my face was bruised for over a week. I told my mom I tripped and fell. Hmmm. Alright.

I've also struggled with ed's since I was about 4 years old.

[ThrftShopSweater]

i wouldnt go so far to call it a selfish thing, most people who are serious cutters do need help, not to be called selfish.. although i must admit.. even if it does make them feel good, it hurts me.. but thats probably a really really selfish statement! lol, 1 reason why i wouldnt call cutters selfish

[Ocean Byrd]

I cut very often back in 9th grade; I was suicidal once and tried to take the edge off that feeling with some cutting and happened to cut nearly 1/6th an inch deep. Course, I'm better at coping now, which is why I resorted to it in the first place. But that scar will never go away, scared myself that night, put my blade away right quick.

[Meeshka Chaukinov]

i once carved the number 4 into the back of my hand with a safety pin....does that count?

[crummyrummy]

I once carved and ATN into my left forearm.