stacy lulu

So one of my friends think I have bi polar...and he likes it..

He didnt admit it until last night. I denied of course..really confused..but then I thought about it...

Just 20 minutes after he said that, I was talking about my ex...I get really emotional talking about him because he did all this crazy stuff to me.. I told my friend that he has a gf now and I was pissed about it. I went off in the car screaming on how "can that FUCKING ASSHOLE GET A GF SO QUICK AND EASY??" I mean I was really...

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 stacy lulu

and that is me. Im not being conceited but I found love for myself. Im in love, Im happy and satisfied with what I came to terms with. After almost years of having self hatred, I just have this unbelievable feeling with myself. me, myself and I, that I can deal with. I've been praying to fall in love again but with a good person and I think I realise that the good person i SHOULD be falling in love with is me. Before anyone else.

Im not really lonely, if a guy comes around, Im not...

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 stacy lulu

shutting down
Sometimes you need to shut down to pick yourself back up

Theres a mess here and Im not sure how long it will take

My apologizes for doing this but I need to

I cant runaway anywhere but mentally im shutting down


Ive been holding too much in and I think its time to break down

I'll smile someday and mean it

I'll love one day and mean it

but first, I have to do this

Dreading the ugly word "depression"

I have to let myself go

Close myself up to avoid this

I...

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