stinkfoot 

I don't know how I'd be in similar circumstances so to offer any advice I'd have to be sure I'd be able to take it... I'm not so sure as I'm confronting the fact that the sense of my own happiness seems conditional on factors that are impermanent. While physical health is not really one of my problems it is impermanent in the grand scheme of things. My issues are far less serious than yours and I've found myself to be thrown way off balance by such relatively trivial problems like employment and income.

I'm not an overtly religious person- I do hold some spiritual beliefs but am reluctant to adulterate them with a label that serves political purposes more than spiritual ones. I found that some perspectives offered through Buddhism to be helpful- not so much in preventing my periodic dips into lower frames of mind but in helping me snap out of it when it starts getting old. Dialogs with the right person might prove helpful- I've enjoyed some significant lifts through a particular friendship I've been fortunate enough to cultivate but I've also cultivated an unhealthy reliance on that dialog- which I am prone to. I'm confident that you're healthier in that aspect so it may be something to consider.

You're making progress... I have little doubt that you're focused on that and hope that the progress- as well as your focus on it continues.

Good luck and God bless.

The Instinct

these are all great posts!!!!! if you al are bored and want to do something for me, go to my profile, look at my picture and say this 10 times: imsorry, please forgive me, thank you, i love you, its called the ho'oponopono technique and it may help me recouperate quicker thanks!!!!! much love to all my friends here! smoke one for me

Barefoot Guy

You MUST keep a positive attitude if you want to progress. Mental and physical work in unison and if you feel depressed you will not realize how each little increment of progress brings you closer to your goal.

Your ex-gf is good riddance. A true friend would be loyal and at your side through good times and bad. Her true colors were shown and it is best for you. I know it is easy to be at a distance, judging your situation solely by the words you write but I am just trying to help. I DO know what it's like to be in a compromised position, but you MUST be positive. Please, think good things.

etherea

Just popped in to say hi! Onwards and upwards my friend! Cool photos by the way.

The Instinct

thanks skip! progress report stands as such: had surgery on my left heal to straighten out my foot in hopes ill walk easier, that was march 13th, now ive got a brace on again to help keep the foot straight. i walk with a hemi cane in pt. its a 4 pronged rubber stumped cane, wal-mart sells them if you want to get an idea and take a look. still no functioning in my left arm and hand ive got to get that back somehow as i play the guitar!

etherea

Thanks for the update ma man!

The Instinct

well, im walking with a hemi walker now, left arm/hand/fingers and toes still dont move when i want them too! i think my guitar playing days might be over! that totally sucks too!!!! right when i had just bought a new guitar and amp setup!!!!!