Who / What is the Legacy of My Life ?

legacy
noun
plural legacies

1 a gift by will especially of money or other personal property : bequest

2 something transmitted by or received from an ancestor or predecessor or from the past

3 a candidate for membership in an organization (such as a school or fraternal order) who is given special status because of a familial relationship to a member

Some of us leave no such things like this. I don't have that perfect car to donate to National Public Radio (you know, the 1957 Bel-Air convertible with the stick on the floor). I haven't won a significant lottery so I won't be sending money to my beloved organization that plants trees in Israel.

I have no direct progeny of my own. There is one nephew who is married with three chilcren. There was another nephew who has passed away and left behind a widow and a child with special needs. (I read somewhere that millennials generally don't like to receive artifacts. I take that to mean that they like portfolios, precious stones and metals, or liquid cash in hard currency).

I went to city colleges and universities. The only private education that I had ever received was something generically termed 'religious instruction'. And even that, at one point, was more cultural than religious. For many years, I kept journals. There are numerous entries where those in my life were not mentioned with full names. Some were not mentioned by any name at all. A nameless person without a picture is kind of like a vague memory that is distorted without corroborating evidence.
I have memories of places where I met men for annonymous sex. Book stores, movie houses, condemned piers, inside produce trucks, bushes, rock formations in quaries, a toilet at a cemetery, a cardboard box, a bathtub.

These memories or activities won't grant any familial relations membership into any organization that would elevate their status to a desired level among the social ranks.

Legacy is not something that an introvert really thinks of or considers too much. In the literature, I think I'd prefer to be mentioned in a footnote (Turabian style, please) rather than splashed among paragraphs as someone whose point of view was worth reading, viewing, or pointing to.

I think I'll end this here.